❪ — AYON'S STORAGE. ✧ / ˖ ˚ ❫

[AYON]

[div style="width: 455px; text-align: justify; font-family: nyala; font-size: 8pt; letter-spacing: 1px; color: #000"][align=center]SAYONARA LULLABY, THE MESSIAH OF THE LOST, DAMNED, & BROKEN

Ayon is planned to be in BoB's Main Game as part-void-part-reaper wandering child of Lirim and Death, but even if I end up getting him inactive anyway, I'm still going to have his own storage here for his official/canon notes and whatnot because I love my cryptic star son so much, so, heck yeah!

* Note this storage mainly have many sensitive topics and descriptions of death in various ways ( cancer, suicide, murders, etc ), body horrors, gore, etc; please heed given trigger warnings

[AYON]

[align=center][div style="width: 455px; text-align: justify; font-family: nyala; font-size: 8pt; letter-spacing: 1px; color: #000"]I am yet uncertain if Ayon is originally supposed to be an official Komorebi character or he's just...there for me to mess with some ideas I have, but he would never exist in the universe. Though, part of my mind is still on him being Reagan Montero, as Ayon can be his "middle name", but, hm... Based on Ayon's character and whatnot, I just can't unsee him as Ryan Bergara being his faceclaim, so, I have to find a way of blending in Ayon's character with Reagan's without making them seem forced, awkward, or whatever.

This has been solved, thank God.

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I'm not going to be very active with BoB!Ayon, because I wanna focus on my life and personal projects more, but I'm most likely going to use Ayon to just help me explore the Komorebi universe more, like what Cy is down with few of their characters. BoB!Ayon is somewhat an AU Ayon, but while I'm still trying to find a way to make Ayon's character merge into Reagan's, because BoB!Ayon would be a dimension traveler like his parents, he'd be in the Komorebi universe before he wants to go to the BoB universe to be with his half brother, Desperado. Don't know how the Ayon/Reagan thing will go, but we'll just have to see.

[AYON]

[align=center][div style="width: 455px; text-align: justify; font-family: nyala; font-size: 8pt; letter-spacing: 1px; color: #000"]( * List of concepts I can for references when writing Ayon, as well as making them into (semi-)plots )

— Emotions ( Joy, sadness, anger, trust, fear, anticipation, disgust, surprise )
— Phobias ( Arachnophobia/fear of spiders, Ophidiophobia/fear of snakes, Acrophobia/fear of heights, Agoraphobia/fear of open or crowded spaces, Cynophobia/fear of dogs, Astraphobia/fear of lightnings and thunders, Claustrophobia/fear of small spaces, Mysophobia/fear of germs, Aerophobia/fear of flying, Trypophobia/fear of holes )
— Colours ( Red, orange, yellow, green, blue, purple, brown, pink, gray, black, white )
— Planets ( Mercury, Venus, Earth, Mars, Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, Neptune )
— Numbers ( One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten )
— Body parts ( Head, face, eyes, neck, arms, hands, fingers, chest, breasts, lungs, spine, heart, stomach, digestive system, intestine, nervous system, kidneys, skin, hips, thighs, livers, buttocks, reproductive system, sexual organs, knees, joints, ankles, feet, toes )

[AYON]

[align=center][div style="width: 455px; text-align: justify; font-family: nyala; font-size: 8pt; letter-spacing: 1px; color: #000"]Tugging. / Pulling.

A blink. / There. / A blink. / Here. / But, exactly, where?

Pulling. / T u g g i n g.

August blood stained throat, the lost child of death and void breathes determination nevertheless. / Thick and sticky against something beautiful. / Hot red on canvas. / Akin to a sun, it burns. / Even beauty h u r t s.

Icarus would agree.

No honey and milk will cool it down. / There shall be no rest when it is for the best, so, all up, he at it, just searching. / Meanwhile, he senses t h e m leading him. / He follows them like they are North Star, and t h e y speak to him in a shade of gray.

Painting his own world in monochrome.

He counts—one, two, three, more, and he finds himself staring at a shore.

Tuggingtuggingtuggingtugginghereherehereherehere—

He watches the tides go back and forth.

Soon, he, too, sways with it.

Once his celestial heart beats with calmness, he firmly presses his paws against the border and his eyes closes for a brief moment before he reveals them, a pair of pure gold and pitch black. / Life and death. / Something and nothing.

