「 ❝ — DRY EYES ❞ | aspen f. 」

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[align=center][div style="width: 420px; text-align: justify; font-family: arial; font-size: 7pt; color: #404040;"]❝ 100 x 100 ❞


❝ 80 x 80 ❞

[marsy]

[align=center][div style="font-family: arial black; font-size: 20pt; color: #806F70; letter-spacing: -3px; margin-top: 5px; margin-bottom: 10px;"]「 ❝ THIS SKIN I CAN DO WITHOUT ❞  —  tags [color=#404040]」

[marsy]

[align=center][div style="width: 350px; text-align: justify; font-family: arial; font-size: 7.5pt; color: #404040;"]❝ trackin' on sub

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[align=center][div style="width: 400px; text-align: justify; font-family: verdana; font-size: 7pt; line-height: 1.2; color: #404040;"]N E V E R WANTED TO BE HERE NOW
aspen "i don't have a middle name" monica faulker | aka penny, but Don't
twenty-five (25) | born september twentieth, virgo-libra cusp | created long ago
trans (??) man ( he/his pronouns ) | androsexual, demiromantic
previously a loner | currently position of group

ONE FOOT IN THE G R A V E
( reference | 5'9" ; 145 lbs. | physical health: 60-70% )
lol wip because i'm tired
— minor injuries: he has a few small, almost fully healed bruises.
— major injuries: thankfully, none, right now.

OTHER ON THE G R O U N D
( [abbr=51% introverted, 66% observant, 53% feeling, 64% judging, 51% turbulent]isfj-t[/abbr] | melancholic | neutral good | mental health: 80-86% )
description here blah blah blah
— calm & collected, 'honest', deceitful & cunning, quick thinker, soft-spoken, bold & brave, generous, mostly lawful (seems like it, at least), highly intelligent & observant, analytical & calculating, good-intentioned, active, confident but also self-conscious, unsure but decisive, guilt complex, eloquent, very cautious & untrusting, trustworthy & loyal, seemingly fearless, unpredictable, moody, j u s t i c e

I CAN'T PROCESS WHAT I'M FEELING NOW
currently single | [ 0 ] possible love interests ( open to possible li's ) | ½ n/a
npc x npc | adopted by n/a | no (playable) past or current mentors
victim of child abuse | abusive uncle, step-aunt, and step-cousins in past | biological parents are deceased | hates talking about his family

THIS SKIN I CAN DO W I T H O U T
physically difficult ( armed & unarmed ), mentally low difficult | note: these hold true only if he is in good health. if he is around 60-75% health, physical and mental difficulty vary, and any lower percentage, both difficulties are lower (how much lower depends on why he's unhealthy).
won't hesitate to fight if threatened, but will always try to persuade his opponent(s) not to fight before trying to inflict any serious damage | will always go for his gun first if his opponent hasn't already hurt him physically, or hasn't already got their own weapon out.
english is his first language, although he is also fluent in french and spanish.
attack in bold italicized #282828 and/or tag @ ASPEN F. or @ crisis | nonviolent/peaceful actions may be powerplayed

[marsy]

[align=center][div style="width: 420px; text-align: justify; font-family: arial; font-size: 8pt; color: #404040;"]- "[he] just offers up forgiveness at the cost of himself because he can't stand having hatred in his heart[.]"
- "no wonder he's so accepting of other people's cruelty - it's one of the only things that makes sense to him[.]"

