Yesss they tell they're secrets/darkest things bc they trust each other very much and agsgshdhd
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sumner will tell isaiah things he won't ever tell margo or daniel
i'm also so fucking done with my family
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i'm kinda maybe flirting with a guy rn and idk. early he asked if i had a boyfriend and i said no and i asked if he had a girlfriend and he said no. and now we kinda have a playful banter going back and forth and i'm so giddy rn but idk if he actually maybe likes me and idk if i actually like him but this is new and i kinda like it tbh and he's nice and i might have like a small crush
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YES BABY GET UR MANS
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we were talking about how we were both bad at flirting and he was like "try it o me" and i'm like o.o and made up some excuse cuz i can't flirt to save my life and was like "nah my flirting sucks, why don't you try yours on me" and he responded "alright i will" and now i'm like O.O
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WE ARE STILL TAKING YALL WEVE BEEN TALKING ALL DAY HOLY SHIT AM I CATCHING FEELS?
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[spoiler=family rant]i honestly like don't even want to be around my extended family anymore because my uncle and grandpa criticize every single goddamn thing i do and then say i whine when i show any sign of discontent. since when do people like having everything they do criticized? then them being like "you don't mind when we tease you" or whatever like yes i do but i'm not gonna say anything cuz you will brush it off as if it were nothing as if my feelings didn't matter. being asked why one minute i'm happy and the next i'm sad is equally as annoying. have they never heard of mood swings? my dad said it was because i'm an "angsty teenager" and i wanted to scream because nobody in my family takes mental health seriously. they don't believe me when i say i have anxiety or are like "you have no reason to be tired" when i say i'm tired. no, i am not tired physically but i am mentally and emotionally. plus, i'm sick so don't give me that bs because i'm ill and that makes you tired especially if you are up all night coughing and unable to fall asleep or eat anything cuz the medication you have been taking makes you feel sick to your stomach. do they not realize fatigue and always being tired is a symptom of depression? do they even care? probably not. they tear me down and act like it's just family banter but it isn't and it hurts. they don't do it to charlie or brian, just me and i'm sick of it i want to rip my fucking hair out and go home and not be here. i'm sick of all the bullshit and "familial banter" they put me through and how they keep justifying it. all the mocking and teasing was stuff i went through in elementary and middle school and now my own family is doing it to me and i wanna not exist rn
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[spoiler=more rant]since when is it okay to personally attack someone for who they are and the little things they do that they may do subconsciously without even thingking aboht it? when did it become okay for adults to tear down kids/teenagers because something they did or a habit they have is annoying? when did it become accepted that stuff like that between family members was just part of life? they talk about me going from happy to sad and gloomy and how it's annoying but they do the same thing. nice to criticizing. they justify all the mean things they say and do. there's a power imbalance because it's me against three adults and i get called rude and disrespectful when i try to stand up for myself. they tell me to shut up when i try to defend myself. they make me feel like shit and don't even care and i'm just gonna shut myself in this stupid room and avoid them at all costs cuz that's the only way i'll get through this trip
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long story short: i hate my family and wanna go home and cry cuz i sure as hell cant do that here
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