BLOOD OF A POET // writing dump

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[div style="border: transparent; background: transparent; width: 400px; margin-top: 2px; margin-left: 9px; text-align: justify; font-size: 11px; letter-spacing: 1px; text-transform: lowercase;"][font=arial][color=black]you beautiful, broken thing. you magical, tortured being. what have they done to you? tell me, honey, what have they done? please, i need to know. i see the way you tremble, knees shaky when you think no one is around. i see the way your stardust bones have been beaten brittle. i see the way your moon eyes shine the way it would upon rotting flesh. i see the way your hands ball up at your side, as if trying to protect you from something unknown. what have they done? the monster that hurt you, what was it they did that made you - you, the sweetest creature i have come to know, you, the heaven that i have always known existed - crumble. i see the way you could glitter like brilliant stars, or the way the world glitters when the sun kisses it. i see the way that you inhale, soft and scared, and i know that it could end in an exhale of only the sweetest of things. but someone has taken your breath, someone with angry hands have gripped your throat tight and strangled you into this frightened, wing-ripped fallen angel. what did they do to you? did they rip your wings out? are the scars left on you from the struggle, or because you were completely submissive in letting them destroy you? i know you have an inner strength, i can feel it in the flicker of your eyes when you refuse to meet my own, in the fast beat of your heart, in the way you try not to startle any time i try to get close. i know your inner strength exists, because if it didn't then you wouldn't have survived all the agony they've put you through. i know you, like all people, are made of stardust, but i also know that you, unlike most people, are not just a star, but the moon - you are the reason the stars shine. and i? i am the sun, longing to reach out to you in the early morning rays, before i have completely come up and you have completely gone down. i keep trying to reach you, to gently clasp our hands together and stroll with you through oblivion until you let me take you to heaven. i want to kiss you warm, turn your silver light to gold like honey. you sweet, sweet, sweet angel. i want to give you new wings, i want to give you my everything. but i don't know how, i don't know how, i don't know how. you are a fragile thing, a soft petal or the first snowfall of winter, a fawn stumbling on unsteady limbs or a summer breeze rifling through my hair. you are unsure, unaware, bruised and beaten. broken, shattered. but that is not what defines you, it isn't, it isn't, it isn't. when you sleep, i let you know all of these certainties that i feel in my own stardust bones. i'd tell you awake, but i know you would never listen. i'd tell you from the top of every mountain, screaming it until my lungs collapsed. i'd tell you in whispers, because it only matters that it reaches you. the world doesn't deserve you, it's been the safe haven to all your demons. but i'm not ready for you to leave this place, to leave me. selfish as it may be, i am jealous of the way you stare so fondly at the night sky, i can read you even with the little amount, in the grand scheme of things, that i have known you. i can, as if you were actually speaking aloud, hear the way you beg to join the night sky, begging it to turn you into a comet. you already are, i scream in my head. you already are, you already are, you already are. again i ask, what have they done, what have they done? there are so many words, so many phrases that i could give to you; i could give you these truths that i feel but it would never be enough. it's never enough. but just being here, watching over you, taking care of you, silently promising no more harm will ever come to you? that's enough for me. you are enough for me. i don't think anyone has ever told you that, my sweet one, my baby heaven, my moon angel. and though i might never be able to tell you, because you might not ever listen to me. just know that i think it, it is all i think about. i might be a shout, and you might be a whisper; but the loudness or softness of words have never defined who one is. because all you've ever received from the loudness is harsh, bitter, cruel. yet all that i have whispered in the dark is kind, loving, devoting. adoration, is what you deserve. and so long as i am permitted to whisper to you, the loudness of my love will be heard - no matter how soft, no matter how gentle. for petals aren't born from cold hardness, they are born of warm softness. and angels aren't born with ripped out, broken wings and scars on their skin. angels are born perfect, flawless, able to fly and with halos crowning them as the highest supreme of royalty. angels are born with heaven in their eyes, their hands, their hearts.

