THAT YOULL GROW OLD WITH ME / private

[dannychan]

he seemed to calm after a moment, smiling slightly into the kiss and gently running his hand along his chest soothingly.

[Leafwing12]

John pulled his head away when he had to breathe. He closed his eyes, his hand moving down to rest on the back of his neck. “Alex...I-I know you don’t want to think of...The ‘ifs’ that could happen. But...I want you to know that no matter what, I’m never going to truly leave you.” John whisoered

[dannychan]

he frowned softly. "please don't start.. i'm not going to let you die, john.."

[Leafwing12]

John watched him. “Alex, you’re not a doctor. And..I know a heart transplant seems like the only valid option right now. But...Truthbis I’ve already had two. One when I was only two months old. Another when I was six. The same things keeps happening to each transplant I get. The medicine is only prolonging the inevitable. That’s all they can do with the Little information they have on this disease.” John whispered

[dannychan]

he frowned. "but.. i.."

[Leafwing12]

John watched him. He gently pulled him down, kissing his forehead. “...Alex, I’m not afraid of what will eventually happy. And you know why?” He asked, raised his hand and brushing the male’s hair back. “Because I can die a happy man and have no regrets. Ive gotten to experience what it’s like to be loved by someone and love them back just as much. Ive gotten to experience what an actually family is like. And that’s all thanks to you, Alex. I love you. And I’m always going to be with you, whether I’m here physically or spiritually.” John murmured. “So don’t be sad when the time comes. Look back on happy memories. Use those good thoughts of us to heal and overcome the grief of my death. And know that I’ve never truly left.” John said

[dannychan]

he hesitated. "but that doesn't mean that those around you won't be upset. you might tell her not to be, but it will always hurt.." he said softly. "i don't want to lose someone else i love.."

[Leafwing12]

John blinked, brushing his thumb along the back of his neck. “Of course it’ll be painful. I don’t know a single person who thinks nothing of loved ones after they’ve passed. It’s hard, I understand. It’s painful. But...All you can do is just find a way to properly grieve and move on.” He said

[dannychan]

he looked down. "no. i'm going to figure this out."

[Leafwing12]

He frowned, watching him. "Alex." He said, gently tilting his head so he was looking at him. "...I've accepted what's going to happen. This isn't something I want you getting involved in. Now, stop worrying. I don't want our time together to be upsetting anymore. Let's just have a good time. I don't want my last memories of you to be you upset or stress out." He said.