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- his full name is jules maurice wayward. as a kid he had a plethora of nicknames ranging from juju to bean sprout (why, he'll never know). nowadays people either call him jule or jules, with the occasional juju which bothers him to no end
- he is the only child to maryanne and hudson wayward. the couple met in freshman year of college and got married a year after graduating. two years later, along came jules and he was a literal jewel and his parents showered him in endless love and affection
- things were good for a while. jules exceeded all expections academically and athletically. he became involved with his high school's track team and cross-country team as a freshman. he played soccer for many years
- for the longest time he had a 4.0 gpa and was a straight a student
- before things went bad, jules was a well-liked person at his school. he was popular, he had a lot of friends, he felt like people actually cared about him. jules was kind to everyone even if they weren't kind to him. he tutored kids who were struggling outside of school and was a perfect son in his parents' eyes
- he was very protective of those he cared about and wasn't ever afraid to throw punches when it came to defending someone, even if he didn't know who he was defending. he was quick to help those who needed help and he hates bullies
- identifies as homosexual, homoromantic but only a handful of people know
- was on his way to being a valedictorian but things took a turn for the worse
- when jules was sixteen, his dad found out jules was gay and his dad is very homophobic and kicked jules out of the house because he couldn't bear to have a gay son
- after this, jules went to a maybe-more-than friend's house and stayed there for a few days until his friends dad walked in one morning to his son and jules asleep in bed together. while he didn't yell or scream, jules knew he was no longer welcome and quickly got dressed and left without argument or saying goodbye to the friend
- soon after, jules started falling behind in school work and was sleeping wherever he could. he was also starting to get bullied by the same kids who were his friends before finding out that jules was gay. they were cruel and relentless and what they did combined with not having a place to live and having no one who cared about him all contributed to his depression and his feelings of hopelessness and later his suicidal thoughts
- for a few months he was actually sleeping in the boys' locker room at school because he didn't know wherelse to go and he wasn't eating a lot because he didn't have money and he quit the track team and became a shell of who he once was
- it was actually the track coach that caught on and tried to help him as best as he could but jules was already suicidal by this point that he didn't even think the coach actually cared about him or what happened to him
- the coach contacted jules' dad and told him everything and jules returned home
- tw (suicide attempt) a week after returning home, jules found his father's gun and had decided that he didn't want to live anymore. both his parents were gone at work and jules completely broke down and just cried in his room and was shaking and there were many times he almost pulled the trigger. in those moments, he felt more alone than ever and like nobody cared yet he couldn't find the ability to pull the trigger
- the following day, jules went to school and had another break down in the boys' locker room. this time, instead of trying to bring himself physical harm, he called the suicide hotline and, for once, he felt like someone actually cared if he lived or died
- currently in therapy and actually talking about how he feels instead of keeping it inside
- his relationship with his father has gotten a lot better since his father found out that jules was gay. in fact, his father apologised for what he said and for how he reacted and feels guilty that jules thought the only was to feel better was to die, that jules almost pulled the trigger, and that jules felt as if no one actually cared about him
- since everything happened, jules still struggles with depression and has since developed anxiety. he's always worried about people not actually caring him and he fears being alone with his thoughts and demons
- his therapist suggested he get a psychiatric service dog to help him deal with his feelings of depression, anxiety, and to help him with stress. about a month after this discussion, jules' parents brought a service dog into the home to help jules. the dog is an american eskimo dog with the name of harriet
- it took a while, but jules is slowly letting people back into his life but he is hesitant at times for fear of the people he does let in abandoning him or not caring about him
- though he won't ever be that happy boy he was before his dad discovered he was gay, jules is slowly rebuilding himself and trying to better himself and trying to pick up the pieces of his broken life. perhaps one day he'll have that light in his eyes again
- okay, some fun and nice and not-angsty headcanons
- jules loves avocados but hates guacamole which is strange but he just prefers to eat avocados without all the other things like peppers
- allergic to cilantro, peaches, and matcha
- wants to get back into running but instead of on a team, just for himself. he kinda wants to run a marathon someday and running helps him destress and it relaxes him
- listens to classical music which surprises a lot of people but the soft lull of a piano or violin has a way of putting him in a better mindset
- doesn't really talk about his depression with anyone with the exception of his therapist
- learned how to play the violin when he was in elementary school and still continues to play it though not in an orchestra because he just prefers to play on his own
- he has a septum piercing and plans on getting a few tattoos once he turns eighteen
- obviously based of the song 1-800-273-8255 by logic