and they go, i hate to say i told you so - writing

[woodsy]

wtf
legends is the greatest modern day poet around
umm,, start a writing insta and publish a book of poetry pls

[crows]

wtf
legends is the greatest modern day poet around
umm,, start a writing insta and publish a book of poetry pls

[woodsy]

also,,, who wants to swim in warm water?? that's weird

[Legends]

not me, give me that cold as winter water

[Legends]

[align=center][div style="0px; width:400px; height:auto; text-align: justify; font-size: 8pt; line-height:13px;"]jounral entry no. 1.5 / this happened over dinner and im sulking on the 3rd floor

"you just got to find a major that will get you a job"

"its about how much it will cost"

"well you have to go There, even if you don't want to"

"people in that a major are in such high demand these days"

"they recognized your cousin's writing talent"

"no one walks out of college with a job with those two majors"

shut up please

don't tell me what i can and can't do. don't tell me that i can't study something i want to. you don't get to tell me how my future goes. its mine. stop throwing stones at my windows. i didn't provoke you. i didn't say you were wrong. i sat in silence. but i'm not your child to ruin. well uncle gene, matt went to penn state. guess what aunt mary, danielle went to princeton. and you want to treat me like the one hopeless romantic? i just toured more than ten colleges and expressed so much interest in them and you tell me, almost blatantly, that i may not get to go to them? no. 
watch me apply to whatever college i want.
watch me study what i want.
watch me do what i want.

but maybe you're right

maybe i won't get into the college i want.
maybe i will be stuck at that state university.
maybe i won't have a job offer straight out of college.

but never treat me like you somehow know how my life should go

[Legends]

[align=center][div style="0px; width:400px; height:auto; text-align: justify; font-size: 8pt; line-height:13px;"]session number 1 with skrink number 7 / a little bit on morra + her shrink josh

the psychologist was a tall pale englishman with a chin that forced all eyes to it not matter if you had just met him or had known him his whole life. he had a soft mop of boringly brown hair that needed to be shorter on the sides but wasn't. he pushed the top of the mop back almost lkiek abgs but not quite as overbering. he resembled matt smith, except the only difference, was that he wasn't matt smith. he was nice, like how one would imagine matt smith would be, but he wasn't matt smith. his name was josh radnor. yes, like the actor of ted mosby from the nine-season run of the hit tv show how i met your mother. except, this josh radner was Doctor Joshua Radnor Who Graduated From Columbia University With A Degree In Psychology. morra knew this was his name because that is how he was introduced to her via her mother and by Doctor Joshua Radnor Who Graduated From Columbia University With A Degree In Psychology himself.

morra wasn't impressed by his credentials, she'd met with two other shrinks this month before this one, one from harvard and one from princeton, so the flashing of a shiny framed diploma and the long introductory title were nothing she'd hadn't heard before. in fact, it was something she'd almost expect and if they didn't introduce themselves in such a pretentious way. morra wasn't impressed anymore, they really didn't seem to be making a difference.

morra sat in the big leather chair across from Doctor Joshua Radnor Who Graduated From Columbia University With A Degree In Psychology, who sat in an almost equally large leather chair. he held a clipboard and a princeton orange and black branded ink pen, which he clicked exactly twice, before writing something down. morra watched intently as the physiologist flipped through the pages he had been given about her. "so, morra, it says here you've seen some others before but lets start with just a question why-" "why do you think you can't sleep ?" she finished quickly, like the question had been scripted, "i don't know, because i'm not supposed to, because i can't, because i'm too busy with being anxious to even be tired." she answered again, the same answered she'd given to the others before this. she rubbed her eyes, trying to the sleepiness out of the, she hadn't realized how tired she was until it was brought up.

Doctor Joshua Radnor Who Graduated From Columbia University With A Degree In Psychology looked up at her, almost surprised that she knew the entire thing, including the answer. "okay. i see that you've been in this situation before." he started before morra interjected again, "you have no idea" she mumbled. the shrink smiled, as the feeling in the room shifted to something slightly more relaxed. morra still kept her guard up though, she wasn't completely ready to tell her life story to this guy. however, this was already a better experience than the other professionals she'd seen.

Doctor Joshua Radnor Who Graduated From Columbia University With A Degree In Psychology put his clipboard down and look straight at morra, who had decided to sit criss cross in her chair. "okay, so obviously you've seen other shrinks, and since you're here, it doesn't look like they've helped you. so usually have a routine set of questions to start things out, as you probably know, but i'm going to skip that. let's just focus on something else, tell me about your week: how'd it go, what you did, and so on." morra hadn't been asked something so simple in a long time. every other psychologist tried to target her problems directly, but Doctor Joshua Radnor Who Graduated From Columbia University With A Degree In Psychology was trying something different. "really? like just my week?" she asked, a little caught off guard with the casual conversation. "yep. just your week, talk about whatever you like."

morra thought for a bit, then started, "okay, well, this week basically sucked. i made two bad grades on my tests and got yelled at for falling asleep in math. my closest friend moved away two months ago and hasn't talked to me at all, also my mom thinks that i just resisted all the others before you when really they sucked and made me feel like a freak." she started, and morra could feel some of the weights in her stomach lifting slightly. he wasn't judging her, well, she hadn't said anything really judge worthy quite yet, but he didn't move at all. he didn't touch his clipboard or anything. morra continued and went into detail of her lack of focus in math and how annoying the people at school are. she talked about her friend lisa moving away and not saying a single word to her. morra described her mother's antics and how the past shrinks always were doing it because morra seemed 'unsolvable' and just how frustrating being branded as that was. morra was careful not to give anything out that she wouldn't tell to a good friend because some things were meant to stay secret.

as she kept explaining, unknown to her, the grip on her mind by porcelain was loosening. her insomnia was seeping away and she told her week in stories to Doctor Joshua Radnor Who Graduated From Columbia University With A Degree In Psychology. the phone next to the psychologist's chair made a cricket noise, signaling that time was up. it had been an hour and a half (a longer than normal session but morra's mother had paid extra for a longer first introduction). morra was slowly beginning to feel the effects of her insomnia's disappearance. "well, that's time. now that we've had a full session, may i ask you one thing ?" he said, calmly, "sure" replied morra, fighting a yawn, her vision blurring for a second as she rose from the chair, ready to leave. "how many hours have you been awake?"

morra had to think, and that was hard to do. she grabbed the handle of the door, trying to steady herself. her vision was blurring constantly and her eyelids felt like they were made of cement. she tried to focus on the question, whilst trying to hide the fact that she was about to fall over. "forty-three" she replied, and as she opened the door, morra felt her legs fall out from under her, and her vision went black.

[crows]

honestly morra and evan need to hang out and not sleep together

[Legends]

i agree
those who suffer from demons together
either end up dying or never getting any sleep together

[woodsy]

psa: legends is lovely and relatable and here's a quote:

"i always do whatever the hell i want, none of us are going to be here in a 100 yrs."
- angela duckworth

http://www.marieclaire.com/career-advice...o-founder/
there's a really good issue of marieclaire out that's about women who didn't do what their parents or anyone else wanted them to do and most of them ended up as ceos

but even then, who needs to be a ceo? some people are perfectly happy traveling the world and doing freelance, but whatever your dreams are, they're yours to decide and yours only

i want to go to columbia, yee boi
ily morra

[Legends]

legit woodsy one of the one's i loved looking at was barnard
which is across the street from columbia
like we looked around the columbia quad for fun because it was right next to barnard
legit

and thank you so much for the reassurance, like it's incredibly frustrating when they make me feel invalid