GOT NOTHING TO LOSE / ic & ooc meet and greet!

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[div style="width: 450px; margin: auto; text-align: justify"]waxstar didn’t know how to lead a clan, didn’t know what he was doing, hardly knew the people he had grown up with. it was sad, really- at least it was to him- and he wanted to change that. he wanted to be a good leader, but it was hard knowing what everyone wanted..

until he got an idea. he could hold a tiny little sharing tongues session, get to know everyone, and just talk! he had jumped up to the meeting place, standing tall and seeming more proud than he ever had been. “everyone, even the kits, gather around, i have something fun we can do!” he called.

since hallowstars disappearance, the camp had been quiet and dreary, so he hoped this would help them out a bit.

“i want everyone to share their name, one thing they love, one thing they hate, one think you want to change, and one thing they want to become.” he explained. as others gathered around, he took a deep breath. “of course, you all know my name. waxstar. one thing i love is.. well, i love to sunbathe, and i still hate leaving camp but i’m getting better at that.. if i has to change anything, i’d change the type of prey we get- too many rats, and i’m sure some of my close friends know i love fish.. and i really just want to become a leader that you guys can be proud of, you know?”

he felt like that last bit was over sharing, and he winced, instantly wishing he could take that back. “if you don’t want to share, just say your name and hello.”

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HOO ok so hello!! i’m salem and i, of c, play waxstar! i’m 16, turning 17 in december, though i hardly ever remember my age bc my memory is so shitty. this is my first solo leadership (we don’t talk about my first leadership). i’m currently sort of questioning my gender, but i know one thing and that would be that i love [member=503]legiana.[/member] , who i’m currently in a relationship of 4 years i believe!

i play the viola, and i’m p much obsessed with the sims and anyone who knows me knows that uhhhhh i’m a little playful?? and sometimes it’s difficult to know when i’m playing around ( i’m sure [member=722]Leafwing12[/member] can confirm ) but uh.. that’s all i can think of??

[spoiler=TAGS | june, 18]General — biograhpy
▪ WAXFACE | wax. waxy | no aliases
▪ DMAB male | cisgender | masculine pronouns
▪ 19 months | unkknown birthday | ages realistically
▪ deputy of windclan | " the guy that won't leave camp "

Physical — reference
♦ domestic feline | Health: 100%
— an off-white tom with medium length fur, pale green eyes. his face has no fur and is scarred over
— minor injuries: n/a
— major injuries: n/a

Important Info — roleplayer
▪ has major agoraphobia and refuses to leave camp, also has a phobia of dogs
▪ has major abandonment issues
▪ Opinions, motivations and thoughts are always 100% in character and do not reflect the roleplayer's opinions

Personality — personality type (or alignment)
— [trigger warning: depression, suicidal thoughts] Waxface is a very coldhearted and distrusting of nearly everyone- even those he grew up with. he is, in general, a very tough and rough guy, and tends to come off as rude. often times, he makes sarcastic comments, and pushes those who try to get close away. he tends to dislike others who are overly nice or optimistic, seeing the world as a horrible and bland place. thanks to all of this- his pessimistic view of the world and the fact that he has no one, he suffers from depression, and it isn't uncommon for him to have suicidal thoughts. Thanks to said depression, he is often tired and has no energy to do anything- staying in his nest most days and ignoring his duties. there are times where he considers just retiring and becoming an elder early, but feels that it'd be better just to end himself. There are days when has energy, but those days are few and far between.

Moving on from main personality, wax is a male with many fears, most of which are insignificant and don't effect his life in any way. however, he does have two phobias. the first phobia is his worst, and for good reason: dogs. he used to be fearless and careless, but after being attacked by a dog, this faded away. he lives in constant fear of encountering another dog, that he rarely leaves camp. if he does leave, he is constantly on guard and doesn't relax. the second fear is not as bad, but it is what makes him push people away: his fear of abandonment. after his attack (which was partly due to his mother leaving the clans and him trying to run away to be with her), he started pushing away so they wouldn't have a chance to leave.

despite all of his negativity, there is some light in the darkness. he has a secret soft spot for elders and kits, though he doesn't show it. he still enjoys playing games, and will often times sit and watch the kits play from a distance. he will sometimes decide to kick around the moss ball himself. he can sometimes be caught smiling on rainy days, will lay in the sun if its sunny, loves the sound of thunder, and enjoys the smell of daisies.
— positive ; nurturing, soft spot for children and elders, distrusting, quickwitted
— negative ; rude, depressed/suicidal, constantly tired, fearful

Relationships — heartchart
▪ blackstrike x smallfang | no notable relations
▪ homosexual | homoromantic | Monogamous
▪ Single | Crushing on __ | Maybe Crushing on __
▪ ½ ship here
▪ doesn't interact well with others and often pushes them away

Interaction — plotting thread
— Physically ; depends on the opponant | Mentally ; fairly easy
— average apprentice's training
— healing may be powerplayed
— To attack, @ salem or your attack will be ignored, sorry.[/spoiler]