[ resource ]  [ Another One ]

[marsy]

[align=center][div style="width: 420px; text-align: justify; font-family: arial; font-size: 8pt; color: #404040; line-height: 1.3;"]" was... that supposed to be a joke? "

" i have to. i might not be able to, you might be right, but i have to, and i can't fail. "

" thank you, but there's no need to apologize. "

" ... for a lifetime was but a moment in that place, and each man dreams his own heaven. and in the darkness david closed his eyes, as all that was lost was found again. "

[marsy]

[align=center][div style="width: 450px; text-align: justify; font-family: roboto; font-size: 7pt; line-height: 1.4; letter-spacing: 0.5px; color: #404040;"]ty @ lynn (':

( BOLD all that apply to your muse, and ITALICIZE which sometimes apply to your muse - HABITS )

nail biting | throat clearing | lying | interrupting | chewing the ends of pens | smoking | swearing | knuckle cracking | thumb sucking | muttering under their breath | talking to themselves | nose picking | binge drinking | oversleeping | snacking between meals | skipping meals | picking at skin | impulse buying | talking with their mouth full | humming/singing to themselves | chewing gum | leg jiggling | foot tapping | hair twirling | whistling | eye rolling | licking lips | sniffing | squinting | rubbing hands together | jaw clenching | gesturing while talking | putting feet up on tables | tucking hair behind ears | chewing lips | crossing arms over chest | putting hands on hips | rubbing the back or their neck | being late | procrastinating | doodling | shredding paper | peeling off bottle labels | forgetfulness | running hands through hair | overreacting | teeth grinding | nostril flaring | slouching | pacing | drumming fingers | fist clenching | pinching bridge of nose | rubbing temples | rolling shoulders

( BOLD all that apply to your muse - SKILLS )

bake a cake from scratch | ride a horse | drive stick | speak a second language | dance | catch a fish | play an instrument | throw a punch | build a deck | ice skate | unclog a drain | program a computer | change a flat tire | fire a gun | sew | juggle | play poker | paint | fly a kite | sculpt | write poetry | change a diaper | sing | shoot a bow and arrow | ride a bike | swim | sail a boat | do a back flip | play chess | give CPR | pitch a tent | flirt | stitch a wound | read palms | use chopsticks | write in cursive | use an electric drill | braid hair | make a campfire | make a mixed drink | do sudoku puzzles | wrap a gift | give a good massage | jump-start a car | roll their tongue | do magic tricks | do yoga | tie a tie | skip a rock | shuffle a deck of cards | read Morse code | pick a lock

( BOLD the flaws your muse has, and ITALICIZE the ones they used to or partially have )

absent-minded / abusive / addicted / aimless / alcoholic / aloof / anxious / arrogant / audacious / has bad habits / bigmouthed / bigoted / blunt / bold / callous / childish / cruel / cursed / dependent / dishonest / disloyal / disturbed / dubious / egotistical / envious / erratic / fanatical / fickle / fierce / finicky / flirty / gluttonous / gruff / gullible / hedonistic / humourless / hypocritical / idiotic / ignorant / illiterate / immature / impatient / impious / impish / incompetent / indecisive / indifferent / infamous / intolerant / judgemental / lazy / lewd / liar / lustful / masochistic / meddlesome / meek / megalomanic / naïve / nosey / obsessive / oppressive / overambitious / overemotional / overprotective / overzealous / paranoid / peevish / perfectionist / pessimistic / phobic / rebellious / reckless / remorseless / rigorous / sadistic / sarcastic / skeptic / seducer / selfish / self-martyr / self-righteous / senile / shallow / smart ass / solemn / spineless / spiteful / spoiled / squeamish / stubborn / superstitious / tactless / temperamental / theatrical / timid / tongue-tied / unlucky / unpredictable / untrustworthy / vain / weak-willed / withdrawn

( BOLD all that apply - MUSE AESTHETICS: HORROR EDITION )

— CLASSIC
black and white. powder puffs. red lipstick. winged eyeliner. white kitten heels. black lace lingerie. icy blue eyes. rain. abandoned cars. skeletons. acid. poison. voyeurism. switchblades. strangling. overcoats. looking over your shoulder. trans-atlantic accents. private detectives. dinner parties. haunted mansions. cobwebs. perfect blonde curls. kitchen knives. shock. cellars. dust. ghosts. dark alleys. empty streets. horn-rimmed glasses. radiation. zombies. serial murder. suspicion. paranoia. the city. witches. the devil. cannibalism. conspiracies. amulets. abject terror. the American South. the American Northeast. England. analog cameras.

