01-22-2019, 05:16 PM
LIFE UPDATE FOR TUESDAY, JANUARY 22ND, 2019
CONTENT : CONS , CRUSHES , ANXIETY , INJURIES , CRYING
NOTE : c told me if i need to get his mom's attention, just call her 'mom' so that's what i'm doing because she's better than my actual mom and also, his family is better than my actual family so they're pretty much mine now
CONTENT : CONS , CRUSHES , ANXIETY , INJURIES , CRYING
NOTE : c told me if i need to get his mom's attention, just call her 'mom' so that's what i'm doing because she's better than my actual mom and also, his family is better than my actual family so they're pretty much mine now
FRIDAY: went home with c on the bus. helped him clean while we waited for mom and m. turns out c and m are really similar- i love c so much but i do NOT need two of him. we styled my kiibo wig and packed for con. m slept in a recliner while c and i shared the couch.
oh, i forgot, m asked me at one point, "you know about homestuck?" and i answered, "unfortunately." and she said, "i'm so glad you said unfortunately."
SATURDAY: con! we woke up at 4:15 a.m. and left the house around 5:00 a.m. we picked up f and started the long, long ride to con. i took 2 dramamine and napped on m. turns out that was a bad idea- i'm so small, 2 dramamine is enough to make me dizzy and lightheaded. we stopped at a gas station for snacks and drinks- but i forgot my glasses in the car at first and had to ask strangers to direct me to the bathroom. i don't remember most of the ride up there, i think i napped a lot. i cosplayed kiibo at con and c said that i'm a really cute kiibo. while we were doing our makeup in the bathroom, i got compliments and gave them back. there were a few goths and a few super-pastels, and i loved seeing all the different fashions. f, c, and m all bought me stuff since i didn't have money. i got two pins, four stickers, two plush keychain thingies, two hairclips (one i gave to f), a rainbow necklace, and a big squishy shiba inu pillow (which c helped me name! google translate says 'bukimina' is japanese for squishy, so that's what we chose. buki for short). it started snowing around the middle of the day so we went outside to enjoy it. in the south, you don't get much snow. i got excited and started skipping and jumping around, but i was wearing three-inch platforms so i fell and twisted my ankle.
it doesn't hurt that bad anymore but man that was embarrassing. i also jumped up on the edge of a fountain at one point because i was excited and f and c both went 'no no no no no' and started trying to get me down because of the platforms. i'm the oldest in our group but i'm still kinda the baby i guess.
( i will add to this list as i remember ) i got pictures with the following cosplayers: hiyori iki, kofuku, sailor moon, hatsune miku, kokichi oma, rose quartz, amethyst
every time i passed the kofuku for the rest of con, i said "hey waifu" and when we were leaving i said "nice to see you #1 waifu" and blew a kiss lmao.
ALSO THERE WAS A VOCALOID CONCERT ! me, c, and f went (m spent a lot of con wandering alone or in the car with mom) and we had a blast tbh. f doesn't care much for japanese stuff but me and c are weeaboos. they played tokyo teddy bear, which i happen to know all the way through, and i think i may have impressed f a little. near the end of the concert, we went and stood in the back, where a couple of guys were encouraging everyone to dance. that was really fun! i managed to get my confidence up a little.
there was a random guy playing music on an accordion??
also i saw a couple of homestuck cosplayers,, eridan and sollux,, their cosplays were actually really good, as much as i try to avoid homestuck.
c said that f and i would make a cute couple, because we had spent the whole day holding hands and i napped on her more than anyone else that day. it was a little awkward.
because the snow melted quickly and refroze, and because mom was tired, we spent the night at a hotel. m shared a bed with mom. me, f, and c all shared a bed, though f rolled off the bed and chose to stay there. f was really tired and became an expert comedian. "why is the spine stealer my best support system? he always has my back." i'm honestly smiling just thinking about that one.
