fishy kisses ∞ dump

[twistiethebear]

yes yes thaat was such a good episode but it made me upset when he basically ended things because he couldn't deal with even being bipolar
but then he went to him when even sent him that text that was a suicide note. like isak ran from the church to school and the look of horror when he didn't see even right way
both those actors are so fucking amazing wowowowowow

also the "isak and even: minute by minute" thing because that hurt my heart because it really showedd how much isak cared for even

honestly though camber didn't think anything would come of that first meeting
and then something did and he was shook and somehow he found himself falling in love
yes things went slow but soon enough things weren't going as slow

IMAGINE SMTH LIKE THAT HAPPENING AND THAT TRIGGERING THE PHYSICAL ABUSE
like camber and blake just making out or whatever and like camber maybe forgot to lock his door and his stepdad bursts into the room and that's when it starts and camber is so fucking scared of it all

please blake is so good to camber and camber appreciates when blake sneaks in and just lays with him because camber feels so alone andd helpless and for a bit he feels safe and secure in blake's arms
and always kinda being like "noooo party" but eventually is like "okay"

he disassociates with reality all the time because that's the only way he's able to actually get through his day to day with all the abuse he is dealing with that he needs to go off into a different world
and he suffers a lot of nightmares so like when blake sneaking over and camber having a nightmare and i imagine blake just trying to wake him up and hold him and tell him things are okay and it is just a dream and that he is safe this happening a lot when they run

camber just staring horrified at what he did because he killed someone
and just is scared of himself and doesn't know what to do and like what if blake was like gonna come see him and he shows up to a panicked camber with blood on his hands and his stepdad dead and he doeesn't know what to do and just looking up at blake with scared eyes and yeah saying "i killed him" followed by "im a monster" and he definitely doesn't even expect blake to help him
he is expecting blake to be disgusted with him and abandon him

my poor son he deserves only good and if camber ever found out about it, he'd be v concerned but also like even more unsure of blake's mom cuz what if she is still emotionally abusing him even though she isn't but he worries cuz he doesn't want to see the man he loves ever get hurt

nah he isn't closeted persay but he struggles with forming emotional bonds with people but like at the same time nobody actually knows he is gay

blake what an icon. camber probably wears the same thing everyday, a long sleeved shirt or sweater paired with a scarf to cover up to horrible bruising on his neck and jeans or sweatpants

idk where, anywhere, skipping town or getting out of state or whatever