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people wouldn't notice, they never did
they'll believe what they want, i can't explain why
but it doesn't matter, let them be blind
because baby i see, i see you, i see you
you're the only thing i see
i've got the world, its what everyone will say
i know i don't have the world unless i'm beside where you lay
there is something wrong with me, wrong with you
the world screams harshly to me
but you whisper "i love you" and i need, i need
i need you to know there's nothing wrong with us,
we are just in love
there's nothing wrong with that baby,
even if they don't see what i see
just know, i found a person whose my home
i, i, i,
love, love, love,
you, you, you
please don't forget it, because i do, i do, i do
i do love you
forget the world and the lies they know
there's nothing wrong with us, you're my home
blue, blue eyes met my green, green
and i was gone, i was a goner
i saw my fate in your eyes, couldn't look away
left my heart in your hands, you didn't let it break
i see you, i see you, i see you,
you beautiful blue boy
my beautiful blue boy

-- oof this is trash but whatever, its kind of a song, it's from the perspective of a character of mine, rory. but yeah might delete this later or edit it or something. eeww idk if i should have posted it but whatever i did it anyway. probably will regret it in the morning haha but i cried while writing it so c: haha

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YOU ARE LOVELY <3

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&& zeus || a voice that demands to be listened to, clear blue eyes, watching a movie and knowing how its going to end, the leader of the group, the one with rumbled laughter, the one that dreams of flying far away and had big big plans, the know-it-all, rain jackets, grey clouds with the sun poking through, the excitement and fear you feel when lightning flashes, the hairs on your arm standing on end
&& hera || the confidence you feel doing what you are passionate about, naturally long eyelashes, sharp eyes, highlighter on cheekbones, the one they hate but also admire,  demands attention when you walk past, you know everyone's dirty secrets, nude lips and white painted nails, you are terrifying when angry, diamond anklets, silver rings, styled hair
&& poseidon || the sea foam that kisses your feet before you step into the ocean, deep eyes that you can't tell if they are blue or if they are green, sun kissed skin, the smell of coconuts and salty air, sand crystals left on your skin, weird tan/burn lines, crinkles by your eyes when you smile, you're a comfortable presence, you always feel better when you are near water, sunnies on always, tank tops and flip flops, the wind messing up your hair
&& demeter || clear skies and the first cold wind of the season, jumping in a pile of raked leaves, the smell of the earth when harvesting begins, the mom friend, extra sweaters in case someone gets cold, you love to watch things grow, running through a field of sunflowers, always barefoot, long hair that's braided, cinnamon candies, having to pet every dog you see, crying when no one is watching, pearls with white lingerie, keeping the house warm so you can sleep beneath the coolness of your quilt, sweaters with shorts
&& athena || staying up all night because you got caught up reading conspiracy theories, coffee rings on the table, a disorganized but organized desk, neat handwriting, overthinking so you can't sleep, leaving people on read because you forget, "let's get creative", knows it all, fountain pens, journals, mismatched knee socks, resting bitch face, remembers the little details about you, jean jackets, glasses, prank sinatra, gazed off into the distance and makes things awkward, that one friend you go to for advice even though they've never been in the situation, walking encyclopedia of irrelevant facts, listens to hamilton every day
&& ares || that overwhelming feeling you get when all your emotions overtake you and you see red, leather jackets, the smell of smoke that lingers after a bonfire, parkour, converse over vans every damn day, always has a lighter but doesn't smoke, getting into fights to defend someone's honor, bruised knees, dark circles underneath bright eyes, brown eyes, the revving of a motorcycle, not paying attention in class but acing the exam, trying to be punk rock but you're more pop punk, skateboarding is edgy, bitten nails, air drum solo, screaming when you're alone in your room and no one can hear you, when you smile it's like the world is at peace
