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[ashen]

its really not just this though
i mean. im right now essentially leading the lodge out of necessity. dont get me wrong, i love the lodge. i love being able to shape it in the way that i have.

but..i feel like the direction ive wanted to take it--isolated, high defenses, lots of kids so not much for raiding to try and keep their kids safe, etc. isnt working because they'll just get raided, kidnapped, etc, and since i cant do anythinga bout that other than hope some people keep in mind their environment and defenses, its just. not working. maybe it needs to go in a new direction, but im not the person to take it there.

frankly, i dont. love when a group suddenly changes a whole lot, rather gradual changes are more of what interest me, but. if someones interested in taking over then that'd be up to them. id just ask that, hopefully, things dont get completely turned on their head right away unless you really feel its necessary

[ajdawny]

I understand.

I love the direction you want to take it. And I think there's still a capacity to keep it in that direction, though there might need to be a bit of tweaks. Perhaps just a slightly more involved support system?
I definitely feel your pain.

Neither do I. When groups make a 180... it overwhelms, and sort of swallows any sort of vision a group might have.

Perhaps install and interim leader? Or someone who deals with the day to day? Let Johannes take a break from things... I'm not sure, honestly. I'm not that good with change, I like things staying exactly the same because I'm a creature of habit.

So, whatever you decide/need I'm here, and Andor is here... and my fluctuating muse is here. <3

[A Small Everyone]

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Dittoing everything AJ said since I'm not good with words. c:>

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[PETER M.]

I can also see exactly where you're coming from with this, to be honest. It gets me a lot, too. But we're all here if you need help with anything. I'm bad at this kind of thing but yeah !

I'd offer that I'm willing to take over if you do leave, but I'm really not sure if I am lol that and Peter would be a horrid leader.

I'm also going to just,, ditto everything AJ said too because I'm bad at words.

[ashen]

i also wanna be clear i guess like

im not leaving flintlock
like no matter what honestly bc this place is my home on bb, and whatever happens--if i step down entirely, or if i make joh be more of an. advisor etc, or . what ever, joh will still be a part of flintlock. its just that right now, leading is getting really hard for me

but thank you guys
i guess. idk i know we're all a family here and thats kinda the main thing about flintlock i guess thats important to me
and to joh
like. thats why he isnt super aggressive (And @ ASmallEveryone i dont mean to say your idea is a bad one, just thats why he personally isnt) is because he's worried about. being targetted more because of it.

and idk i guess part of it might also be. like. personally stuff harming kids really gets to me personally as well as joh so its physically hard for me to like. be around those kinds of plots so thats why i guess im also having a harder time because it feels like now thats kinda just. the norm for flintlock and it really makes me feel. really anxious and helpless since again thats usually stuff that. theres no allowance for the lodge to do anything about it until after tthe fact.

[impiety]

hey, no matter what, im glad to see your not leaving flintlock! i love the lodge no matter what happens, an i love u and i hope everything works out! leading can def be a stressful thing and sometimes it just?? isnt fun when its out of necessity. and I love joh, both as a leader or a regular member? im love him

i suppose I could offer greer up? the only problems is she is like. barely turning 16 soon but she lies abt her age . anyway. shes v protective of the lodge . some provlems with me personally is that i don't have discord or skype which idk if it would do any th ing but. figured id throw it out. shes not rly too active, but? i can change that, i just wanna do anything to help. hell, if theres no good candidates i could whip up a character if you do decide to step down. just do whats best for you fe! don't force yourself to lead if you don't want to

and?? tbfh my favorite thing about the lodge is how like.. homey it feels? idk ive never made more friends and had more fun with rp then i have here, and id rly hate to see that. changed, if that makes sense? but thats just me and!! I love the lodge sm and i hope that you feel alright fe and ily!!

[ashen]

so this is something ive been really, ig stressed about lately

and im trying to figure out how to deal with it namely because it's part of what's making me. inactive and i want to figure out how to deal with it.
but essentially, what's been bothering me is how often things happen to the lodge, or whatnot, but there's no way for anyone in the lodge to retaliate or defend themselves, essentially. like, kidnappings, murders, etc. the recent fire thing is not what brought this up just. for anyone worried bc i actually talked to sheo about that beforehand but, this has been bothering me for a while where people just...do whatever they want, trespass, break rules, kill npcs, kidnap people, hurt people, and the lodge itself doesnt ever actually have a chance to like....stop that. i guess what bugs me in part is how incompetent it makes the place seem, but it's not because the characters here are incompetent, or whateevr, its because things just...happen and are already decided.

I know there's not really anything I can do to say 'hey you cant just waltz in and steal someone' but it's been making it really hard for me to. roleplay when i know that whatever development i do for joh, or for the lodge in terms of protection and defense, it doesnt really change anything. I just want to put it out there that if you're active and interested in the lodge, I would appreciate knowing if you'd like to be considered to take over because if I can't figure out how to get over this I'm really not going to be able to keep up with Johannes as a director, if at all. I feel like things are just perpetually going to be at a dead end no matter what actual development happens here.

[Rook!]

hugs and tracks

I don't think I'm a suitable leader for the lodge so I'm not even going to suggest it (on top of Torrin being a doormat), but I'll support you through whatever happens <3

i mean i guess c could potentially lead but thatd turn out horribly and theyd probabLY GO TO WAR

[A Small Everyone]

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Tracking this.

If there's going to be a new dictator, maybe a character that would take a more aggressive action? Or maybe someone to advise the dictator to take more aggressive actions?

Not only that but maybe someone in a high position that will encourage the people of Flintlock Lodge to retaliate and fight back? Maybe even do raids or mess with other group's plans?

I apologize if these aren't very good suggestions. I also don't know if Damien would make a good leader due to him a) always wanting to retaliate in an aggressive manner - but I guess that would make things interesting in one way or another - and, more importantly, b) being a brand spankin' new member.

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[ajdawny]

Honestly I can see where your frustration is coming from. But you're doing a good job with Joh and the lodge in general. I can offer Andor to do anything to help out, though I wouldn't feel comfortable offering him to lead because I feel that you're doing a good job. The IC events definitely do cause some frustration, and I get the muse going down because of them.

You're doing a swell job, but like Rook, I'll support you in whatever you decide and whatever happens. Just know I'm here for you... you can talk to me, lean on me, and rely on me for anything you might need.

So Andor is out there for you to utilize in whatever way you want. But the lodge is your baby, I wouldn't want you giving that up because of unfortunate IC circumstances.

yet, I ramble, so...

-Aj.