hi welcome to chilis & trash heap

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Rip I'm sorry I didn't see ^^"
But thank you! I'm not entirely sure if they'll be what I go with but I'll keep them in mind. Maybe amaranth for a middle name idk.

I saw I just forgot to respond. I'll respond later if I remember since I got to get my retainer and then do homework.

The day was going semi-okay until 5th which is boring af
And then 7th was eh except for the fact my algebra teacher immediately bringing up how my dad is a dean, keeps saying I don't do my work and that he does allnof it, etc. and it pisses me off so fucking much and my friend just keeps fueling the fire and making me feel even angrier and I was so close to snapping.

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to do list today:
- do homework
- possibly start the writing thingy
- if I can, respond to sunny

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Hi I absolutely despise my retainer and wanna bite it and break it so uh (:
It makes it hard to sing bc it gives me a lisp and it's annoying as hell

School: starts again
Me: is back in my easily irritated, angry, self-loathing, apathetic mood again

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I'm so close to just fucking coming out as bi to my parents cuz I don't give a shit about what my mom thinks she can judge me and hate me all she wants i could live less of a fuck. My dad would accept me it's all that fuckin matters. All my mom does is make me feel like shit and I'm done. She is the biggest fuckin hypocrite.

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Woke up to the cybersex album so today is going decent so far
Can't wait to mcfuckin lose it

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I wanna cover 90210, the dead version of it cuz I rlly love how it sounds w/ the guitar.
But I can't play guitar cuz I quit lessons cuz once again aha guess who doesn't have motivation to do anything he loves.
Meeeeee.

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AN IRL FRIEND FELT LIKE IT WAS NECESSARY TO GETME AND OUR OTHRR FRIEND SHANE DAWSON SHIRTS?? ? ?
WHOM DOES HE THINK HE IS
Mine hasn't gotten here yet but jfc

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Teacher: pick some songs you'd wanna sing st the spring concert
Me: picks the calmest songs I could find (Can't Help Falling In Love & House of Gold)

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Someone hmu with plots with Ivan or Oliver or smth
Still figuring out a name for Charles Melton character

Goal for this thing im writing: at LEAST 5k or more if ur up to it. Start small. ive already written 3k before, all I need to do is write more and more and add more things to my "stories". Look at other writing tips.

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okay i'm what about matthew or amaranth?

name ideas idk if you saw

also i threw rocco at oliver for plots i sent you his bio