12-02-2017, 10:25 PM
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[align=center][div style="width: 365px; text-align: justify; font-family: helvetica; font-size: 7pt; line-height: 1; text-transform: lowercase"] notes on benjamin;;• benajmin lennox gilner; february 14th; he's an aquarius
• most people tend to call him ben or benji
• first thing's first he's an asshole like he's the stereotypical joke who is rude to nerds and loner kids but it is kinda because of personal issues he is trying to cover up
• but don't be fooled because it is basically a facade and just the way he acts so everybody thinks he's an ass but he isn't really
• as gay as they come but is way too far back in the closet because he knows if people found out his reputation would suffer greatly and it is one of the things he suffers with more than anything else in his life
• confident as hell on the outside but insecure on the inside
• is an only child and his parents are still married despite marital problems in the past including a cheating scandal on his mom's part
• fears a life without love but knows if he expressed that his "friends" would make fun of him and call him a sissy or other rude slurs or whatever
• well, since he's closeted, he isn't really able to openly express if he has feelings for someone so he is rude to them to try and push down the feelings because it's better if the guy hates him than finding out about his feelings
• he is future boyfriend of aj but like tbh it was a hard path getting there cuz he's an ass
• well he um really likes rom coms and yeah it's a really girlie thing so he pretends not to and that he likes horror movies but horror moves give him really bad nightmares
• has a strained relationship with his parents because they tend to butt heads about a lot of things like he wants to be a pro football player but they want him to be a doctor
• he is v tall like 6'3" and towers over like everybody which makes him intimidating
• alright he was probably outed in the future when people find out and it was probably by one of his friends and he probably like didn't show up to school for like days or weeks because he couldn't face the harassment about it
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