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[marsy]

[align=center][div style="width: 450px; text-align: justify; font-family: arial; font-size: 9pt; line-height: 1.2;"]i. my internal agony is not beautiful . i will be alone eternally , and i can't make my loneliness pretty ; i cannot make my anger , or my sorrow , or my constant worry , or my never being good enough beautiful . it's ugly and vile , wrapping around me with a death's grip , and i am destined to burn in my own jealousy and cynicism . i am weak and unlovely and withered and trampled and indistinct .

ii. i will burn , and i will simmer , until my withering turns into ash . i will burn , and i will scratch and crawl until i am no longer buried by the weight of the world . i will not be soft or trampled ; i will be threatening . i will live out of spite , and i will love in the darkest times . i will teach and defend and cure ; i will turn my jealousy and cynicism and loneliness and anger and ashes into gold and fire and love .