OFFICIAL SHADOWCLAN CHATTING AND PLOTTING THREAD

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hey uhm, sorry for double posting but

I wanted to make an apology today to mainly [member=1397]greahound[/member], [member=556]endless[/member], and [member=1644]freerunnerwolf[/member], but just generally everyone... just tagging so you guys see it

I just wanted to say I'm really sorry about what happened today/earlier/whatever, I really didn't intend to seem passive-aggressive towards ANYONE and it's more of an internalised anger, I didn't want to seem like I was targeting anyone and I especially didn't mean to hurt anyone.

I said it in my support thread, I'm extremely sick and weak at the moment so my head isn't always on straight, and I'm easy to upset with anything. When I get anxious and start having panic attacks it's extremely hard for me to stop or control it for at least thirty minutes to an hour, so...

uhm, if I start having a panic attack, someone please just message me and let me talk to them? It's the easiest way to get me to stop,, and I say that like I'm on the outside looking in because I am, I really can't control it and just letting me rant to someone honestly really helps me,, please if I'm having a breakdown don't call me out on it, it just makes it worse for everyone... I know that sounds really selfish, but I know it's my fault and I'm really really sorry

edit: I should probably add on the topic of the passive aggressive posts being internalised, it was really bad wording of me in those posts but it wasn't supposed to be like a flamebait thing, the meaning was supposed to be: nobody seems interested in my characters, what do I keep doing wrong? I know this sounds like bullshit but I mean it and again, I'm really sorry, when I can barely see through my stupid tears and on my keyboard it usually means I'm not thinking of the meaning of my posts and they really were stupid and pointlessly mean when my message was all wrong.

edit: sorry it's like 3:30am here, sorry this isn't more sincere, I'm too tired to think of a better way to say sorry :(