JUST STANDING WAITING FOR THE PUNCHES
In that exact moment, Tomorrow could feel his heart drop to his feet. It'd been a soft day, a quiet day; he'd went out for a walk and trained some of the lodge's dogs, played with some of the puppies from a new litter - a lodge dog had them, not Claire just yet - and then retired back to the Lodge to curl up in the living room on the floor with his dogs sprawled out around him and a book in hand.
It was routine, and very nice. He'd been shooting glances at Hayley, Jackson and Hope the whole time; a soft smile forcing its way onto his face as they played with Hope, only slightly marred by the adoration clear in Jackson's eyes. Tomorrow choked his own confusing emotions down; he was glad Hayley had someone who loved her so much, she deserved it.
He looked back at his book, and then heard the words spilling from Jackson's mouth and froze. He stared at the pages, breathing in scarce, light gasps he hoped wasn't too noticeable. He felt paralyzed, only able to listen as he heard Jackson's proposal.
He could barely breath as he heard Hayley's answer. And he could only move slightly, to press his hands into Claire's fur as he tried to steady himself. He was happy for her, for them, he had to be. He wasn't jealous or sad or anything; he didn't have claim over Hayley, she could do whatever she wanted and besides her and Jackson had a kid together.
Didn't stop the fact his lungs felt like they were constricting and his heart was hammering in his chest. He managed to look up, only to see Jackson leaned forward kissing her, a ring on her finger. He pressed his feelings down, knowing he needed to say something and not continue to stew in his own mind.
"C-congratul- lations." Tomorrow's voice shook, in what he hoped seemed like a normal "oh tomorrow's just like that" way. He offered a smile, small and forced, and diverted his eyes down to the lump of dogs surrounding him.
It was routine, and very nice. He'd been shooting glances at Hayley, Jackson and Hope the whole time; a soft smile forcing its way onto his face as they played with Hope, only slightly marred by the adoration clear in Jackson's eyes. Tomorrow choked his own confusing emotions down; he was glad Hayley had someone who loved her so much, she deserved it.
He looked back at his book, and then heard the words spilling from Jackson's mouth and froze. He stared at the pages, breathing in scarce, light gasps he hoped wasn't too noticeable. He felt paralyzed, only able to listen as he heard Jackson's proposal.
He could barely breath as he heard Hayley's answer. And he could only move slightly, to press his hands into Claire's fur as he tried to steady himself. He was happy for her, for them, he had to be. He wasn't jealous or sad or anything; he didn't have claim over Hayley, she could do whatever she wanted and besides her and Jackson had a kid together.
Didn't stop the fact his lungs felt like they were constricting and his heart was hammering in his chest. He managed to look up, only to see Jackson leaned forward kissing her, a ring on her finger. He pressed his feelings down, knowing he needed to say something and not continue to stew in his own mind.
"C-congratul- lations." Tomorrow's voice shook, in what he hoped seemed like a normal "oh tomorrow's just like that" way. He offered a smile, small and forced, and diverted his eyes down to the lump of dogs surrounding him.
'cus it don't make a difference anyway
tags - 26yrs - 6'1 - he/him - representative of fl
tags - 26yrs - 6'1 - he/him - representative of fl
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