At last, low and slow, he utters, ❝ Desperado... Desperado... ❞

Not enough.

❝ Desperado Break... ❞

Desperado. / Desperado. / D e s p e r a t e.

[AYON]

[align=center][div style="width: 455px; text-align: justify; font-family: nyala; font-size: 8pt; letter-spacing: 1px; color: #000"]Sayonara Lullaby, also known as Ayon for short / Any nicknames are acceptable / Carries the Break surname / "The Messiah of the Damned, Lost, and Broken" / Agender; goes by any pronouns / Physically thirteen months, age is permanently stuck; age on mental and spiritual state is unknown / Immortal until the End / Created with magic and souls of the damned by Lirim Break and Death on December 11th, 2016 / Part Void, part Reaper—a Deviant, overall / Physical embodiment of unknown and fate / Have twelve soul shards that each of it resembles a zodiac sign, making them into the thirteenth soul; he is known to be the zodiac child / Have a job that he takes willing souls to the afterlife and brings comfort to the grievers. / Vagabond; mainly resides in where his half brother, Desperado, is ( Sunhaven ), however, is mostly distant with everyone else when he is loyal to only himself, his family, and the dead / Does not carry any scents / A small, but strong, white feline with right complete gold eye and left pitch black eye; have black "veins" revealing at the left side of his face; and paws, ears, and around the head is black / Wears a black, crystal-like pendant, and a glass cube necklace which contains water / A calm, quiet, and gentle being who is fascinated with everything life has to offer, yet stays so far from them. Like stars they are there for him to admire, yet, can not reach. ( And perhaps, it would be better if it stays that way, as stars are known to burn, God knows what happens then if he touches them ) / Does not care what anyone considers their relationship with him; however, will not mind taking them for what it is / Concept of trust means nothing to him when he is aware everyone is capable of telling the truth and lying for anything in anytime; therefore, he will not care if those he is closely associates with backstab him / Asexual biromantic / Taken as he have a husband and wife from a different universe / Implies to have all powers, yet does not use them in the Main Game / Will not, in any case, partipate in raids, torture sessions, etc; likewise, he will not judge, harm or kill an individual since he believes that was not what he was created for

[AYON]

[align=center][div style="width: 455px; text-align: justify; font-family: nyala; font-size: 8pt; letter-spacing: 1px; color: #000"]TRANSFERRED FROM DISCORD —
"Alrighty, so, I'm thinking of that backstory I thought up for Ayon? I'm definitely going to make that as his official backstory. I think the only things I need to change is most likely taking down the "monochrome to seeing colours after meeting your soulmate" element of it because I'm planning to make Ayon have synthesis; Crederex wouldn't give up searching for Reagan after he died or the twelfth time; and, instead of Crederex, Shawn at the time, making a contract in order for Ayon to live after he was killed by a monster, he'd do that when Ayon was Reagan and he got murdered as he wanted Reagan to have the ability to reincarnation. He could've asked for Reagan to just be resurrected, but the Demon Crederex made the deal with, Hyuo, manipulated him to make things in his life more interesting, plus Crederex was desperate and could mainly think about bringing Reagan back, so he would ask for anything to get what he want.

Although, once Crederex became a Demon, he won't remember anything but the name, Reagan, with extremely vague description of that person, and few details of the time he made the contract, specifically he was asking someone ( Reagan ) to be able to reincarnate. So, I was thinking Crederex would want to look for this Reagan person, even though he doesn't remember why or how was he important to him, but he just had this knowing person means a lot of him, therefore, he had this desire to search for him. However, lifetime, Crederex finds a person he believes is Reagan, he never got his chance to tell him he was Shawn and he was Reagan when as soon as he thinks that person is Reagan, they usually die few hours afterward, and even if he wanted to tell him about it right away, it always happened at the wrong time when Reagan wouldn't be available. He definitely knows it'd be Reagan because they would die on November 30th, the time when Reagan was born.

