hi welcome to chilis & trash heap

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there are
images
of jensen/stace
with snapchat filter
dylan: COME ON!!! try it, it'll be funny


UM
UM
NO MA'AM
NOT M CHARLIE
DONT YOU FUCKING DARE SPN
FUCKING NO MY W I F E

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like ik that isnt sabrina/dylan but it looks like her okay and now im crying

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me trying to get a cat to love me

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me: writes about how dylan dies and stace fuckin Kills with no emotion on his face
dean: does just that in this episode bc of charlie

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[size=35pt][i]what in the actual frickity frack diddly wack dean

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Hi I have mega casey muse I'm gonna hurt him

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I hate my family
They interrupt me when I speak
I get ignored bc I'm the youngest
I gettreated likr shit
And they wonder why I stay in my room sm. It's because the last thing I want is to be around them and be bullied until I cry

Now I  stuck in the fuckig car with them for hours

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He smiles, pained and forced. And through gritted teeth and choked back tears he murmured, "I am unloveable."

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uh yes concept that pikachu was given to him by aj

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[spoiler=rant]THEY DONT KNOW HALF THE SHT THAT GOES ON IN MY HEAD
THE SELF LOATHING
THE INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS
THE ANXIETY
THE IDEA THAT ILL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR THEM
THEY THINK IM JUST A LITTLE BRAT, AN ASSHOLE WHO'S OVERDRAMATIC ABOUT THINGS
MAYBE I AM OVERDRAMATIC AND MAYBE I CAN BE AN ASSHOLE SOMETIMES BUT YOU DONT GET TO JUST ASSUME I AM THE WAY I AM BECAUSE "IT'S JUST WHO I AM" OR A PART OF MY PERSONALITY
I REMEMBER WHEN I WASNT LIKE THIS WHEN I WASNT SNAPPING AT MY FAMILY EVERY SECOND OF EVERY DAY AND WHEN I WAS CLOSE TO MY DAD BUT NOW HE TELLS ME HOW IM NEVER HUGGIGHIM LIKE I USEDTO OR WE'RE "NOT AS CLOSE" AS WE USED TO BE
I REMEMBER WHEN I WOULDNT GETSO FUCKING ANNOYED AND OVERWHELMED JUST BY THEM WALKING IN MY ROOM OR BEING IN THE SAME ROOM AS THEM
IM NOT MENTALLY OKAY AND I HAVE NO ONE I CAN TELL IN REAL LIFE THAT I TRUST BESIDES MY BEST FRIENDS
I DONT FEEL SAFE ENOUGH TO TELL MY OWN FUCKING FAMILY BC THEYLL CALL ME OVERDRAMATIC THEYLL LAUGH AT ME THEYLL TELL ME IM OVERTHINKING
I WENT TO JUST SAY SMTH AND MY MOM INTERRUPTED ME AND I WENT "fine never mind I guess I'll just shut up" AND MY BROTHER LAUGHD AND GOES "YOU MUST HAVE A REALLY HARD LIFE BACK THERE" AND I STARTED SHAKIG AND IM SRILL SHAKING AND I WANT TO CRY I WANT TO SCREAM AND GET OUT OF THIS CAR I WANT TO BE WITH MY GRANDMOTHER BUT I CANT AND I IUST DONT WANT TO BE HERE

I WANT TO DISAPPEAR FOREVER AN DMAHBE THEN MY FAMILY WILL BE FUCKING CONTENT WITH THEIR LIVES[/spoiler]