le chaos. | another marsy dump.

[marsy]

and no adult understands that it fucks me (and others) up so much to the point where we literally want to dropout. i've thought about it sm but i'm way too anxious to actually go through with it. education is important and i love learning but as i've said before, the schooling system is fucked up to hell and makes learning a very horrible and sucky experience. it fucks with my head so much. during the summer i'm so happy, happier than i've ever been, and then school comes around and fucks me over. i cry at least once a day, my sleeping schedule gets even more impossibly fucked, my anxiety skyrockets, i get even more irritable, and none of the teachers' and counselors' and other staffs' bullshit helps either because they say they understand but they really fucking don't. and my parents think they do, but they don't, especially not my dad jfc.

thank you guys. i hope so too.