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[div style="width: 404px; text-align: justify; font-family: helvetica; font-size: 8pt; line-height: 1.3;"]finneus dominic coleman
— finneus dominic coleman, or finn, was born on december twenty-seventh to anthony coleman and lucile davis in salt lake city, utah. he grew up in a not-so-great life and was not given the best cards in the game of life. his family came from poverty and were living on a pay check to pay check basis. they never had much and finn always knew not to ask for a new pair of sneakers or jeans even when his were full of holes. his parents constantly fought about money and debt and, in the end, divorced, leaving finn with a broken home and family
— he was pushed around a lot as a kid because his clothes were too big and were old and probably the cheapist thing his parents could find at the thrift store and yet none of this broke his smile because he knew his parents were trying their best to support him despite the troubles with their marriage
— nothing really changed until he turned sixteen and was coerced by a pimp and started to get pimped out to older, wealthy men. he had thought this pimp was a record producer who wanted to make him a star but oh god he was wrong. at first, he resisted it but once he realized how much money he was making, he adapted and worked freely and didn't even think about getting out of the life which may also because his pimp kept him too high to even think about it if he wanted to
— tw abuse many clients he had were quite violent and took out their frustrations on finn and it scared him and he would have bruises all over his body or be too drunk to stand. there was an incident where a client threw a champagne glass at him and it's why he has a scar in his eyebrow, from the glass. incidents like this were common and the pimp comforted him and said it wouldn't happen again yet it kept happening over and over but he started taking pills and shooting heroin to block it out
— started stripping when he turned eighteen so he wasn't being pimped out as much as he was when he was a minor but still did sleep around for money
— he met christo in school during a very awkward encounter and just fell in love really. he pushed it back because someone like christo could never love a broken boy like finn, or so he thought. they did eventually get together but that is when more drama and angst came into finn's life
— one night, finn had gone to chris's and he was clearly drunk and hallucinating seeing one of the clients from the past who had hurt him and he was crying and screaming because he kept seeing him and was yelling "go away" and "get away" and "don't hurt me" over and over. chris had somehow managed to calm him down and the next day, that's when finn explained what happened and that he mixed alcohol with drugs on accident and that's really when the fights about finn's occupation started to escalate because of that one incident
— they had countless fights and there was a lot of push and pull, some ended in angry make outs whereas others ended in tears and avoiding each other. once he heard chris say that he felt like "another meaningless fuck to you", that is when finn knew that what he was doing was wrong and that he needed to get out of the life
— well, he did (or so he thought) and things got better for a while
— but then, finn's former pimp threatened to hurt chris if finn didn't come back. so, to protect the love of his life, finn went back and tried to hide it but chris found out when finn was going through heroin withdrawal one morning and chris left because it was too much and finn had lied about getting better and never going back. finn felt so empty without chris and for a few weeks he didn't see him and he wasn't eating and somehow the pimp was arrested and put in jail and it is all a blur to finn. all he really remembers is calling chris and asking if they could meet up and he was so shocked when chris took him back and finn cried so much because he missed him so badly
— finn ended up getting clean though it was hard. he didn't go to a rehab center or do therapy. all it was, was him and chris struggling along through the mood swings and insomnia and refusing to eat anything. it still amazes finn that even after emotional "i hate you"s (which never were true only said during lows) and completely shutting him out, chris never left. finn gave him every reason to leave, yet he stayed
— he is a giver, not a taker. he will give his life to save the people he loves
— is still dealing and processing all the trauma he went through when he was sixteen until he was eighteen and realizing that all those clients had actually abused him and that none of it was consensual and that everything that happened was because of what the pimp had done and forced finn to do and sometimes he just feels like his skin is crawling or their hands are on him again and he has scratched his skin raw before to try and get the feeling to go away
— has many scars from needles covering his arms so he often wears long sleeves to hide them because he is embarrassed and thinks he's ugly. he also tells people that the scar on his eyebrow is actually just him shaving part of it to make it look cool because of how insecure he is of everything
— would do anything for chris without question, he loves him so much
