05-28-2017, 03:49 AM
[align=center][div style="width: 450px;; text-align: justify"][size=9pt]His somewhat calm expression immediately dropped a little as the other had a rather familiar smirk. He had a frown now, his eye now completely trained on the other for movements. It was the sort of smirk someone made when they thought they were better then everyone else. It was the sort of way Leonidas always portrayed himself, and he hated those who acted that way. It was stupidly egotistical and arrogant.
Circusclown had no intents to make others afraid of him - he was naturally always ready to fight someone. Life had done it's toll on him, and he wasn't ready to let anyone ever harm him again. Since Leonidas tortured him, Circusclown hasn't been able to make physical contact with someone without hesitating. He hasn't been able to love someone without feeling fear. He hasn't been able to live without tiptoeing around as if he was constantly avoiding something ready to fight anything that came too close. He had been like that for ages. He had finally snapped out of that feeling months after joining The Exiles, but even then he never truly got better.
Leonidas destroyed Circusclown. He destroyed any sort of steps to healing after the other tortured him. Circusclown changed, he didn't want to be a bad person anymore, he wanted to believe he could do something good for once. Yet, it was as if he had been punished for it. Thinking back to it, the Shadowhunter believed the two of them had a terrible relationship. It was not healthy in any way, come to think of it. They were constantly cheating on each other, constantly doing things behind the others back, constantly harming each other. Circusclown had thought it was normal though - throughout his life, that had been normalized for him. He had severe commitment issues, and they would never go away.
The other didn't even have to finish his name, before Circusclown knew who it was. The voice. That damn voice, it was all he needed to know. The second the voice hit his ears, his frown turned into a snarl, though there was a clear sign of fear in his dull blue eye as it widened. His claws unsheathed digging into the ground, and he'd stare as the other introduced himself. The other clearly wanted a reaction, and he hated it. He hated how he was giving Leonidas exactly what he wanted, but he couldn't help it. A powerful gust of wind would blow Circusclown's fur backward, barely giving any warning as he attempted to use his air elementals to take the air out of Leonidas's body and trying to prevent any from going in. He could barely keep himself standing, between the hunger coursing through his body and the shaking that he was experiencing from seeing Leonidas. This was reality. The other could, and would torture him again, if he got too close.
[spoiler=tags]
general ; "you've got a second chance"
★ circusclown disharmony | nicknames are circ and clown, former names are breadstick, uglyclown and clown | male [ he/him ]
two years four months physically and mentally | born november 13th, 2014 | ages realtime
shadowclan leader | former exiles leader and blizzardclan head combatant (feralfront)
entropy x leila | generation 2 | head of disharmony family | only loyal to family
demisexual | panromantic | no crush | afraid of being in a relationship
other facts ★
★ suffers from ptsd and depression, struggling with alcohol addiction
★ always looks tense and ready to fight
★ can be very irritable one second and then completely switch the next
★ can cook but dislikes doing so. loves writing and reading.
★ has a very rough and raspy voice. even when he is being gentle he sounds somewhat aggressive.
★ if he yells, he is very loud for a domestic feline.
★ looks very sickly because of famine
appearance ; "you could go home"
★ domestic cat | has resting bitch face | has a few teeth missing
he is a light brown feline who has a lot of fluffy fur that's often tangled up covered in dirt and dust, and it also feels very greasy and gross. his head is lacking of the light brown color, and is completely white. he has a scar on the left side of his face, which has a stitched up glasgow smile meeting up with the scar. the other side of his face shares a glasgow smile, which is also stitched together. if someone examined it closer, they'd find the scar was infected though he refuses to let anyone touch it to take out the stitches. he has only one eye left which is the right one, and it is a dull blue almost lifeless color that seems to be bagging all the time due to exhaustion. the side of his face which has no eye has stitches on the top of his eye, and his eyelid is often closed over the eye socket that's still there, though it can be open if he is surprised or scared by something. [ reference ].
personality ; "escape it all"
★ true neutral | being evil sucks | the atoner
 family-oriented, protective, cautious, calm, friendly, unpredictable, extroverted, reasonable, irresponsible, secretive
circusclown loves the aspect of family, and sees family as valuable and is desperate to keep them safe. he has a tendency to be very protective, though he tries to be reasonable when he feels something is unsafe. he can be far too cautious, and never seems to let down his guard. while circusclown seems rather laidback, that does not mean someone should assume he will be calm if they happen to anger him. it is hard to anger him, but even when he is angry he is reasonable and under a mask of fury is still managing to keep himself under control, even if it does not seem so. he is however very irresponsible, at least with his own life. he seems to be careless about his own health, never caring when he does something foolish that could bring him pain. he rarely opens up to people unless he sees it as beneficial to do so, and if you betray such trust he will remain closed off from you. he's fairly friendly, and though his neutral expression doesn't always look so nice he is more likely to be smiling or grinning, and he is quite a jokester always liking to joke about and finds himself to be extremely comical even when nobody does. deep down, he remains unhappy, though that doesn't mean he's incapable of laughing or being happy. though, often when he has nothing to laugh at or smile about he has a feeling of discontent hidden in his heart.
interaction ; "it's just irrelevant"
★ hard physically | hard mentally | attack in #c68ee2
doesn't like unnecessary death or etc | will start fights | will fight back | will flee if family is protected | will not surrender
might capture if family is threatened | might torture if family is threatened | will kill if family is threatened
★ hunger is affecting his ability to fight well
trained to fight | has little to no medical knowledge
air elementals  discovered  can somewhat control
conjuration  discovered  can somewhat control
teleportation  discovered  can fully control
super strength  discovered  can fully control
ALL OPINIONS ARE IC[/spoiler]
Circusclown had no intents to make others afraid of him - he was naturally always ready to fight someone. Life had done it's toll on him, and he wasn't ready to let anyone ever harm him again. Since Leonidas tortured him, Circusclown hasn't been able to make physical contact with someone without hesitating. He hasn't been able to love someone without feeling fear. He hasn't been able to live without tiptoeing around as if he was constantly avoiding something ready to fight anything that came too close. He had been like that for ages. He had finally snapped out of that feeling months after joining The Exiles, but even then he never truly got better.
