STAY WOKE / dump

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[spoiler=please ignore my trash self]frick just doing some late night self-loathing ramblings. like for real for real, i hate myself - i am probably the worst person ever. i am so forgetful and my muse disappears but i always wanna write? also, i am terrible at plotting, and replying to people? i can't even make character bios wtf it takes me like three days. and these are such silly things to get upset at myself about, but here i am anyway. but that's not even really why, i wish i was more outgoing and didn't suppress my feelings! like i swear i have issues or something, my anxiety is terrible i can't even eat without feeling nauseous! also, i forget to drink. DRINK. who even does that? also i always feel really judgy of people even though i'm not? most of the time it's just me cracking jokes but i still feel bad afterwards? i feel angry a l l the time for no reason. idek what i am listing but half this stuff doesn't even begin to explain why i can't stand myself - in fact these are the dumbest reasons ever.

one last thing, how do i have friends? like just how? i am trash, not even that cool trash where you would be like "this should be recycled", nah i am just trash.

but anywAys, if anyone read me being an ass, just know i love you and to have a good night and be blessed with the sweetest of dreams.

also if you are reading this and i have forgotten about you in any way (replying to a thread, plotting or just anything) just shoot me a pm to remind me. i am a forgetful piece of trash


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