le chaos. | another marsy dump.

[marsy]

yea it went pretty good
i forgot my drink so i went the entire day without one, and i embarrassed myself several times, but *shrug* shit happens right

i'm finna write angst krys bc i'm in a Bitter mood

[shizuknya]

[B][I]I'M GOING TO FUCKING DECK HIM I SWEAR TO GOD

honestly me marsy but :T

hhhhhhh krys angst I'm going to legit cry

[marsy]

i feel like i'm always Bitter on here, and i'm always ranting. like i barely plot with anyone anymore, i just rant n shit. i'm sorry, ya'll came here for quality content but all you got it shitty memes that i shove my feelings down with and Rants.

[marsy]

shark week is going to start soon for me, i feel like shit physically and mentally, and i don't know what i'm fucking doing in school anymore, i'm just done. i'm done with everything.

tomorrow i'll be like all hyped n shit, watch. just watch. my mood swings need to Stop.

[shizuknya]

but you have a right to rant. if u can't vent/rant/talk about what's bothering you, how are you gonna get it out and over with? if that makes sense. we love you marsy and we want to help you through whatever is troubling you.

[phantomatics]

that's really good! i hope your next day goes even better!

i might write lukas angst....

hey marsy it's totally okay! this your dump, so you can really post whatever you want. and i really don't mind, i'm just here for support!

[marsy]

[spoiler=stupid shite]i'm so fucking emotional and moody i want to bang my head into a door. i'm so tired. i appreciate all your guys' help but it makes me feel so incredibly guilty that i'm pulling you into my shit, which isn't even shitshit like some of your guys' shit, it's so small and stupid compared to yours, i shouldn't even be upset over some of the crap i'm upset over, i overthink so much and ya'll have enough shit going on in your lives, you don't need my rants depressing you/angering you more. you don't need to put the weight of helping me on your shoulders. i'm so tired and sick of being me.

i'm sick of being all broody and upset one moment then five seconds later being hyped and happy and sunshiney and silly. i'm sick of it because it makes me seem fake, and i even believe that every single negative emotion is just bullshit and me just wanting to "fit in with the edgy crowd" and being an attention-whore. but then i think no it's ok everyone feels sad and broody sometimes, it's ok to feel this way. and then i'm like "but it's not ok for YOU to feel this way bc it's FAKE" and i'm so. fucking. tired.[/spoiler]

[marsy]

i'm going to sleep. in the morning i'll be anxiety-ridden and want to burn the school down and after school i'll want to fall into a ditch and curl up and not move and so the cycle begins. this is how every school year goes. it fucks me up so fucking much.

[phantomatics]

hey i'm sorry you're feeling so shitty but i hope you wake up feeling better!

[twistiethebear]

hey i'm sorry you're feeling so shitty but i hope you wake up feeling better!