03-28-2020, 01:55 AM
[align=center][div style="width: 450px; text-align: justify; font-family: times new roman; font-size: 9pt; line-height: 1.4; color: #333; word-spacing: 1px;"]beau wasn't sure if he should have gone with them . his heart pounded and his head ached and swirled with apprehension . the guilt building inside of him made him nauseous . he shouldn't have come here . he should have ran the other way .
i'm sorry -- two words made his breathing hitch , his eyes unfocused and hands starting to shake . he couldn't stop the thoughts that bombarded him and made his heart race . it was his fault -- his little brother was dead and it was his fault .
while everyone else hurried to the youngest van doren's bedside , he trailed behind them , the last in the room . he stayed back , wringing his hands together , trying to stop them from shaking . tears formed in his eyes , but he quickly wiped them away . he couldn't look at him , not until he heard quiet , muffled laughter .
beau's head shot up , brows furrowed , and all the guilt washed away and was replaced with annoyance , anger , and relief . he just stared at him , an incredulous look on his face and fists clenched at his sides . the little jab barely registered , but beau couldn't help but scoff and roll his eyes . he crossed his arms over his chest and shook his head as cass chastised him .
" richard sebastian van doren , that was not funny ! " cass' furrowed brows quickly softened into a relieved smile and a head shake . " you are such a little shit , you know that ? " cass leaned against the wall next to the bed with an extra gentle pat to seb's shoulder .
beau opened his mouth to say something , but was interrupted by eddie walking in . he rubbed the back of his neck and scoffed at the young man's comment . he hesitated more , afterwards , to push himself up from the wall . the guilt was slowly starting to creep back , but he pushed it down the best he could and smiled , small but affectionate . after taking a steadying breath , he walked over to seb's side and ruffled the kid's hair .
" you got us real good , kid . m'glad you're okay . " the gentleness and relief in his voice surprised even him , a little bit . his smile turned into a narrow - eyed smirk .
" and fuck you , my jokes are great . "
i'm sorry -- two words made his breathing hitch , his eyes unfocused and hands starting to shake . he couldn't stop the thoughts that bombarded him and made his heart race . it was his fault -- his little brother was dead and it was his fault .
while everyone else hurried to the youngest van doren's bedside , he trailed behind them , the last in the room . he stayed back , wringing his hands together , trying to stop them from shaking . tears formed in his eyes , but he quickly wiped them away . he couldn't look at him , not until he heard quiet , muffled laughter .
beau's head shot up , brows furrowed , and all the guilt washed away and was replaced with annoyance , anger , and relief . he just stared at him , an incredulous look on his face and fists clenched at his sides . the little jab barely registered , but beau couldn't help but scoff and roll his eyes . he crossed his arms over his chest and shook his head as cass chastised him .
" richard sebastian van doren , that was not funny ! " cass' furrowed brows quickly softened into a relieved smile and a head shake . " you are such a little shit , you know that ? " cass leaned against the wall next to the bed with an extra gentle pat to seb's shoulder .
beau opened his mouth to say something , but was interrupted by eddie walking in . he rubbed the back of his neck and scoffed at the young man's comment . he hesitated more , afterwards , to push himself up from the wall . the guilt was slowly starting to creep back , but he pushed it down the best he could and smiled , small but affectionate . after taking a steadying breath , he walked over to seb's side and ruffled the kid's hair .
" you got us real good , kid . m'glad you're okay . " the gentleness and relief in his voice surprised even him , a little bit . his smile turned into a narrow - eyed smirk .
" and fuck you , my jokes are great . "