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[div style="width: 404px; text-align: justify; font-family: helvetica; font-size: 8pt; line-height: 1.3;"]finneus dominic coleman
— finneus dominic coleman, or finn, was born on december twenty-seventh to anthony coleman and lucile davis in salt lake city, utah. he grew up in a not-so-great life and was not given the best cards in the game of life. his family came from poverty and were living on a pay check to pay check basis. they never had much and finn always knew not to ask for a new pair of sneakers or jeans even when his were full of holes. his parents constantly fought about money and debt and, in the end, divorced, leaving finn with a broken home and family
— he was pushed around a lot as a kid because his clothes were too big and were old and probably the cheapist thing his parents could find at the thrift store and yet none of this broke his smile because he knew his parents were trying their best to support him despite the troubles with their marriage
— nothing really changed until he turned sixteen and was coerced by a pimp and started to get pimped out to older, wealthy men. he had thought this pimp was a record producer who wanted to make him a star but oh god he was wrong. at first, he resisted it but once he realized how much money he was making, he adapted and worked freely and didn't even think about getting out of the life which may also because his pimp kept him too high to even think about it if he wanted to
— tw abuse many clients he had were quite violent and took out their frustrations on finn and it scared him and he would have bruises all over his body or be too drunk to stand. there was an incident where a client threw a champagne glass at him and it's why he has a scar in his eyebrow, from the glass. incidents like this were common and the pimp comforted him and said it wouldn't happen again yet it kept happening over and over but he started taking pills and shooting heroin to block it out
— started stripping when he turned eighteen so he wasn't being pimped out as much as he was when he was a minor but still did sleep around for money
— he met christo in school during a very awkward encounter and just fell in love really. he pushed it back because someone like christo could never love a broken boy like finn, or so he thought. they did eventually get together but that is when more drama and angst came into finn's life
— one night, finn had gone to chris's and he was clearly drunk and hallucinating seeing one of the clients from the past who had hurt him and he was crying and screaming because he kept seeing him and was yelling "go away" and "get away" and "don't hurt me" over and over. chris had somehow managed to calm him down and the next day, that's when finn explained what happened and that he mixed alcohol with drugs on accident and that's really when the fights about finn's occupation started to escalate because of that one incident
— they had countless fights and there was a lot of push and pull, some ended in angry make outs whereas others ended in tears and avoiding each other. once he heard chris say that he felt like "another meaningless fuck to you", that is when finn knew that what he was doing was wrong and that he needed to get out of the life
— well, he did (or so he thought) and things got better for a while
— but then, finn's former pimp threatened to hurt chris if finn didn't come back. so, to protect the love of his life, finn went back and tried to hide it but chris found out when finn was going through heroin withdrawal one morning and chris left because it was too much and finn had lied about getting better and never going back. finn felt so empty without chris and for a few weeks he didn't see him and he wasn't eating and somehow the pimp was arrested and put in jail and it is all a blur to finn. all he really remembers is calling chris and asking if they could meet up and he was so shocked when chris took him back and finn cried so much because he missed him so badly
— finn ended up getting clean though it was hard. he didn't go to a rehab center or do therapy. all it was, was him and chris struggling along through the mood swings and insomnia and refusing to eat anything. it still amazes finn that even after emotional "i hate you"s (which never were true only said during lows) and completely shutting him out, chris never left. finn gave him every reason to leave, yet he stayed
— he is a giver, not a taker. he will give his life to save the people he loves
— is still dealing and processing all the trauma he went through when he was sixteen until he was eighteen and realizing that all those clients had actually abused him and that none of it was consensual and that everything that happened was because of what the pimp had done and forced finn to do and sometimes he just feels like his skin is crawling or their hands are on him again and he has scratched his skin raw before to try and get the feeling to go away
— has many scars from needles covering his arms so he often wears long sleeves to hide them because he is embarrassed and thinks he's ugly. he also tells people that the scar on his eyebrow is actually just him shaving part of it to make it look cool because of how insecure he is of everything
— would do anything for chris without question, he loves him so much
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