After the twelfth incarnation of Reagan died, Crederex would still search for Reagan, he came across Sam who he originally thought was Reagan, but even after he dismissed it and saw her as someone else, he still ended up sticking with her because Sam was so supportive and kind to him, even if he was shitty at the time, but they did became best friends and after a few years, they realized they had a crush to each other and began to date. Also, I think instead of Reagan becoming a Demon in the end, Sam would be the one to be a Shaemon. I'd have to change Reagan's view towards Demons a bit to make it realistic to his character, but, yeah,

Continuing on, eventually, while Crederex was losing his hope of finding Reagan and Sam noticed his solemn and quiet demeanor, he spoke to Sam about the whole search on Reagan situation, and with Sam's help, they both figured out what was a puzzle by noting how each of Reagan's incarnation is based on a zodiac sign, and Sam expected there'd be an Ophiuchus!Reagan wandering around by now. That's when they come across who is now known as Ayon, and unlike any other of Ayon's incarnations, the moment Crederex sees Ayon, he can immediately tell it's Reagan.

As much as Crederex wanted to take the chance to tell Ayon everything right away, Sam suggested to wait it out and let Ayon be comfortable with them, otherwise, he'd most likely be afraid of them and never want to interact with them again, as she reassured him Ayon will be carefully watched to prevent death. Ayon became more comfortable with Crederex and Sam, and even considered them as his best friends after two years of interaction. Crederex and Sam had feelings for him after their second year and discussed of having Ayon be a part of their love relationship, as Crederex thought Reagan could've been his lover when he sensed such a strong familiarity in Ayon's personality and easily imaged they could have a similar personality.

OR instead of them developing feelings for Ayon after the second year, they all started dating a while after Ayon remembered literally everything about him and became a Demon by making a contract with Crederex.

To explain that scenario, Ayon have certain nightmares in certain months, and after he went through all of the nightmares for a year, he's given a message that starting on December 18th, each day, he have to have to kill himself in a similar situation each of his incarnation went through, otherwise something bad will happen to him. But right before the moment he would finally end his life, he'd wake up fully healthy and whatnot, but he actually haven't died as something stopped him.

On December 30th, he attempted to commit suicide jumping off of a high altitude. Sam and Crederex found out what's been happening to Ayon lately at the last minute, yet managed to stop him before Crederex explained to him in every details of what had happened to him. Before Ayon could respond to anything, that's when Hyuo came over with Ajin who turned into a snake monster and managed to kill Ayon, while Hyuo gave Crederex the memory of what happened to Reagan and himself when he goes by Shawn.

After Crederex and Sam took Ajin and Hyuo down, Ayon told Crederex he wanted to make a contract with him. Ayon never told Crederex and Sam he had the ability to see a partial of individual's hidden true form, so he knew Crederex was a Demon all along, yet he was afraid to talk to him and Sam about it because his ability had a very dark and sad past to it that made him believe if anyone had known, he'd be left behind.

Crederex had thought of making Ayon a Demon, but he feared at the thought of him having to go through so much suffering and hatred like he had, so if Ayon was in his last reincarnation, he may as well enjoy being with him while it lasted. Though, Ayon begged him to make up a deal, and Crederex gave up and asked him what he wanted. Ayon answered him to push him off of the cliff with a promise they would be together forever with Sam, and they never have to say goodbye to each other ever again. They kissed each other and after Ayon also kissed Sam, he was pushed off of the cliff, and instead of disappearing to his bedroom, he fell through a portal and reached to Hell.

Immediately, to intimate the Demons to get what Crederex and Sam want without putting up so much of a fight, they had Hyuo's and Ajin's heads and entered Hell to get Ayon back. Ayon was already a Demon by the time they arrive, but it'd still be nice to get him back as soon as possible, so they confronted those who would get in their ways and demanded to return Ayon. By the time Ayon was given back, he still remembered everything, and somehow managed to keep most of his personality, but Crederex and Sam didn't complain and they all returned home.

After they all discussed about what happened in the past and whatnot, and where their relationship stood then, they all officially became partners until several months later, they all proposed to each other, and there you have it. They're all still going through their own trauma, but they have each other, so everything will be okay."

[AYON]

[align=center][div style="width: 455px; text-align: justify; font-family: nyala; font-size: 8pt; letter-spacing: 1px; color: #000"]TRANSFERRED FROM DISCORD —
"Crederex and Sam never imagined Ayon would be...himself still, even after he was brought to Hell and tortured—or at least, they thought so.

Ayon was supposed to be a Demon, however, since the contract was made between him and Crederex, other than him having a new form, anything he does said otherwise.

