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[ADDY.]

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— of course when everything felt like it was going great, everything would eventually start going to shit. he always thought of himself as being rather unlucky; the good streak he managed to have lately had been almost unnerving. there was no urgent desire to run away from the group he and lucerne had settled in, no want to abandon the lives they had made for themselves there because the lives they had were good ones. at least, addy had previously thought that. he wasn’t so sure how it could get any worse for them, now.

addy usually didn’t try so desperately to fix a shitty situation. if things were going awry, he was used to simply - letting them fucking happen. life was unfair, guess he couldn’t whine and complain about it. however, when it was a shitty situation that affected lucerne, it looked like addy was less likely to drag his feet when helping.

walking back into the district with yet another patrol, he sighed, avoiding other peoples’ gazes as he looked to one side. “did you guys find anything, yet?” an npc inquired as she stepped over to meet them. with an irritated sigh, he held up the near-empty bag.
“sort of. don’t think it’ll be of any use to them.” she took the bag and peered into it, eyeing the few bandages and expired pill bottles. medications addy couldn’t even pronounce - yet ones he figured wouldn’t be too useful.

“well… can’t say you guys didn’t try, huh?” great. that was exactly what he needed to hear. ripping the bag away from her, he sent a look her way before he walked further into the district. ”maybe they’ll find them useful!” it was too late to backtrack, he thought. he didn’t know how much more of this he could take before he went and tried to take this into his own hands. his fuse was running short.

// this post was so gd bad
your character could have been in the group and found something useful-ish
or be coming across their unsuccessful attempt,,, idm !!

[AMOR]

[align=center][div style="width: 400px; text-align: justify; font-size: 12px; font-family: calibri; letter-spacing: .6px; color: #494949;"]she rounds out the back of the little medical supply run, coming up to the npc questioning addy about anything they found. sure, it hadn't exactly been the most fruitful mission, but they did find some good and useful items! bandages and gauze are always in demand, caring for the little ones' scraped knees and boo boos; and there were a lot more of those with the flintlock lodge lot taking refuge in the district.

her head tilts to the right ever so slightly as she comes to a stop, the tension already enough to make her squirm in discomfort. " we have more than when we set out, that's definitely useful, " the latina chimes in, just trying to look to the bright side and hopefully help addy feel better and the npc calm down some. but, the snatching back of the nearly empty bag tells her it definitely did not work. her eyes widen, watching addy begin to storm away, then she makes eye contact with the npc for a quick moment. she nods to them and offers a polite, but genuine, smile before walking past her and after addy. she's much slower than him, but waits until they're a bit further away from the others.

[color=#e67300]" hey! addy! " she calls, hoping to get his attention to try and ask what'd going on and if he's alright. once amor's gotten closer, she finally begins to talk, [color=#e67300]" you did your best, really. is other stuff going on? " mor questions gently. she tends to be disarming and exudes a sense of trust and safety; and even if it doesn't quite work, her persistence usually ends up working out.


[spoiler=tags, updated 01/13/2021]◜BASICS ┊ [color=#e67300]HERE'S TO THE ONES WHO DREAM◞
&. ❝ amor nirvana dulce valdez ❞ |  mor | demigirl [ she/her ] .
&. 24 years old . | february fourteenth ; aquarius .
&. demo of northstar district .

◜PERSONALITY ┊ FOOLISH AS THEY MAY SEEM◞
&. friendly . sweet . forgiving . outgoing . emotional . optimistic . caring . passionate . a tease . gullible . selfless . excitable . imaginative . head in the clouds . strong-willed . full of energy . hard working . touchy . open minded . easy going . trusting . flexible . an empath . naïve .

◜ APPEARANCE ┊ HERE'S TO THE HEARTS THAT ACHE ◞
&.  five foot four & one hundred and fifteen pounds ; faceclaim, lindsey morgan .
↳ dark brown hair to her midback, some strands being a medium, warm brown as well .
↳ petite, muscular build . full six-pack and toned muscles .
↳ bright and warm chocolate eyes .

◜ INTERACTIONS ┊ HERE'S TO THE MESS WE MAKE ◞
&.  [ 6/10 ] physically  |  [ 9/10 ] psychologically .
↳ difficulty w/ guns [ easy ] | difficulty w/ melees [ easy ] | difficulty w/ hand-to-hand [ medium ]
↳ extreme and serious pacifist, will not fight back .
↳ lacks use of her right leg after taking a shot to the back .
&. attack in bold #e67300 | [member=570]scully[/member] | PM for any major plots .
&. friendly or nonviolent actions may be powerplayed .

◜INVENTORY ┊ SHE CAPTURED A FEELING◞
&. [ 0 ] weapons | [ 0 ] armor pieces | [ 0 ] consumables | [ 2 ] aid items | [ 0 ] misc .
↳ a leg brace she crafted .
↳ a one and a half year old black chow chow named grizzly

◜ RELATIONSHIPS ┊ SKY WITH NO CEILING◞
&. malina valdez, deceased (npc) x mateo valdez, deceased (npc) | youngest child .
↳ beau valdez, older brother, deceased .
&. pansexual, panromantic ; mongamous  . | falls in love three times a day .
&. current crush on ajax forrester, formally her traveling companion . [/spoiler]

[ADDY.]

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— addy didn’t understand the optimism a lot of people around the district possessed. hell, maybe he didn’t understand because he didn’t try to. he doubted he would ever be able to see the world through the same lens as them. if optimists were sunshine, then consider him the darkest fucking raincloud. he didn’t want to rain on their parade, though sometimes he couldn’t particularly help it. especially when they went out of their way to talk to him.

hearing mor calling his name, he paused before he turned to look over his shoulder at her. speaking of optimists, there was the ray of sunshine herself. the redhead tried not to roll his eyes. instead, turning to face her, he clenched his jaw and said a tight, “what?” amor couldn’t be any more different from him, that much was obvious. ”you did your best, really. is other stuff going on?” perhaps it was why they were so different that mor could so easily catch him off guard.

“nothing’s going on,” he stubbornly insisted. though, breathing a deep sigh through his nose, he looked away. as if contemplating saying anything to her. though perhaps her gentle nature made it easier to get his guard down, for he eventually caved. shrugging, he admitted, “it’s just- bullshit. the badlands takes all of our shit, and we don’t do anything about it?” crossing his arms over his chest, he looked at the ground between him and mor as he concluded, quietly, “i just wish there was more we could do to make up for all we lost.”

// i'm screaming i love mor so much