&& apollo || that feeling when the sun finally rises after days and days of rain, the light always seems to want to be wherever you are, the sun slipping in through the window, acoustic guitars, humming to yourself, constant melody in your head, beat up sneakers, blonde hair, smiling eyes, glitter always seems to be on you, a yellow aura, the innocence of a child, laughing at inappropriate times, a song is always stuck in your head, flower crowns and singing in open field, cloud gazing, the color of honey, freckles everywhere because you are always outside, flushed cheeks, cherub-like face, warm hands, singing by a fire, the car ride on the way to see your favorite band play
&& artemis || the feeling you get sitting on your roof and watching the moon sit silently in the sky, vans shoes, jean jackets, staying up late on the weekends, sneaking out of your house, stargazing with your best friends after you all got high at a party, silver hair, observant eyes, an angry indie kid, ponytails, chapped lips, running through the woods, laughing when no one is around but the night sky, reading your horoscope every day, amethyst necklaces, arrow wrist tattoos, sticking up for your best friend no matter what, probably has a cat, pale skin, cold hands, the edgy friend, silver nail polish, black hair
&& hermes || the friend that keeps laughing at the joke even though it's been three days, hanging out with your friends all the time, never doing homework but still manages to pass the class, t-shirts, gossiping, getting the class clown award, different colored hair, track suits and adidas all the time, "psycho but cute but psycho", actually a meme, sneaky smirks, the sketchy friend, the loudest person in the room but still the one no one knows, could pick their friends anywhere out of a crowd, makes their mom say "no" so they don't have to go out, video games, soda overlord, "will there be food?", always munchie, might be high but we'll never know
&& aphrodite || the feeling of your heart skipping a beat when your crush walks by, bambi eyes, winged eyeliner, silk sheets, the one who never has a mean thing to say, can quote disney movies for anything, skinny jeans, cute boots, can't sing but will do it anyway, heart on their sleeve, teardrops, "rip out his ego with your fresh nails", the heartbroken, loves everyone and probably can't keep a relationship, gets bored easily but is easily entertained, trying their best, heart is always in the right place, moody, pastels, walking around your house in just your underwear, midnight snacks, pink lipstick, sparkling eyes, does color runs, kisses people as a way of greeting them
&& dionysus || tasting wine with your parents while you are underage, collecting wine glasses just to put plants in them (terrariums), "i only eat grape flavored popsicles", obsessed with cults, probably always watching crime shows, gets nightmares from the shows they watch, likes to randomly wear suits, constantly fixing their hair, overreacts to literally everything, can't tell if they are actually dramatic or just being annoying on purpose, is either eeyore or tigger there is no in between, getting drunk over a person (lovedrunk), karaoke nights, gentle touches, sharp cheekbones, believes in polygamy
&& hades || the comfort you get when it's pitch black in your room and you can finally sleep, has weird dreams about dying that wake them up in the middle of the night, takes forever for you to fall asleep, likes to cuddle, the underrated friend, the misunderstood, bright colored hoodies and track pants, tired but not because of their lack of sleep, extremely smart, lowkey nerd, wears contacts instead of glasses, tough love, cares way too much, cries themselves to sleep, has a million things running through their head, shoulder to lean on, feels like a burden, gets sad easily, trying their best, likes dark things but that's okay
&& hepheastus || the feeling you get when you are staring into flames, fireplaces, building with legos, drinking tea, scribbling down ideas in a journal, skilled artist, always has an invention to test out, rough hands, burn marks/scars from working, tired eyes, gentle hands, comfortable silence, reading the newspaper when you first wake up, always having something to do, that friend that's always busy, antisocial social club, flaky, soft-spoken, old tshirts and dirty jeans, shoes with holes in them, smells like clean laundry even though their clothes are always messy, organized, put together, knows where they are going in life, distant but sweet, the overlooked friend

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&& i would probably be a mix of demeter, hades, athena and apollo

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YOU ARE LOVELY <3

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( just a little drabble i conjured up, i think i have an obsession with icarus and the sun - just saying haah )

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ur writing is so good im crying wtf.... don’t mind me tracking and sobbing