They did noticed how quieter Ayon was; how softer he was from a smile to a voice. Oh, they cut through so easy for his thought or emotion to end the moment he shared them to the world.

They soon realized: Ayon had been tortured by the world for too long, in lifetime after lifetime, giving up his last breath twelve times, he believed he was still standing on it once he reached Hell.

Ayon was special because he knew how to keep his soul close, despite the agony burning his skin and unknown hands attempting to take it, even if it means he would be touched everywhere.

He learnt it best by being hurt. He only had himself, while he used his pain of being harmed, lied, manipulated—overall, a true definition of tragedy to guide him in life and beyond after death.

Therefore, the torture Ayon went through In Hell was just the same as he had gone through since his birth, and yet, he was full.

He was envied by the Demons and the Damned, as even a few powerful ones were so of his strength. Perhaps, a bit unsettled as well because how can one not fear Hell itself?

With Ayon, as Hell reigns supreme in his steps, he is the inferno that causes the stars to fall."

[AYON]

[align=center][div style="width: 455px; text-align: justify; font-family: nyala; font-size: 8pt; letter-spacing: 1px; color: #000"]Currently working in progress.

DON'T DWELL, barnacle boi — ✧「 Beautiful, beautiful 」

NYM, Phlux — ✧「 There was tension / There was fondle / There was tension / There was / There was tension / There was fondle 」

UPSIDE DOWN, Quok — ✧「 Don't tell me the truth / Your world is upside down / You keep pretending / Don't trust your friends 」

THIS IS HOME, Cavetown — ✧「 Get a load of this monster / He doesn't know how to communicate / His mind is in a different place / Will everybody please give him a little bit of space / Get a load of this trainwreck / His hair's a mess and he doesn't know who he is yet / But little do we know, the stars / Welcome him with open arms 」

LOVELY, Billie Eilish & Khalid — ✧「 Isn't it lovely, all alone / Heart made of glass, my mind of stone / Tear me to pieces, skin to bone / Hello, welcome home 」

[AYON]

[align=center][div style="width: 455px; text-align: justify; font-family: nyala; font-size: 8pt; letter-spacing: 1px; color: #000"]I've been trying to make a bunch of icons for Ayon, and Christ, does it make me want to roleplay him on here ( as BoB aren't working for me ), even though I shouldn't, But...it's Ayon Montero for goodness sake.

So, notes to self after I get my wifi back hopefully in the beginning of October:
— Restart this subaccount and storage.
— If I'm in for this roleplay shenanigans once more, most likely going to drop Ayon in the Coven because Good Shit. If it doesn't work out well, I guess I can drop him in Camp Apocalypse.
— I can do this beforehand, but write a TNW verse information for Ayon. Obviously, Komorebi!Ayon can't be roleplayed in the New World, so I need to know how can I write TNW!Ayon without bending his original backstory and personality too much.
— I can also do this beforehand, but make two biographies for Ayon; with first for the main/Komorebi verse and another for TNW, as re-edit anything that can't be roleplayed in TNW.

[AYON]

[align=center][div style="width: 455px; text-align: justify; font-family: nyala; font-size: 8pt; letter-spacing: 1px; color: #000"]Ayon is a Seulmon, which is a being who is supposedly a Demon, yet still have a soul with part or whole of their humanity attached to them.

Seulmons are usually people who ended up suffering so much in their life to the point they could not distinguish the pain from the torture they received in Hell and their personal experiences on Eanmerthas, and they had used their experiences to keep their souls and humanity held close, therefore, the torture was mostly, if not fully, uneffective towards them.

However, depending on how strong they are to hold their soul and humanity during the torture session, they can still lose some memories and/or parts of their personality. They will have their own demonic form afterward, but it only appears when they are experiencing high emotions or pain; the greater they feel, more parts of their demonic form will show.

Going through torture session will result trauma towards them; they will most likely experience nightmares based on it, as they experience aching in their whole body and head for a while.

Seulmons are viewed as the lowest rank of the Demon hierarchy due to them still having some or a full humanity, but they can still be usually envied, or even a bit unsettled, at by a lot of Demons. Some would dare to attempt stealing their soul if it means to become powerful and resilient when it is rumoured Seulmons are generally known to have stronger defence towards pain itself.

// More details to be added