SUNDAY: woke up when m and f came in from breakfast. c and i slept another half hour, then went to get breakfast. i left before him and planned to take a nap, but i did f's hair instead, braiding it in a sort of elf-like style. we left the hotel about 10:30. there was a bit of a delay, and f ran back inside before mom came out because i realized i didn't have bukimina. she came back out a few minutes later and told me that he had indeed been left, but she rescued him for me. c drove for a while. he played hamilton and the three of us sang along, while m listened to something else in her earbuds because she doesn't like hamilton. when mom started driving again, c moved to the back and the two fought over me. i cuddled both of them for a while but ended up cuddling mostly with c, which f pouted about before he pointed out all the time i had spent with her.
we took f home that morning and met up with m's mom later that day. c and i went into j.c. penney and ended up spending an hour in sephora while he did my makeup. turns out if you ask the sephora employees, they're more than happy to let you use the sample makeup to create a look. unfortunately, i started to get the allergy itch so i had to take the makeup off, but man! i looked pretty!
c and i cuddled for a while before going to bed. i woke up at some point during the night, and he got me painkillers and a drink. i think he likes when i'm sleepy, because my voice is high and mumbly and i'm sweeter then. after i took the painkillers, i cuddled back into him and mumbled "thank you i love you" and he laughed at me a little and kissed my forehead. i remember i had some really weird questions: i told him angels have lots of eyes, then i asked him if they could see out of all of them. then i asked what their field of vision looks like. he sort of ignored this and let me fall back asleep. he didn't remember this at all when i brought it up in the morning.
MONDAY: we played detroit: become human for about an hour, and then my dad started texting his phone. i got into an argument with my dad, and i ended up crying on c for a little while because of anxiety. the rest of the day wasn't so great; mostly c trying to settle my anxiety but not quite knowing how to. we watched a movie for a little while, and then i told him it'd help me to have something to focus on so we went back to detroit: become human. mom bought us veggie burgers, which i had never had before but actually they're pretty good. and then i went home, fully prepared to be yelled at or something, but my dad was asleep when i walked in, and he seemed to have forgotten all about our argument this morning. idk. my dad has problems. i hate the way he aggravates my anxiety on purpose. i spent the whole ride home squeezing c's hand. when i got out of the car, c helped me carry my stuff and he stopped me before i opened the door. "if anything happens, at least stay for school tomorrow and tell me everything, okay? i love you."
i don't know. it's been rough. i'd rather live with c but i don't want to be any trouble. i know his family loves me and they don't mind having me around, but i would feel like such a burden.
well! if you read this far, uh, thanks i guess? that's how my weekend went.
oh, i forgot, m asked me at one point, "you know about homestuck?" and i answered, "unfortunately." and she said, "i'm so glad you said unfortunately."
SATURDAY: con! we woke up at 4:15 a.m. and left the house around 5:00 a.m. we picked up f and started the long, long ride to con. i took 2 dramamine and napped on m. turns out that was a bad idea- i'm so small, 2 dramamine is enough to make me dizzy and lightheaded. we stopped at a gas station for snacks and drinks- but i forgot my glasses in the car at first and had to ask strangers to direct me to the bathroom. i don't remember most of the ride up there, i think i napped a lot. i cosplayed kiibo at con and c said that i'm a really cute kiibo. while we were doing our makeup in the bathroom, i got compliments and gave them back. there were a few goths and a few super-pastels, and i loved seeing all the different fashions. f, c, and m all bought me stuff since i didn't have money. i got two pins, four stickers, two plush keychain thingies, two hairclips (one i gave to f), a rainbow necklace, and a big squishy shiba inu pillow (which c helped me name! google translate says 'bukimina' is japanese for squishy, so that's what we chose. buki for short). it started snowing around the middle of the day so we went outside to enjoy it. in the south, you don't get much snow. i got excited and started skipping and jumping around, but i was wearing three-inch platforms so i fell and twisted my ankle.
it doesn't hurt that bad anymore but man that was embarrassing. i also jumped up on the edge of a fountain at one point because i was excited and f and c both went 'no no no no no' and started trying to get me down because of the platforms. i'm the oldest in our group but i'm still kinda the baby i guess.( i will add to this list as i remember ) i got pictures with the following cosplayers: hiyori iki, kofuku, sailor moon, hatsune miku, kokichi oma, rose quartz, amethyst
every time i passed the kofuku for the rest of con, i said "hey waifu" and when we were leaving i said "nice to see you #1 waifu" and blew a kiss lmao.
