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- meet ketsiyah opal mercier, commonly known as ketty or mercier, who was born in mexico but raised in the united states
- since she was a little kid, ketsiyah was always told there was a right way and a wrong way for everything. this would include stuff as miniscule as buttering toast or sitting in a chair. her parents made it very clear early on that they didn't approve of anything that was "out of the ordinary" and were very strict
- of course, ketsiyah was a rebellious child growing up and it resulted in many screaming matches over little things and there is no trust between her and her parents. they think the worst of her and she has isolated herself from them and now intentionally breaks the rules and gets herself in trouble at school, just to test her parents'
- honestly doesn't know why they haven't kicked her out yet, she deserves to be
- when she was twelve, she started questioning her sexuality which really made her turn in on herself because her parents were strictly against that and found it "unnatural". in turn, this made ketsiyah believe that, due to these questioning feelings, she was also unnatural and that something about her was very wrong
- her parents found out when she was fourteen after catching her kissing a girl and hell broke loose in ketsiyah's life and they moved the first of many times
- this all deepened the distrust between her and her parents because they were, quite literally, disgusted at the thought that ketsiyah wasn't heterosexual. she was never allowed to stay out late and had to tell them where she was going and if she was late, there were sometimes serious consequences
- as a result of this all, ketsiyah is still very much in the closet and sneaks out a lot and causes problems at school. in the current school year, alone, she's been to three different schools because of all the trouble she has been causing at school
- hates that she isn't straight and wants to be straight not really so that her parents won't hate her and will actually show some semblance of caring. it wasn't even after they found out that it started. when she was twelve, she used to pray that she would wake up straight and write to santa and say that all she wanted for christmas was to be straight
- "dates" guys in hopes of convincing people around her that she's straight
- doesn't really have friends and doesn't openly go up and talk to people because she's an overall loner and doesn't really crave social interactions or recognition
- ran away less than six months ago but was found by the police and forcibly returned back to her parents' custody and now things are a lot worse in the house and she wants to die
- even if you did get to know her, you wouldn't really find a bright or cheery girl underneath, just more repressed sadness and pain and drama
- looks really good in yellow
- will get anxious in confined spaces and will most likely have a panic attack
- if you can make her smile for real, not the stupid fake smiles or sarcastic ones, that's when you know that she's starting to trust you to some extent
- ummmmmmmmm she is about 89% fake smiles, 8% sarcastic comments, 3% hatred of the world, and 100% pain and self-hatred
- totally not the yellow ranger, that would be crazy. nahhhhhhhhhhh