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[CIRCUSCLOWN!]

[align=center][div style="width: 450px;; text-align: justify"][size=9pt]Circusclown couldn't quite close his eyes tonight, which was a recurring feeling to have. He would probably feel sleepy enough to fall asleep in an hour or two, which he could blame oversleeping for. He often felt his eyes burned due to his sleeping schedule, but he didn't really think much of it. He could take better care of himself if he felt like it, but he wasn't really the type to worry about his health a whole lot. Everything felt rather empty, he felt quite devoid of emotion - he was, in a way, bored with life. He felt like there wasn't anything left to do but mope, he honestly felt a little hopeless. He guessed it was something that happened as he got older, although he'd always have bad memories and pessimistic thoughts in the back of his head goading him on. Either way, what he was doing wasn't entirely too interesting. He was simply testing out his new knife by stabbing whatever objects he had. As of now, he was stabbing through a rather thick box a little further away from camp, and so far the knife had cut after force had been applied. It was a great knife for cutting skin open and making somebody bleed, and also cutting a rope - but like most knives, the only way to kill someone with it would be to make them bleed quite a bit.

[twinruins,]

[align=center][div style="borderwidth=0px; width: 415px; color: black; font-size: 10pt; line-height:115%; text-align: justify; margin-top: 5px"]See, you want to say you never really understood destruction out of boredom like what you seem to be watching now, but it's a bit hard to lie so blatantly to yourself when you know you're smarter than to fall for it. In your case, destruction of certain kinds is needed direly, necessary for survival. So you can understand. You can sympathize, even. But that doesn't mean you like it. You can't.

That's another thing you can't quite do here; here, peeking over the blurred tops of underbrush at a rather familiar face. Since when did he get here, and by what means, you wonder, but those hardly seem the right questions to be asking. You should... talk to him. Yeah. Just have a nice conversation with a knife-toting half-stranger. It wouldn't be the absolute worst idea you've had in your life. "Where'd you get that?" You bring the question from thought to soft tone, shaking through the crisp grasses and other such plantlife that grip the leafy floor of the wood. Hopefully you aren't in a position to startle, but when has hope ever done you favours?

[align=center][div style="borderwidth=0px; width: 415px; font-size: 8pt; line-height:115%; text-align: justify; text-transform: lowercase; margin-top: 5px"][spoiler=TAGS | 1/27]" YOU ARE ONLY A SMALL AND FOOLISH BOY "
✦ twinruins captor | answers to twi or twin | old bio | playlist
✦ intersex | indentifies as male [he/him]
✦ homosexual | closeted polyamorous | taken | ½ of twiship
✦ unknown lineage | gen 1
✦ biological children are sunlitkit, dreamkit, and opium | adopted child is sabitsuki [believed to be biological]
✦ physically 14 months | spiritually 30 months | august 14th, 2015 | ages whenever
✦ former member of the exiles and colouredclan | current loner
✦ died in the feralfront universe and awoke in the bearbones universe, does not remember dying
✦ looking for his family

" CHASING THE TAIL OF A METEOR "
✦ FELINE [main] | health: 99% | loose ref | twin irl by reed
✦ vampiric, change colour to indicate bloodlust [size=10pt]xxxxx [ x ] xxxx
— a scruffy, dark ginger feline with a white throat and an oddly feminine, but sturdy build. natural eye colour is a dull yellow ochre. wears a fluorescent red bandana around the neck and white snake bite piercings.
— [i]major injuries: none
— [i]minor injuries: visible lightning-esque scars stretching from the outer corners of the eyes

" DESTINED FOR THE HEAVENS "
✦ very loosely inspired by sayaka miki [madoka magica] and dean winchester [supernatural]
✦ "the rival", "this is gonna suck", "what the hell, hero?", "blessed with suck", "cannot spit it out", "grey and gray morality"
— helpful, strong sense of responsibility, generally accepting if not disconcerting due to his appearance, merciful
— diligent, intelligent, curious and very observant
— nervous, overprotective, clingy, easily jealous, proud, possessive, "don't talk to my friends"
— guilt complex, cannot judge things objectively, takes opinions to heart, regretful

" IF YOU BREATHE, YOU WILL BURN "
✦ attack in #A1A100 | physically difficult | mentally medium
✦ will start fights if provoked and will aim to finish them
✦ likely to show mercy
✦ no kill | ask for serious injury or capture
✦ powerplay for affectionate or otherwise nonviolent actions
  — powers
powers have been forgotten, has not re-learned them yet[/spoiler]

[CIRCUSCLOWN!]

