09-29-2017, 02:44 PM
[align=center][div style="0px; width:400px; height:auto; text-align: justify; font-size: 8pt; line-height:13px;"]journal entry no.5.4 / uGH
whoop whoop we dop i feel terrible
yesterday night was my school's lip synch and it was amazing. some of the performances were phenomenal. i loved it. there was a guy duo that did Time Of My Life and man. they were amazing and perfect. the group that one had my friend in it and he was awesome. like wow. another group did Hammer Time but they came out in tutus and acted like the beginning was a ballet and then ripped off the tuts and were wearing golden ‘m.c. hammer’ pants. they were awesome too. this one group did Bad and the girl playing MJ was such a good dancer. i was blown away. oh! and this group of girls did Formation and oh my god. it was the most beautiful thing in the world they did it so well. man. sometimes (a lot of the time) my school is pretty cool.
this is the second time i’ve started a depressing entry with something positive, and i’m not sure if it’s doing much good. I think maybe i should end with the positive bit and maybe i wouldn’t feel like shit? eh. well, half of why i feel like shit is because of the battle but it’s basically because i wasn’t in it and everyone up there was having so much fun and everything looked so much fun just to be apart of it and i wasn’t which is fine but it contributed to my shit feelings.
I felt like shit a lot yesterday. I wore shorts and i felt cute and my friend said i looked really cute but i go back and forth about that. like i used to wear shorts and skirts a lot but since last year around april/may sort of, i just felt really uncomfortable with the idea of shorts especially and over the summer i bought like four pairs of cute shorts and i’ve worn ¾ of them but like, if i have to go out i prefer not and it’s bothering me that i’m not confident enough in them. uGH. But anyway, that put me in a shit mood and i was really bloated when i got home so i took and shower and kinda just wanted to cry because of it (also because of the lip synch thing) and i just, man, i’ve been feeling like shit.
today i feel better. I got a letter back from my pen pal so that’s good. she recommended me a song so i gotta go listen to it. plus i have a birthday party this weekend that is supposed to be good so there’s that. and i have therapy today so me and my therapist can hash out my other shit.
it’s been a good week in general but it has also sucked. like i’ve had a pretty light homework load but man, my feelings have been everywhere. like in the previous entry i wrote about feeling left out of the social atmosphere when really you’re sitting with a group who is having an engaging conversation and that really makes sense. like i’ve felt that way All Week. I keep feeling like everytime i open my mouth i’m not adding anything at all. uGH. I’m just. tired. of all of this and i don’t know what to do to fix this besides wait for it to get better. everything is going to be okay. I’ll be okay. autumn is coming.
whoop whoop we dop i feel terrible
yesterday night was my school's lip synch and it was amazing. some of the performances were phenomenal. i loved it. there was a guy duo that did Time Of My Life and man. they were amazing and perfect. the group that one had my friend in it and he was awesome. like wow. another group did Hammer Time but they came out in tutus and acted like the beginning was a ballet and then ripped off the tuts and were wearing golden ‘m.c. hammer’ pants. they were awesome too. this one group did Bad and the girl playing MJ was such a good dancer. i was blown away. oh! and this group of girls did Formation and oh my god. it was the most beautiful thing in the world they did it so well. man. sometimes (a lot of the time) my school is pretty cool.
this is the second time i’ve started a depressing entry with something positive, and i’m not sure if it’s doing much good. I think maybe i should end with the positive bit and maybe i wouldn’t feel like shit? eh. well, half of why i feel like shit is because of the battle but it’s basically because i wasn’t in it and everyone up there was having so much fun and everything looked so much fun just to be apart of it and i wasn’t which is fine but it contributed to my shit feelings.
I felt like shit a lot yesterday. I wore shorts and i felt cute and my friend said i looked really cute but i go back and forth about that. like i used to wear shorts and skirts a lot but since last year around april/may sort of, i just felt really uncomfortable with the idea of shorts especially and over the summer i bought like four pairs of cute shorts and i’ve worn ¾ of them but like, if i have to go out i prefer not and it’s bothering me that i’m not confident enough in them. uGH. But anyway, that put me in a shit mood and i was really bloated when i got home so i took and shower and kinda just wanted to cry because of it (also because of the lip synch thing) and i just, man, i’ve been feeling like shit.
today i feel better. I got a letter back from my pen pal so that’s good. she recommended me a song so i gotta go listen to it. plus i have a birthday party this weekend that is supposed to be good so there’s that. and i have therapy today so me and my therapist can hash out my other shit.
it’s been a good week in general but it has also sucked. like i’ve had a pretty light homework load but man, my feelings have been everywhere. like in the previous entry i wrote about feeling left out of the social atmosphere when really you’re sitting with a group who is having an engaging conversation and that really makes sense. like i’ve felt that way All Week. I keep feeling like everytime i open my mouth i’m not adding anything at all. uGH. I’m just. tired. of all of this and i don’t know what to do to fix this besides wait for it to get better. everything is going to be okay. I’ll be okay. autumn is coming.
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