make daddy proud & garbage

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comforthim plz


bc they know i sleep late liek around 12
"if u sleep early u can get up early and not be so tired"
i legit fucked my schedule up sm it doesnt matter what time i go to sleep im gonna wake up tired as fuck. it's the same shit. i cried forced myself to sleep at probably around 10:30 ?? or smth?? and this morning it was just the same shit.
like before they did all this theyd legit wake up to come check on me to see if i was still awake
they are... e x tr em e l y controlling
"work with us" "fix ur attitude u know damn well ur dad will destroy that phone and sell those tickets" "whyre you mad? we're doing what's good for u"
ofc
this makes it worse
i dont want to go to counselling i want to be numb and feel nothing and leave this house

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i wanna make an andy biersack character i can just Destroy
or bring back/make a jensen ackles character i could JUST as easily destroy lmao
whooo knows

[twistiethebear]

alfie will comfort and clean up his boo boos

literally like it doesn't matter when one goes to bed? i've gone to bed at 2am and woken up at 6am wide awake and gone to bed at 10pm and woken up at 9am tired as fuck. like it matters on how you sleep and a whole bunch of other stuff not with when you go to sleep
they need to read a book
about how to properly parent
like??????????!!!!! ugh

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zeke love him sm b y e

"oh we're gonna go invade ur privacy and look at everything on ur phone and give u no freedom and control everything u do sorry lmao" and then they just have to ask "whyre you mad?? ?" like?? do u not understand wtf u just did??

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thank god my pillow and shirt i got from hot topic are on their way they were shipped two days ago and should be here friday
i want my pillow so i can hug it when i sad cuz it has kj apa and cole sprouse on it oof
i saw the body pillow and had to have it okay it's got m'bois on it
i also now have oliver muse end me now
imma go give him angst

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AAAAH WHY DO I EXIST

ive done none of my homework cuz i d o nt c a  re

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the new dolan twins videomakes me wanna have gunner ice skating with rhys but then
he breaks his leg p bad like oof
maybe blood if the ice tore his pants and he fucked leg up p bad

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im getting my dog to sleep in my room more in hopes that she learns that if she wants to sleep she has to come to my room. my dog makes me feel so happy?? and i love her sm?? and now im crying bc shes so old and i... we almost lost her deadass a week ago or two. she almost had a heart attack. to think how easy she could just... go..
i dont want to lose her.


a n y w a y u-um... tonight's been extremely rough

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i loooove when my dad turns the wifi off at 10
im almost 15 why do they give me a bed time
why do they think all the stuff theyre doing to me is helping me
it's making it worse
i feel so numb,,,,


whatever

he sad

[twistiethebear]

no poor sad son
alfie must comfort

youre almost 15 why the fuck are they enforcing a bedtime? like holy shit. they are so controlling