[align=center][div style="width: 450px;; text-align: justify"][size=9pt]Destruction was something he commonly had done. Though, it had come to a point he had no intents to really destroy a living, breathing being like he used to. The best way to describe him now, was that he was growing into a more gentle being. Not humble or kind, but certainly not antagonistic anymore. In all honesty, war had destroyed his entire life - he had never really liked it, but he had embraced the encouragement he received for bloodshed. It had taken him a long time to understand how he had been turned into a war machine, but it hadn't been hard to figure out when he looked back on how happy his life had been simply for being a murderer. But that wasn't really what was important, was it? Now the important step was recovering.

As Twinruins asked him a question, he'd quickly raise his head to look at him. Good thing he hadn't been too spaced out. Realizing he had been cutting up the box a bit too much, he'd stop trying to wedge through a corner as he'd put it down. "Leo conjured it for me." He responded simply, eye studying him carefully. "You seem very familiar." He would add in, tail flicking a bit anxiously. Hopefully not someone who had intents to kill him, considering most of the people he once knew had a grudge against him.

[spoiler=tags]
general ; "drink up baby"
★ circusclown disharmony | nicknames are circ and clown, former names are breadstick, uglyclown and clown | male [ he/him ]
two years three months physically and mentally | born november 13th, 2014 | ages realtime
guard of shadowclan | former exiles leader and blizzardclan head combatant (feralfront)
discord disharmony x npc | generation 2 | head of disharmony family | only loyal to family
demisexual | panromantic | crush unknown | afraid of being in a relationship
has ptsd, alcoholism and depression | will have flashbacks or panic attacks if he: sees overwhelmingly fast moving yellow or cyan colors, him feeling or touching bark, hearing someone with a distorted voice, feeling any type of unexpected rough contact, and having limited moving space


appearance ; "stay up all night"
★ domestic cat | always scowling | always smells strongly of alcohol
he is a light brown feline who has a lot of fluffy fur that's often tangled up covered in dirt and dust, and it also feels very greasy and gross. his head is lacking of the light brown color, and is completely white. he has a scar on the left side of his face, which has a stitched up glasgow smile meeting up with the scar. the other side of his face shares a glasgow smile, which is also stitched together. he has only one eye left which is the right one, and it is a dull blue almost lifeless color that seems to be bagging all the time due to exhaustion. the side of his face which has no eye has stitches on the top of his eye, and his eyelid is often closed over the eye socket that's still there, though it can be open if he is surprised or scared by something. [ reference ].

personality ; "with the things you could do"
★ chaotic neutral | anti-hero | the cynic
— cynical, insensitive, pessimistic, crude, hostile, family-oriented, overprotective, unpredictable
with a quick look at circusclown, somebody would probably be able to quickly dismiss him due to him having common disinterest, distantness or unnecessary complaints about everything. he rarely has anything positive to say or do, and will come off as a very dull person who wants nothing more then for others to go away. he is very unpredictable and capricious in behavior, and can with ease be watching with a bored expression and the next be a violent creature someone should steer clear of. despite the unpredictable nature, he is quick to make a decision he won't regret - he is never unsure about his decisions, which only worsens his unpredictable behavior. he is extremely cynical and pessimistic, and has a continual feeling of mistrust and pessimistic thoughts of the outcome of every situation. he has a tendency to be very vulgar, constantly with gross behaviors like burping and swearing. he has a tendency to be very unfriendly or harsh to others, and he is rarely sensitive unless in a good mood or if he enjoys somebodies company. he is at heart however, a genuine and sweet person who just wants to have a large family, but feels it is impossible due to his self-destructive alcoholic behaviors and is simply frightened that he'd be taken advantage of if he was to.

interaction ; "you won't but you might"
★ hard physically | hard mentally | attack in #c68ee2
doesn't like unnecessary death or etc | will start fights | will fight back | will flee if family is protected | will not surrender
might capture if family is threatened | might torture if family is threatened | will kill if family is threatened

trained to fight | has little to no medical knowledge
air elementals — discovered — can't control properly - if something triggers him it will go off
power — un / discovered — control of power: 000%[/spoiler]