03-16-2021, 10:37 PM
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— ”i’m sorry.” the words ricocheted through his head, remembering the surprise he had felt when hearing vernon’s quiet utter. two simple words, spoken so quietly, and yet they carried the weight of the world once spoken. who wouldn’t be taken aback to hear those words from green, especially after he had done nothing wrong? though the more he thought about the conversation, about the other man admitting why he carried such guilt on his shoulders… that he blamed himself in a way for tamara dying the way she did. the district hadn’t had the resources to keep her around longer, and that that had been green’s fault?
he felt blinded to the grief that vernon experienced. he had been so focused on his own grief, the own weight that he carried, that he hadn’t taken notice of the way that vern suffered for multiple reasons. the revelation that green had been carrying this self-doubt, that self-blame on his shoulders all alone, unable to speak about it for so long... it was crushing to think that he ever had to experience such emotional turmoil on his own, after mickey promised himself he’d never let the man suffer alone. not after all he had endured by himself.
after all the times green dragged mickey out of the house, perhaps it was time that mickey returned the favor.
he couldn’t remember the last time his chest felt so light than when he had taken green’s hand and pulled him towards the private beach. bending down to pick up one of the blankets he’d brought along, he gazed at green’s silhouette against the moonlight. a soft smile threatened to form; the most he must’ve smiled in weeks.
stepping closer, he lifted the blanket in his arms and draped it over the other man’s shoulders. “it gets cold out here, yeah?” hands lingering on the man’s shoulders, he waited before he stepped to stand at his side. bringing his gaze up towards the dark night sky, he glanced around absently. “there.” pointing a finger up towards the sky, he pointed out the three stars. “found orion’s belt before you could.” one of green’s favorites, he remembered from their first date. looking throughout the sky, he hummed thoughtfully. “what other constellations are there?” he could hear the other man gush about them for hours.
[spoiler=tags ― updated 02/25.][size=8pt]◜BASICS ┊ BURIED MY HEART IN A HOLE IN THE GROUND ◞
‣ ❝ mickey serge ❞ | mick, serge | male [he/him] .
‣ 33 years old . | may fifth; taurus.
‣ currently the prodigy of northstar district
‣ currently co-founder/co-head of st. peter’s clinic in the district alongside lucerne nouvel.
◜PERSONALITY: ISFJ ┊ THERE WAS NO ONE AROUND ◞
‣ aloof . ambitious . blunt . distant . driven . hard-working . passionate . humble . reserved . introverted . intelligent . level-headed . trustworthy . honest . caring . quiet . gentlemanly . kind . pessimistic . unreadable . stoic . withdrawn .
↳ lover of tea and cigarettes
↳ struggles with ptsd symptoms
↳ recovering alcoholic (over a year sober)
↳ currently showing signs/symptoms of depression following his mother's death
◜ APPEARANCE ┊ BURIED MY GUILT IN A PIT IN THE SOUND ◞
‣ six foot one & one hundred and sixty seven pounds ; reference .
↳ dark brown hair kept very short on the sides and neat
↳ skinny with slight muscle tone
↳ deep blue eyes , often stoic , emotionless
◜ FAMILY ┊ I TRIED AND I TRIED AND I WAS NEVER THE SAME ◞
‣ david serge x tamara serge | father deceased . mother recently deceased
‣ only child
‣ currently claims guardianship of arlo - doesn’t consider himself arlo’s parent
◜ RELATIONSHIPS ┊ I'LL BREAK UP THE CHAIN ◞
‣ homosexual ; monogamous | a hopeless romantic .
‣ ex-fiance to elinor rose
↳ engagement fell apart after coming to terms with mick’s sexuality .
‣ ex-lover to edmund stirling-moray
↳ the first guy he had ever been with . helped him become comfortable with his sexuality before coming out of the closet.
‣ current boyfriend of vernon green
↳ currently live together . inseparable .
◜ INTERACTIONS ┊ I'M FOREVER CHANGED ◞
‣ [ 9/10 ] physically | [ 8/10 ] psychologically .
↳ difficulty w/ guns [ very difficult ] | difficulty w/ melees [ difficult ] | difficulty w/ hand-to-hand [ difficult ]
‣ [member=1512]elysian.[/member] | dm for any major plots .