ALSO THERE WAS A VOCALOID CONCERT ! me, c, and f went (m spent a lot of con wandering alone or in the car with mom) and we had a blast tbh. f doesn't care much for japanese stuff but me and c are weeaboos. they played tokyo teddy bear, which i happen to know all the way through, and i think i may have impressed f a little. near the end of the concert, we went and stood in the back, where a couple of guys were encouraging everyone to dance. that was really fun! i managed to get my confidence up a little.
there was a random guy playing music on an accordion??
also i saw a couple of homestuck cosplayers,, eridan and sollux,, their cosplays were actually really good, as much as i try to avoid homestuck.
c said that f and i would make a cute couple, because we had spent the whole day holding hands and i napped on her more than anyone else that day. it was a little awkward.
because the snow melted quickly and refroze, and because mom was tired, we spent the night at a hotel. m shared a bed with mom. me, f, and c all shared a bed, though f rolled off the bed and chose to stay there. f was really tired and became an expert comedian. "why is the spine stealer my best support system? he always has my back." i'm honestly smiling just thinking about that one.
SUNDAY: woke up when m and f came in from breakfast. c and i slept another half hour, then went to get breakfast. i left before him and planned to take a nap, but i did f's hair instead, braiding it in a sort of elf-like style. we left the hotel about 10:30. there was a bit of a delay, and f ran back inside before mom came out because i realized i didn't have bukimina. she came back out a few minutes later and told me that he had indeed been left, but she rescued him for me. c drove for a while. he played hamilton and the three of us sang along, while m listened to something else in her earbuds because she doesn't like hamilton. when mom started driving again, c moved to the back and the two fought over me. i cuddled both of them for a while but ended up cuddling mostly with c, which f pouted about before he pointed out all the time i had spent with her.
we took f home that morning and met up with m's mom later that day. c and i went into j.c. penney and ended up spending an hour in sephora while he did my makeup. turns out if you ask the sephora employees, they're more than happy to let you use the sample makeup to create a look. unfortunately, i started to get the allergy itch so i had to take the makeup off, but man! i looked pretty!
c and i cuddled for a while before going to bed. i woke up at some point during the night, and he got me painkillers and a drink. i think he likes when i'm sleepy, because my voice is high and mumbly and i'm sweeter then. after i took the painkillers, i cuddled back into him and mumbled "thank you i love you" and he laughed at me a little and kissed my forehead. i remember i had some really weird questions: i told him angels have lots of eyes, then i asked him if they could see out of all of them. then i asked what their field of vision looks like. he sort of ignored this and let me fall back asleep. he didn't remember this at all when i brought it up in the morning.
MONDAY: we played detroit: become human for about an hour, and then my dad started texting his phone. i got into an argument with my dad, and i ended up crying on c for a little while because of anxiety. the rest of the day wasn't so great; mostly c trying to settle my anxiety but not quite knowing how to. we watched a movie for a little while, and then i told him it'd help me to have something to focus on so we went back to detroit: become human. mom bought us veggie burgers, which i had never had before but actually they're pretty good. and then i went home, fully prepared to be yelled at or something, but my dad was asleep when i walked in, and he seemed to have forgotten all about our argument this morning. idk. my dad has problems. i hate the way he aggravates my anxiety on purpose. i spent the whole ride home squeezing c's hand. when i got out of the car, c helped me carry my stuff and he stopped me before i opened the door. "if anything happens, at least stay for school tomorrow and tell me everything, okay? i love you."
i don't know. it's been rough. i'd rather live with c but i don't want to be any trouble. i know his family loves me and they don't mind having me around, but i would feel like such a burden.
well! if you read this far, uh, thanks i guess? that's how my weekend went.
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