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[marsy]

[align=center][div style="width: 500px; text-align: justify; font-family: arial; font-size: 9pt; line-height: 1.2;"]hey ya'll ! finally making a new dump because maybe ?? i will start creating here again . feel free to hop on in and cozy up , because my home is your home . <3

[marsy]

[align=center][div style="width: 500px; text-align: justify; font-family: arial; font-size: 9pt; line-height: 1.2;"]things to do / reminders — i am very forgetful & have lots of thoughts
* figure out a script for your shazam review for comp; give yourself notes to possibly lowkey look off of when you're filming ? probably won't work when you're outside filming but ~
* heckin' write more for deacon ?? deacon and possibly ailill . definitely deacon though; write about his mom and their relationship , and kinda why he is the way he is lmao . basically , write a shit ton of his feelings .
* you're not a disappointment . just because you don't have a perfect gpa or perfect grades and have missed a ton of school doesn't make you any less competent than your peers . you're trying your best; don't push yourself too hard to the point you break like you have so many times in the past .
* don't worry too much about turning 18 in five months . you're still just a kid despite what the law says . you know how stupid lots of laws are , and the age of being a legal adult is one of those stupid laws . your brain doesn't even fully develop until your late twenties . you're not a shitty child or a disappointment or stupid if you stay with your mom until your early twenties , especially with how the world is rn . it's okay .
* you are so full of love !! showing that is good !! help people !! don't let your anxieties keep you from doing what you love the most , aka helping others , but also try to think more about yourself and take care of yourself rather than just take care of others all the time . sometimes you need to take a step back . it's not selfish to keep yourself together and healthy; it's a necessity . after all , you can't help people to the best of your ability when you're broken down and gasping for breath , yourself , right ?
* you are allowed to feel things . you are also allowed not to feel some things . you are allowed to feel angry , sad , happy , etc. you are allowed not to feel love for people who have hurt you and continue to hurt you .
* talk more with friends . go outside more . get some sun you pale little ghost boy !! walk , get some exercise ! start stretching and maybe even yoga in your room ! start singing in the shower again ! drink !! water !! we all know i could never give up my kickstarts but . . . that's all the more reason to drink more water !!
* live your best life pretending you're in a studio ghibli film !! sit out at the dining room table , set up your laptop and keyboard out there , let the breeze in through the cracked windows , and make that apple pie and lemonade .
* fix up your pinterest and all the boards , especially deacon's .
* bop your head to music , even if people are watching ! who gives a shit , my dude !! life is fleeting !! mouth the words and dance in your seat !! sing and dance in your room ! who cares if people judge you; that's on them !

[marsy]

[align=center][div style="width: 500px; text-align: justify; font-family: arial; font-size: 9pt; line-height: 1.2;"]hmm hmm mayhaps i will Actually try in tnw again . bc i don't know when to give up lmao . i just gotta figure out who to put in there . i might put deacon somewhere bc i honestly am in love with his character arc atm , but i might use ailill bc mm my boy . i was gonna use fern because i adore his character arc , though , and i still like that idea . i dunno . we'll see !

* edit: i think i'll stick with using fern bc i think he'd be the most interesting to put in tnw / has the most interesting character arc n stuff .

* edit no. 2: heck my dudes i really don't know , wish i could Not hyperfocus on One character bc it limits my muse / motivation for others

[finny.]

slams in

we definitely gotta plot if/when you’re back into tnw

[marsy]

[align=center][div style="width: 500px; text-align: justify; font-family: arial; font-size: 9pt; line-height: 1.2;"]hey beeb !
& ofc ?? i just gotta figure out who i'm gonna use ( for now ; i might end up putting more than one character in tnw ) and where to put them .

hell , i might even end up making a whole new character to put in tnw . i feel like that might be my best bet .

[south]

[align=center][div style="width:500px;text-align:justify; line-height: 110%;"]also slams in

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n if u do decide to join tnw,, hmu <3 i would dieee to plot w u again gayjay

[marsy]

[align=center][div style="width: 500px; text-align: justify; font-family: arial; font-size: 9pt; line-height: 1.2;"]tnw character idea / notes:
* name: bluejay or pup , i'm Torn
* probably early twenties-ish ? like 23 / 24 ?
* better fighting physically with no weapons than he is with weapons . i'm thinking he had / has an older brother who was trained in different fighting styles who kind of taught him everything he knows .
*grabs every book he can get his hands on , will take them with him until he finishes them and then leaves them behind so there's more room for new books . he's probably kept one book he loves to read over and over , gotta figure out what it is .
* figure out more of his personality when i get home .
    - believes there needs to be a balance of law and chaos , good and evil . probably very philosophical lmao . has strong opinions , but tends to keep them to himself because he knows he can't / won't change anyone's differing opinions ( there's more to this that i'll touch on later ) . very , very , very open-minded despite his strong opinions / beliefs . loves to learn new things , whether it be a new word , a whole language , or different piece of info or a belief that someone has , etc. very quiet and observant .
* dark hair and darker eyes . just a little under average height ? 5'7" maybe ? so not that short . physically fit and lean . gavin leatherwood ?? got that kinda Lowkey Very Smart but Fit look . a nerdjock . which is exactly the look i was going for . ( i know i don't need a fc but it helps me better Envision my characters , alright )


gaysaurus rex !! welcome <3
&& brooo i would Die to plot with you again too ok i'll definitely hit u up <3

[marsy]

[align=center][div style="width: 500px; text-align: justify; font-family: arial; font-size: 9pt; line-height: 1.2;"]heck it , i’m gonna stick deacon somewhere first and then probably stick that new kid somewhere , whether it goes well or not with deac

rn i need to sleep tho so i’ll work on All That tomorrow if i have time / the energy for it

[marsy]

[align=center][div style="width: 500px; text-align: justify; font-family: arial; font-size: 9pt; line-height: 1.2;"]more to-do notes:  —  that aren't school related
* mayhaps make a template based off this template psd ?
* write more for deacon ofc
* make a sub for deacon & figure out how he's gonna Be in tnw / his backstory and where he's gonna go
* uhm ? figure out what deacon's birthday & zodiac are gonna be

[marsy]

[align=center][div style="width: 500px; text-align: justify; font-family: arial; font-size: 9pt; line-height: 1.2;"]i anyone else having a problem making subaccounts or is that just me ?? it says i've put in the wrong password , but i'm literally using the same password i always use . Am Confusion

EDIT: LMAO i'm slow sometimes . i figured it out . rip @ me and my poor brain ( it's cause the user i wanted was already taken smdh )