11-27-2017, 12:37 AM
[align=center][div style="0px; width:400px; height:auto; text-align: justify; font-size: 8pt; line-height:13px;"]music makes me emotional so here are my emotions
i feel alone
so fucking alone
it's crippling
and translucent
it comes and stays
but then it disappears
it does not fix itself each time it leaves
it is not simply resolved when it goes away
it's a weird mixture of
- invalidation of my own emotions for i have no reason to be lonely
- silent screaming for attention because can't someone see that i am
i'm sorry but
my mom cannot seem to understand /
therapy isn't until wednesday /
school stars tomorrow /
and my act tutor intimidates me
(one day it will be okay, the bad days come but they also go, soon this will go too)
i feel alone
so fucking alone
it's crippling
and translucent
it comes and stays
but then it disappears
it does not fix itself each time it leaves
it is not simply resolved when it goes away
it's a weird mixture of
- invalidation of my own emotions for i have no reason to be lonely
- silent screaming for attention because can't someone see that i am
i'm sorry but
my mom cannot seem to understand /
therapy isn't until wednesday /
school stars tomorrow /
and my act tutor intimidates me
(one day it will be okay, the bad days come but they also go, soon this will go too)
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