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emery hawthorne had never been the fighting type. she was the one who was on the sidelines as her cousins would start arguing, quick to try and be the one to break it up as long as it hadn't ascended into something uncontrollable. she favored peace and harmony, wanting everyone to at least try and get along. in her eyes fighting was a waste of time, there was always a better way to handle things than inflicting pain on someone else. even when her parents had gone into one of their spirals and beat up on her, she never once raised her hand towards them to defend herself. she would just curl up as much as she could and try to talk them down to get them to stop.
as she grew older, the distaste she had for violence and fighting turned into more of a fearful subject for her, bringing her back to the house she grew up in. at the mentions of brendan teaching some sparring to those interested, emery was set to just avoid that room for the duration of it, planning on going out to see some of the views for inspiration. then she heard the term self defense get thrown in with it and she stopped to think about it for a moment longer.
eventually, she had decided she would at least and just go observe them, figuring that if she paid attention close enough that she could pick up a thing or two that could benefit her in the future. she lingered outside the door for a second, her hand hovering over the doorknob as she once again debated over it. finally, she quietly slipped inside the room and stayed close to the back wall. she already began to feel her heart start beating quicker even though nothing really had started yet, the idea alone started to get to her, though. emery took a deep breath, eyes shifting around the room, fingers nervously tapping on her legs.
[spoiler= my dear sweet nothing updated┊15/1]◜BASICS ┊ IT LOOKS LIKE EMPATHY◞
&. ❝ emery lennon hawthorne ❞ | though she normally just goes by emery, it isn't rare for her to go by em/emmy or by her middle name, lennon/lenny | afab cis female [ she/her pronouns ] .
&. 23 years old . | february twenty-fifth ; picses .
&. member of flintlock lodge .
◜PERSONALITY ┊ TO UNDERSTAND ALL SIDES◞
&. very hardworking and dedicated when she puts her mind to it, but when shes relaxed and doesn't have anything to do her mind tends to wander and she daydreams a lot. also very creative and imaginative, jumpy and clever. very warm and caring, will write this into a better thing eventually
◜ APPEARANCE ┊ BUT I'M JUST TRYING TO FIND MYSELF ◞
&. 5'5 & 118 pounds ; reference
↳ dark brown hair that gets natural caramel and blonde highlights in the summer ; almost reaches to the middle of her back ; pretty soft for the circumstances everyone is facing ; has a natural wave to it
↳ green eyes that can have hints of blue and brown in different lighting ; almond shaped
↳ light complexion ; can sometimes tan in the summer but it's not very likely
↳ tw for brief mention of past parental abuse has some scars on her back from her parents hitting her
↳ has an australian accent
↳ alycia debnam-carey faceclaim and voiceclaim
◜INTERACTIONS ┊ THROUGH SOMEONE ELSE'S EYES ◞
&. [ 7/10 ] physically | [ 7/10 ] psychologically .
↳ difficulty w/ guns [ medium ] | difficulty w/ melees [ high ] | difficulty w/ hand-to-hand [ low ]
↳ combat information will go here eventually .
&. attack in bold #7A0929 | [member=122]finny.[/member] | PM for any major plots .
&. friendly or nonviolent actions may be powerplayed .
◜INVENTORY ┊ SO SHOW ME WHAT TO DO◞
&. [ 2 ] weapons | [ 0 ] armor pieces | [ 2 ] consumables | [ 3 ] aid items | [ ? ] misc .
↳ for weapons, emery has a butterfly knife and a pocket knife, she knows they aren't the best weapons to defend herself but they're all she had for the longest time . she is very skilled with butterfly knives and can flip it around (or twirl it, whatever the term is) with ease. for consumables she has a canteen that she always fills up with water whenever she comes across a safe water source as well as a small back of almonds she found. she's not sure on the number of misc. things she has, she has one almost used up sketchbook as well as two empty ones, various different pencils and paints, some pictures of her and eileen as well as some books and other little things.
◜RELATIONSHIPS ┊ TO RESTART THIS HEART OF MINE◞
&. garrett (unknown) x regina (unknown) | she also had an older sister named eileen (deceased) . her parents were very cold and distant, but she had bonded with her older sister to the point where eileen was more of a parental figure for her . she had assumed eileen had ran off and left her to deal with their parents, but she had actually passed away and emery never found out .
&. pansexual, panromantic ; mongamous ; slight preference for more masculine people but in the end she really doesn't care . | just a bit of info on how they feel about relationships .
