le chaos. | another marsy dump.

[shizuknya]

when ur parent is so fucking talented

[marsy]

the five moods i have constantly simultaneously

"bitch excuse me"
"did i forget something.. huh"
"god i hate myself what am i doing with my life"
"i'm so tired rn but it's ok"
"SAH DOOD"

[marsy]

when you feel the urge to make yet another post about how much you love everyone and how amazing they are and that they deserve all the good and yada yada but you resist bc you'd just be repeating yourself and it's probs annoying

[s]see what i did there,,,, i still made a post saying i love ya'll and ya'll are amazing and deserve all the good because it's true and i don't fucking care if i'm repeating myself lmao i don't care anymore you guys are too amazin bye

[shizuknya]

that's gay
love u too<333

[marsy]

well no shit sherlock i'm fuckin gay tf
jk i'm a pan lol
but gay
love u b <333

[marsy]

[spoiler=rant, read if you want its kinda funny tbh bc im so salty]this isn't directed at anyone bc i've never experienced this myself (i don't think i have anyway...) but anyway, something i HATE is when you say you hate yourself or some shit and give reasons why you don't like yourself and then people are like "no!! you're amazing!! you're beautiful and great!!" and then you're like "fuck yea i am fucking great, i am amazing, i feel awesome" and then those same people are like "ew... arrogant much" LIKE BITCH STFU AND SIT THE FUCK DOWN GO SUCK A ROTTEN EGG also just when people say that in general like BRUH I'M JUST BEIN CONFIDENT THERE'S A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN CONFIDENCE AND ARROGANCE GTFO LMAO this is why so many people are AFRAID to even be the LEAST BIT confident because these assholes are like "ARROGANT EW YOU'RE HORRIBLE" so when we're complimented we gotta be like "eeeehh" and shut up otherwise we'll be criticized on our confidence and be called arrogant fucks and like,, difference
confidence: aw thanks man, it is pretty cool huh? (or like 'yea man, i'm proud of it!!')
arrogance: ha i know it is bye (or smth like 'it's too good for u')

i'm not sorry for posting this rant bc i've seen this happen and it riles me up ok i hate seeing people be so discouraged to the point their self-esteem hits the negatives

also wow when someone says they want to do something and they're made fun of for it like "i want to work out" and someone scoffs at them like "yea that'd be a funny sight" or "you?? working out?? lol no way you lazy potato" i'm exaggerating a bit on the last one but STILL it kills me inside bc it discourages people sm from the things they want to do and they end up not doing it bc those assholes and then the assholes are like "dude wtf aren't you doing this" like BITCH get out there's the door LEAVE (now i HAVE experienced this plenty of times)

[marsy]

also there's a kind of arrogance that i think is okay like,,, when it's jokingly but also smth like "lol with this intro we'd bring in all the viewers" like it's not gonna hurt anyone's feelings or effect anyone negatively or whatever y'know it's kind of an upper tier of confidence y'know

[marsy]

i should make a blog where i post these rants

and just watch some people fly in and hate and talk shit

that'd be Fun

[marsy]

i'm feeling good right now okay

i'm in a "i don't give a single flying fuck" mood  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
as in i don't care what people think and i don't care if they hate etc
not "i don't care about you or anything" bc i do care a lot
just not what people think of me because everyone has their own opinion and they can think whatever they want about me it's whatever, if i'm annoying i'm sorry this is just how i am  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

i'm passive aggressive and a hypocrite oops sorry bout that

[marsy]

anyway back to making codes and crying over krys & jemkrys & friends
bc all this ranting on here needs to Stop probably
it's probably making people uncomfortable i'm sorry babes (':
this is why i need to make a blog lmao