09-17-2017, 04:05 PM
[align=center][div style="0px; width:400px; height:auto; text-align: justify; font-size: 8pt; line-height:13px;"]journal entry no.4.1 / things are good, which means something bad is coming
since i worked that thing out with f, things have been better, even as that shit was going down things were getting better. it's nice outside and i have all my hw and my hair is washed and i'm helping L move into her new room today and i'm very excited in a nice chill way. nothing too bad has happened, although grandmother has one foot in the grave as it is, which sucks, and mom is devoting all of her time to that so she is never home, but that's okay dad lets me just sit around and watch bootlegged hamilton on youtube without actually being a parent, and now there is gas in my car so i can go Anywhere: i.e. Barns and Noble and Michael's (honestly my two favorite places). i was supposed to do these day by day but i forget.
i honestly don't think these entries are very entertaining for anyone but they kind of help me to put how i'm feeling out somewhere that isn't my personal journal. i've been very calm, but not in a good way. like i feel like my neutral state of being right now is not feeling anything. like this morning i was having fun sending a bunch of memes on snapchat but then i had to get up and do things and now i'm here. it's fine, everything is okay, i just need to tell my therapist and she'll help me come up with a way to stop not feeling anything when i'm sitting by myself. deep breaths kind of help a bit so that's good. also the new fob song is a banger.
school is fine, i don't like it and i likely failed that math quiz oops. i have an anatomy test Tuesday that i am not prepared for but i made a quizlet. poetry is going well, although we didn't do much thursday and i don't have the muse to write anything that isn't depressing. i didn't have dinner last night, this makes that like the fourth time this week, thanks dad. i still need to do my therapy assignment of writing who i'm annoyed with on a piece of paper. this weather is nice and fall is coming, i'm going to be okay. everything is going to be okay.
since i worked that thing out with f, things have been better, even as that shit was going down things were getting better. it's nice outside and i have all my hw and my hair is washed and i'm helping L move into her new room today and i'm very excited in a nice chill way. nothing too bad has happened, although grandmother has one foot in the grave as it is, which sucks, and mom is devoting all of her time to that so she is never home, but that's okay dad lets me just sit around and watch bootlegged hamilton on youtube without actually being a parent, and now there is gas in my car so i can go Anywhere: i.e. Barns and Noble and Michael's (honestly my two favorite places). i was supposed to do these day by day but i forget.
i honestly don't think these entries are very entertaining for anyone but they kind of help me to put how i'm feeling out somewhere that isn't my personal journal. i've been very calm, but not in a good way. like i feel like my neutral state of being right now is not feeling anything. like this morning i was having fun sending a bunch of memes on snapchat but then i had to get up and do things and now i'm here. it's fine, everything is okay, i just need to tell my therapist and she'll help me come up with a way to stop not feeling anything when i'm sitting by myself. deep breaths kind of help a bit so that's good. also the new fob song is a banger.
school is fine, i don't like it and i likely failed that math quiz oops. i have an anatomy test Tuesday that i am not prepared for but i made a quizlet. poetry is going well, although we didn't do much thursday and i don't have the muse to write anything that isn't depressing. i didn't have dinner last night, this makes that like the fourth time this week, thanks dad. i still need to do my therapy assignment of writing who i'm annoyed with on a piece of paper. this weather is nice and fall is coming, i'm going to be okay. everything is going to be okay.
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