&. single ; no crush ; no possible crush
↳ not actively looking but she's,,,, not not looking. in her mind, whatever happens, happens.[/spoiler]
emery hawthorne had never been the fighting type. she was the one who was on the sidelines as her cousins would start arguing, quick to try and be the one to break it up as long as it hadn't ascended into something uncontrollable. she favored peace and harmony, wanting everyone to at least try and get along. in her eyes fighting was a waste of time, there was always a better way to handle things than inflicting pain on someone else. even when her parents had gone into one of their spirals and beat up on her, she never once raised her hand towards them to defend herself. she would just curl up as much as she could and try to talk them down to get them to stop.
as she grew older, the distaste she had for violence and fighting turned into more of a fearful subject for her, bringing her back to the house she grew up in. at the mentions of brendan teaching some sparring to those interested, emery was set to just avoid that room for the duration of it, planning on going out to see some of the views for inspiration. then she heard the term self defense get thrown in with it and she stopped to think about it for a moment longer.
eventually, she had decided she would at least and just go observe them, figuring that if she paid attention close enough that she could pick up a thing or two that could benefit her in the future. she lingered outside the door for a second, her hand hovering over the doorknob as she once again debated over it. finally, she quietly slipped inside the room and stayed close to the back wall. she already began to feel her heart start beating quicker even though nothing really had started yet, the idea alone started to get to her, though. emery took a deep breath, eyes shifting around the room, fingers nervously tapping on her legs.
[spoiler= my dear sweet nothing updated┊15/1]◜BASICS ┊ IT LOOKS LIKE EMPATHY◞
&. ❝ emery lennon hawthorne ❞ | though she normally just goes by emery, it isn't rare for her to go by em/emmy or by her middle name, lennon/lenny | afab cis female [ she/her pronouns ] .
&. 23 years old . | february twenty-fifth ; picses .
&. member of flintlock lodge .
◜PERSONALITY ┊ TO UNDERSTAND ALL SIDES◞
&. very hardworking and dedicated when she puts her mind to it, but when shes relaxed and doesn't have anything to do her mind tends to wander and she daydreams a lot. also very creative and imaginative, jumpy and clever. very warm and caring, will write this into a better thing eventually
◜ APPEARANCE ┊ BUT I'M JUST TRYING TO FIND MYSELF ◞
&. 5'5 & 118 pounds ; reference
↳ dark brown hair that gets natural caramel and blonde highlights in the summer ; almost reaches to the middle of her back ; pretty soft for the circumstances everyone is facing ; has a natural wave to it
↳ green eyes that can have hints of blue and brown in different lighting ; almond shaped
↳ light complexion ; can sometimes tan in the summer but it's not very likely
↳ tw for brief mention of past parental abuse has some scars on her back from her parents hitting her
↳ has an australian accent
↳ alycia debnam-carey faceclaim and voiceclaim
◜INTERACTIONS ┊ THROUGH SOMEONE ELSE'S EYES ◞
&. [ 7/10 ] physically | [ 7/10 ] psychologically .
↳ difficulty w/ guns [ medium ] | difficulty w/ melees [ high ] | difficulty w/ hand-to-hand [ low ]
↳ combat information will go here eventually .
&. attack in bold #7A0929 | [member=122]finny.[/member] | PM for any major plots .
&. friendly or nonviolent actions may be powerplayed .
◜INVENTORY ┊ SO SHOW ME WHAT TO DO◞
&. [ 2 ] weapons | [ 0 ] armor pieces | [ 2 ] consumables | [ 3 ] aid items | [ ? ] misc .
↳ for weapons, emery has a butterfly knife and a pocket knife, she knows they aren't the best weapons to defend herself but they're all she had for the longest time . she is very skilled with butterfly knives and can flip it around (or twirl it, whatever the term is) with ease. for consumables she has a canteen that she always fills up with water whenever she comes across a safe water source as well as a small back of almonds she found. she's not sure on the number of misc. things she has, she has one almost used up sketchbook as well as two empty ones, various different pencils and paints, some pictures of her and eileen as well as some books and other little things.
◜RELATIONSHIPS ┊ TO RESTART THIS HEART OF MINE◞
&. garrett (unknown) x regina (unknown) | she also had an older sister named eileen (deceased) . her parents were very cold and distant, but she had bonded with her older sister to the point where eileen was more of a parental figure for her . she had assumed eileen had ran off and left her to deal with their parents, but she had actually passed away and emery never found out .
&. pansexual, panromantic ; mongamous ; slight preference for more masculine people but in the end she really doesn't care . | just a bit of info on how they feel about relationships .
&. single ; no crush ; no possible crush
↳ not actively looking but she's,,,, not not looking. in her mind, whatever happens, happens.[/spoiler]
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