— CRYPTID & URBAN LEGEND
aliens. blinding light. dark woods. driving at night. claw marks. bite marks. men in black. memory loss. dismembered bodies. sewers. flashlights. cell phones. video cameras. cars with tinted windows. unlabeled cassette tapes. bugs. big cities. urban crimes. clowns. something rustling outside your window. glowing light. unsolved mysteries. suburbia. mirrors. the american pacific northwest. the american midwest. hiking. backpacking.

— GOTHIC
gaslights. corsets. ballrooms. candlelight. mist. starless nights. full moons. cobbled streets. horse-drawn carriages. mysterious strangers. bogs. moors. forests. mountains. castles. velvet. silver. brass. gold. jewels. domino masks. the opera. dangerous romances. tragic romances. violins. roses. lilies. empty graves. crosses. cemeteries. snow. ice. the gallows. crows. milk-white skin. ambiguous illness. fangs. pointed nails. something howling in the night. capes. gloves. top hats. straight razors. lightning. pipe organs. underground caverns. bats. mice. rats. ravens. cats. pearls. attics. talismans. axes. wood. isolation in a room full of people. vampires. werewolves. ghosts. coffins. western europe. eastern europe. bones. churches. catacombs. mausoleums. books.

— PARANORMAL
malevolent spirits. seances. spells. missing bodies. hidden graves. white noise. static. flickering lights. rings of salt. demons. poltergeists. dark histories. old buildings. cold air. wells. urban exploration. a dog barking at unseen things. iconoclasm. black ooze. old photographs. dark bodies of water. crucifixes. priests. possession. exorcisms. dolls.

— SLASHER
bloodbaths. massacres. wanton nudity. newspapers. leather jackets. letterman jackets. converse sneakers. obscured faces. social unrest. bonfires. lakes. babysitters. high school. lockers. dead leaves in the fall. jack-o’-lanterns. passing shadows. outdated television sets. nightmares. psychiatrists. hospitals. unstoppable forces. gunfire. police. landline telephones. improvised weapons. halloween. secrets. revelations. cut wires. character masks. scrunchies. wild curls. jeering children. parties. fire. swearing. revulsion. california. the american midwest. ambulances.

— THRILLER
daylight. fluorescent lighting. morgues. unwavering eye contact. tension. lit rooms. empty rooms. killer in plain sight. a dog digging in the newly-planted flower bed. steely gazes. paperwork. anagrams. codes. convicted killers. missing persons. law enforcement. federal agents. small towns. suspicion. paranoia. subdued terror. dimly-lit parking lots. a noise in the distance.

( BOLD any that apply to your muse, and ITALICIZE which make them uncomfortable - FEARS )

the dark ⋆ fire ⋆ open water ⋆ deep water ⋆ being alone ⋆ crowded spaces ⋆ confined spaces ⋆ open spaces ⋆ change ⋆ failure ⋆ war ⋆ loss of control ⋆ powerlessness ⋆ prison ⋆ blood ⋆ drowning ⋆ suffocation ⋆ public speaking ⋆ natural animals ⋆ the supernatural ⋆ heights ⋆ death ⋆ dying ⋆ intimacy ⋆ rejection ⋆ abandonment ⋆ loss ⋆ the unknown ⋆ the future ⋆ not being good enough ⋆ scary stories ⋆ speaking to new people ⋆ poverty ⋆ loud noises ⋆ lack of noise ⋆ being touched ⋆ forgetting ⋆ insects ⋆ disease ⋆ falling

[marsy]

[align=center][div style="width: 420px; text-align: justify; font-family: arial; font-size: 8pt; color: #404040; line-height: 1.3;"]" violence is always an option, but it's not always the right one, and i prefer to stray from that option as much as i possibly can. "

tba

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