‣ friendly or nonviolent actions may be powerplayed .[/size][/spoiler]
— ”i’m sorry.” the words ricocheted through his head, remembering the surprise he had felt when hearing vernon’s quiet utter. two simple words, spoken so quietly, and yet they carried the weight of the world once spoken. who wouldn’t be taken aback to hear those words from green, especially after he had done nothing wrong? though the more he thought about the conversation, about the other man admitting why he carried such guilt on his shoulders… that he blamed himself in a way for tamara dying the way she did. the district hadn’t had the resources to keep her around longer, and that that had been green’s fault?
he felt blinded to the grief that vernon experienced. he had been so focused on his own grief, the own weight that he carried, that he hadn’t taken notice of the way that vern suffered for multiple reasons. the revelation that green had been carrying this self-doubt, that self-blame on his shoulders all alone, unable to speak about it for so long... it was crushing to think that he ever had to experience such emotional turmoil on his own, after mickey promised himself he’d never let the man suffer alone. not after all he had endured by himself.
after all the times green dragged mickey out of the house, perhaps it was time that mickey returned the favor.
he couldn’t remember the last time his chest felt so light than when he had taken green’s hand and pulled him towards the private beach. bending down to pick up one of the blankets he’d brought along, he gazed at green’s silhouette against the moonlight. a soft smile threatened to form; the most he must’ve smiled in weeks.
stepping closer, he lifted the blanket in his arms and draped it over the other man’s shoulders. “it gets cold out here, yeah?” hands lingering on the man’s shoulders, he waited before he stepped to stand at his side. bringing his gaze up towards the dark night sky, he glanced around absently. “there.” pointing a finger up towards the sky, he pointed out the three stars. “found orion’s belt before you could.” one of green’s favorites, he remembered from their first date. looking throughout the sky, he hummed thoughtfully. “what other constellations are there?” he could hear the other man gush about them for hours.
[spoiler=tags ― updated 02/25.][size=8pt]◜BASICS ┊ BURIED MY HEART IN A HOLE IN THE GROUND ◞
‣ ❝ mickey serge ❞ | mick, serge | male [he/him] .
‣ 33 years old . | may fifth; taurus.
‣ currently the prodigy of northstar district
‣ currently co-founder/co-head of st. peter’s clinic in the district alongside lucerne nouvel.
◜PERSONALITY: ISFJ ┊ THERE WAS NO ONE AROUND ◞
‣ aloof . ambitious . blunt . distant . driven . hard-working . passionate . humble . reserved . introverted . intelligent . level-headed . trustworthy . honest . caring . quiet . gentlemanly . kind . pessimistic . unreadable . stoic . withdrawn .
↳ lover of tea and cigarettes
↳ struggles with ptsd symptoms
↳ recovering alcoholic (over a year sober)
↳ currently showing signs/symptoms of depression following his mother's death
◜ APPEARANCE ┊ BURIED MY GUILT IN A PIT IN THE SOUND ◞
‣ six foot one & one hundred and sixty seven pounds ; reference .
↳ dark brown hair kept very short on the sides and neat
↳ skinny with slight muscle tone
↳ deep blue eyes , often stoic , emotionless
◜ FAMILY ┊ I TRIED AND I TRIED AND I WAS NEVER THE SAME ◞
‣ david serge x tamara serge | father deceased . mother recently deceased
‣ only child
‣ currently claims guardianship of arlo - doesn’t consider himself arlo’s parent
◜ RELATIONSHIPS ┊ I'LL BREAK UP THE CHAIN ◞
‣ homosexual ; monogamous | a hopeless romantic .
‣ ex-fiance to elinor rose
↳ engagement fell apart after coming to terms with mick’s sexuality .
‣ ex-lover to edmund stirling-moray
↳ the first guy he had ever been with . helped him become comfortable with his sexuality before coming out of the closet.
‣ current boyfriend of vernon green
↳ currently live together . inseparable .
◜ INTERACTIONS ┊ I'M FOREVER CHANGED ◞
‣ [ 9/10 ] physically | [ 8/10 ] psychologically .
↳ difficulty w/ guns [ very difficult ] | difficulty w/ melees [ difficult ] | difficulty w/ hand-to-hand [ difficult ]
‣ [member=1512]elysian.[/member] | dm for any major plots .
‣ friendly or nonviolent actions may be powerplayed .[/size][/spoiler]