Leonidas destroyed Circusclown. He destroyed any sort of steps to healing after the other tortured him. Circusclown changed, he didn't want to be a bad person anymore, he wanted to believe he could do something good for once. Yet, it was as if he had been punished for it. Thinking back to it, the Shadowhunter believed the two of them had a terrible relationship. It was not healthy in any way, come to think of it. They were constantly cheating on each other, constantly doing things behind the others back, constantly harming each other. Circusclown had thought it was normal though - throughout his life, that had been normalized for him. He had severe commitment issues, and they would never go away.
The other didn't even have to finish his name, before Circusclown knew who it was. The voice. That damn voice, it was all he needed to know. The second the voice hit his ears, his frown turned into a snarl, though there was a clear sign of fear in his dull blue eye as it widened. His claws unsheathed digging into the ground, and he'd stare as the other introduced himself. The other clearly wanted a reaction, and he hated it. He hated how he was giving Leonidas exactly what he wanted, but he couldn't help it. A powerful gust of wind would blow Circusclown's fur backward, barely giving any warning as he attempted to use his air elementals to take the air out of Leonidas's body and trying to prevent any from going in. He could barely keep himself standing, between the hunger coursing through his body and the shaking that he was experiencing from seeing Leonidas. This was reality. The other could, and would torture him again, if he got too close.
[spoiler=tags]
general ; "you've got a second chance"
★ circusclown disharmony | nicknames are circ and clown, former names are breadstick, uglyclown and clown | male [ he/him ]
two years four months physically and mentally | born november 13th, 2014 | ages realtime
shadowclan leader | former exiles leader and blizzardclan head combatant (feralfront)
entropy x leila | generation 2 | head of disharmony family | only loyal to family
demisexual | panromantic | no crush | afraid of being in a relationship
other facts ★
★ suffers from ptsd and depression, struggling with alcohol addiction
★ always looks tense and ready to fight
★ can be very irritable one second and then completely switch the next
★ can cook but dislikes doing so. loves writing and reading.
★ has a very rough and raspy voice. even when he is being gentle he sounds somewhat aggressive.
★ if he yells, he is very loud for a domestic feline.
★ looks very sickly because of famine
appearance ; "you could go home"
★ domestic cat | has resting bitch face | has a few teeth missing
he is a light brown feline who has a lot of fluffy fur that's often tangled up covered in dirt and dust, and it also feels very greasy and gross. his head is lacking of the light brown color, and is completely white. he has a scar on the left side of his face, which has a stitched up glasgow smile meeting up with the scar. the other side of his face shares a glasgow smile, which is also stitched together. if someone examined it closer, they'd find the scar was infected though he refuses to let anyone touch it to take out the stitches. he has only one eye left which is the right one, and it is a dull blue almost lifeless color that seems to be bagging all the time due to exhaustion. the side of his face which has no eye has stitches on the top of his eye, and his eyelid is often closed over the eye socket that's still there, though it can be open if he is surprised or scared by something. [ reference ].
personality ; "escape it all"
★ true neutral | being evil sucks | the atoner
 family-oriented, protective, cautious, calm, friendly, unpredictable, extroverted, reasonable, irresponsible, secretive
circusclown loves the aspect of family, and sees family as valuable and is desperate to keep them safe. he has a tendency to be very protective, though he tries to be reasonable when he feels something is unsafe. he can be far too cautious, and never seems to let down his guard. while circusclown seems rather laidback, that does not mean someone should assume he will be calm if they happen to anger him. it is hard to anger him, but even when he is angry he is reasonable and under a mask of fury is still managing to keep himself under control, even if it does not seem so. he is however very irresponsible, at least with his own life. he seems to be careless about his own health, never caring when he does something foolish that could bring him pain. he rarely opens up to people unless he sees it as beneficial to do so, and if you betray such trust he will remain closed off from you. he's fairly friendly, and though his neutral expression doesn't always look so nice he is more likely to be smiling or grinning, and he is quite a jokester always liking to joke about and finds himself to be extremely comical even when nobody does. deep down, he remains unhappy, though that doesn't mean he's incapable of laughing or being happy. though, often when he has nothing to laugh at or smile about he has a feeling of discontent hidden in his heart.
interaction ; "it's just irrelevant"
★ hard physically | hard mentally | attack in #c68ee2
doesn't like unnecessary death or etc | will start fights | will fight back | will flee if family is protected | will not surrender
might capture if family is threatened | might torture if family is threatened | will kill if family is threatened
★ hunger is affecting his ability to fight well
trained to fight | has little to no medical knowledge
air elementals  discovered  can somewhat control
conjuration  discovered  can somewhat control
teleportation  discovered  can fully control
super strength  discovered  can fully control
ALL OPINIONS ARE IC[/spoiler]
[align=center]
oh who would ever want to be king