I COULDN'T FIND MYSELF IN YOU ( open / abandoned snow leopard cub )

[checkers]

Daruma stayed quiet, but listened quietly to the other adults - until Wishful spoke up in his head. 'Won't need settling down'? peh, he's got no family, who has the right to say he can't stay with someone? Daruma blinked and his eye glanced over to Ruben. "Mister W says you're stupid," he mewed in a matter-of-fact way, before adding. "he says I can go with who I want." he said, before glancing to Circusclown.

[loumary]

[align=center][sub]MARY LOU[/sub]

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[align=left][sub]The loud cry of the cub had left Mary quite frazzled, brown eyes darting around trying to find the source of the screech, it sounded as though it was off away from camp; an area she had not ventured since joining the clan. But with a pained grunt the retriever rose to her paws, her body still ached and her neck wound was was still raw despite making some progress in healing but Mary still found that she had far too much energy to contain; something that was common among the young no matter their health. With a limp the pup made her way over to the small party, most curious of all was a snow leopard cub in the jaws of Leo. "Who's he!" Mary barked, tail wagging excitedly.[/sub]

[checkers]

Daruma giggled as Mary came up - more friends, he supposed - before answering her. "Mister W talks in my head!" he told them, blinking his eyes. No, Daruma. My name is Wishfulthinking. Daruma blinked again, absently, before trying to repeat what he said. "He says his name is wushfu... wushfu... thinky..."

[loumary]

[align=center][sub]MARY LOU[/sub]

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[align=left][sub]Tail wagging the pup tilted her head to the side "Mister W?"she barked in a confused tone "And he's in your head?" this was a confusing idea for the young canine to wrap her head around, if he was in Daruma's head then surely it was just a made up voice, but what if it wasn't? What if the cub had this other being stuck in his head trying to get out? These thoughts swam around in Mary's mind like a goldfish in a bowl, but she attempted to not let this show regardless.[/sub]

[Leo]

Leo tuned out the children's conversation. She figured it was probably just some innocent children nonsense. Once she arrived in front of the cabins, she gently put down the cub. "we're here! Would you like to choose who to go home with?"

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The small snow leopard glanced back and forth between Mary Lou, nodding to answer her question - he didn't know who Wishful was, not yet, anyway - before he was placed down by Leo, and he turned to face her. Listening politely to his question, he nodded. "I'd like to go home with him, please!" Daruma answered, picking a paw up to point to Circus. He didn't really know why, but he figured it was something to do with the fact that Daruma himself as well as Circusclown were both missing eyes - although Daruma was born with his deformity, unlike Circusclown's long depressing history.

[checkers]

Daruma tried to swivel his head behind him while Leo was carrying him, to see if Circusclown and Ruben were following, but with Leo's jaws firmly holding his scruff, if he tried any harder, he might end up breaking skin - so he just turned his head to the front of him, looking around the territory as they passed to the camp.

[CIRCUSCLOWN!]

[align=center][div style="width: 450px;; text-align: justify"][size=9pt]As Leo rushed off with Daruma he felt his head grow hot with nervousness. Wow, that was fast. At least he knew now that Leo wasn't heartless and cared about children. Following after as fast as he could keep up, he'd tilt his head. "I can keep him with me once everything has settled down." He said. In a nutshell, he wanted to adopt the cub. How could he not? Watching him had hit home, he felt a softness for Daruma. Then again he did most kids - but eh.

[spoiler=tags]
general ; "drink up baby"
★ circusclown disharmony | nicknames are circ and clown, former names are breadstick, uglyclown and clown | male [ he/him ]
two years three months physically and mentally | born november 13th, 2014 | ages realtime
guard of shadowclan | former exiles leader and blizzardclan head combatant (feralfront)
discord disharmony x npc | generation 2 | head of disharmony family | only loyal to family
demisexual | panromantic | crush unknown | afraid of being in a relationship
has ptsd, alcoholism and depression | will have flashbacks or panic attacks if he: sees overwhelmingly fast moving yellow or cyan colors, him feeling or touching bark, hearing someone with a distorted voice, feeling any type of unexpected rough contact, and having limited moving space

appearance ; "stay up all night"
★ domestic cat | always scowling | always smells strongly of alcohol
he is a light brown feline who has a lot of fluffy fur that's often tangled up covered in dirt and dust, and it also feels very greasy and gross. his head is lacking of the light brown color, and is completely white. he has a scar on the left side of his face, which has a stitched up glasgow smile meeting up with the scar. the other side of his face shares a glasgow smile, which is also stitched together. he has only one eye left which is the right one, and it is a dull blue almost lifeless color that seems to be bagging all the time due to exhaustion. the side of his face which has no eye has stitches on the top of his eye, and his eyelid is often closed over the eye socket that's still there, though it can be open if he is surprised or scared by something. [ reference ].

personality ; "with the things you could do"
★ chaotic neutral | anti-hero | the cynic
— cynical, insensitive, pessimistic, crude, hostile, family-oriented, overprotective, unpredictable
with a quick look at circusclown, somebody would probably be able to quickly dismiss him due to him having common disinterest, distantness or unnecessary complaints about everything. he rarely has anything positive to say or do, and will come off as a very dull person who wants nothing more then for others to go away. he is very unpredictable and capricious in behavior, and can with ease be watching with a bored expression and the next be a violent creature someone should steer clear of. despite the unpredictable nature, he is quick to make a decision he won't regret - he is never unsure about his decisions, which only worsens his unpredictable behavior. he is extremely cynical and pessimistic, and has a continual feeling of mistrust and pessimistic thoughts of the outcome of every situation. he has a tendency to be very vulgar, constantly with gross behaviors like burping and swearing. he has a tendency to be very unfriendly or harsh to others, and he is rarely sensitive unless in a good mood or if he enjoys somebodies company. he is at heart however, a genuine and sweet person who just wants to have a large family, but feels it is impossible due to his self-destructive alcoholic behaviors and is simply frightened that he'd be taken advantage of if he was to.

interaction ; "you won't but you might"
★ hard physically | hard mentally | attack in #c68ee2
doesn't like unnecessary death or etc | will start fights | will fight back | will flee if family is protected | will not surrender
might capture if family is threatened | might torture if family is threatened | will kill if family is threatened

trained to fight | has little to no medical knowledge
power — un / discovered — control of power: 000%
power — un / discovered — control of power: 000%[/spoiler]

[Leo]

"Mmhm! Maybe I could help!" Leo said in a muffled tone, as she wanted to make sure the kid wouldn't fall out of her mouth.

[Ruvik]

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