fishy kisses ∞ dump

[twistiethebear]

but for some nice and happy aand no sad benjalani: imagine benji walking over to aj in the middle of a crowded hallway and leans down and kisses him in front of everyone and doesn't care that everyone is staring because he loves aj and if he wants to kiss his boyfriend in the middle of the hallway in front of people who had beat him up and used slurs towards him then he will because being with aj has taken away the fear of what people say about his relationship

ALSO: imagine them at a school dance or prom and just nervous boys and slow dancing and benji is v in love and he's finally at a point in his life where he feels alright and not less-than and that he does deserve to be happy

[atomic]

hello, i am woodsy, and i love twist



my fave is the one where even has a breakdown and you think isak is super shitty bc he doesn't know how to deal w/ it and even's ex is a bitch but then they work it out and are cute again
i actually just love all of the episodes
i love when isak and sana fight and sana's like "i am here to educate u, u dumbie"

i love when even's like "you're the man of my life"
i love when they kiss in the elevator
i love when they break into the pool
i love when isak kisses that girl but is thinking about even
i love when they started talking and smoking when they met
i just love skam 100%

also youseph w/ the good brows

blake respects his space and at first when he re-met him at school he kinda danced around him
and would start talking to him in increments and take things slow even though they sort of met quickly and we're immediately both like "oh okay he's hot"
he took him time actually building a relationship but then things probably got fast again

that reminds me of the fools music video by troye sivan
when they're on the bed and the guy's dad walks in and basically he's like "you can't fucking be gay imma beat u"
i love that series
i should go listen to it again

okay
imagine blake sneaking into his window when camber locks himself in
and sometimes he'll just make sure he's okay and fall asleep w/ him
and sometimes he'll grab his hand and be like "you need a party"
blake just disassociates from reality half the time and so does camber but blake actually has his life fairly together when he's taking care of other people but taking care of himself is like walking into a fucking war zone

should blake come over to him after camber kills him? or should camber come to him?
blake's surprised too
bc at first he's like what the fuck he's dangerous
and then he's like wait it's fucking camber and his stepdad
and he steps up to take care of things and helps him hide the body and get rid of the gun and clean the floor and everything
i can see camber being like "i killed him" or not saying anything but walking up to blake and his hands are shaking and internally blake is like "how did it come to this" but also like "thank god" and he doesn't really react w/ his face he just gets his act together and becomes v responsible like he does when he's serious about something

that's just a blake thing i feel like
he can goof off and get high and acts like everything is just a joke
but really he is v sensitive and caring

i'm trying to decide if his mom was ever physically abusive
i need to figure out the timeline for his dad leaving
maybe his mom and dad fought a lot and when he was three his dad walked out and his mom didn't leave him even tho he abused her
and so blake remembers that and deep down is mad at her too for never taking care of herself and leaving first
and maybe she was a bit physically abusive to him
or maybe to evangeline
okay
so let's say that she used to be really bad to eva and she would hit her and call her fat and blake would get really mad at her for that but she never physically abused him himself, just emotionally, and that's part of the reason he used to be angry all of the time
but now he's just trying to forgive bc he doesn't think it helps to resent people and the situation isn't a safety concern anymore


but also he's always had mad respect for what his mom has done for herself
his mom is such a complex side character wow
okay timeline: she used to be v insecure and anxious about her relationship, which rubbed off onto blake, and then his dad left and she became v empowered for herself, but was still kinda shitty to other women, but then after her second husband's death she realized she didn't need a man at all and that she couldn't be so abusive to people,
which her abuse towards eva had escalated for a bit after she worked for vogue and always saw skinny models and always thought her daughter should look like them, and while this was all happening she was becoming more tolerant of blake, but she still gets v disappointed if you don't listen to her

blake is the exact same about their relationship bc camber is closeted (right?) and blake's not but he doesn't want to out him
and he's bad at relationships anyways bc a lil bit of him is always like "no one can love me" since a part of him is still internally homophobic and also just his anxiety in general



fluff:
blake's favorite outfit is a grey sweatshirt/hoodie and boxers and knee-high socks


where should they run away to

[twistiethebear]

yes yes thaat was such a good episode but it made me upset when he basically ended things because he couldn't deal with even being bipolar
but then he went to him when even sent him that text that was a suicide note. like isak ran from the church to school and the look of horror when he didn't see even right way
both those actors are so fucking amazing wowowowowow

also the "isak and even: minute by minute" thing because that hurt my heart because it really showedd how much isak cared for even

honestly though camber didn't think anything would come of that first meeting
and then something did and he was shook and somehow he found himself falling in love
yes things went slow but soon enough things weren't going as slow

IMAGINE SMTH LIKE THAT HAPPENING AND THAT TRIGGERING THE PHYSICAL ABUSE
like camber and blake just making out or whatever and like camber maybe forgot to lock his door and his stepdad bursts into the room and that's when it starts and camber is so fucking scared of it all

please blake is so good to camber and camber appreciates when blake sneaks in and just lays with him because camber feels so alone andd helpless and for a bit he feels safe and secure in blake's arms
and always kinda being like "noooo party" but eventually is like "okay"

he disassociates with reality all the time because that's the only way he's able to actually get through his day to day with all the abuse he is dealing with that he needs to go off into a different world
and he suffers a lot of nightmares so like when blake sneaking over and camber having a nightmare and i imagine blake just trying to wake him up and hold him and tell him things are okay and it is just a dream and that he is safe this happening a lot when they run

camber just staring horrified at what he did because he killed someone
and just is scared of himself and doesn't know what to do and like what if blake was like gonna come see him and he shows up to a panicked camber with blood on his hands and his stepdad dead and he doeesn't know what to do and just looking up at blake with scared eyes and yeah saying "i killed him" followed by "im a monster" and he definitely doesn't even expect blake to help him
he is expecting blake to be disgusted with him and abandon him

my poor son he deserves only good and if camber ever found out about it, he'd be v concerned but also like even more unsure of blake's mom cuz what if she is still emotionally abusing him even though she isn't but he worries cuz he doesn't want to see the man he loves ever get hurt

nah he isn't closeted persay but he struggles with forming emotional bonds with people but like at the same time nobody actually knows he is gay

blake what an icon. camber probably wears the same thing everyday, a long sleeved shirt or sweater paired with a scarf to cover up to horrible bruising on his neck and jeans or sweatpants

idk where, anywhere, skipping town or getting out of state or whatever

[twistiethebear]

MARSY DID YOU SEE THE BENJALANI FLUFF BECAUSE I HAVE SO MANY FLUFF IDEAS BUT I GOTTA LIKE WRITE THEM DOWN CUZ I NEED GOOD TO BALANCE OUT THE WHOLE LaKE INCIDENT

[twistiethebear]

i'm tired but i got a start but i've got more ideas that i'll add later

[url=https://docs.google.com/document/d/19BmPFQN0TTorEjLRlzvJc0N_BLlZNVBSvixAbHc_Eoc]click this for cute

[marsy]

I WANNA SEE THE CUTE BUT IT WONT LET ME WAAAHHH

[twistiethebear]

anyways my friend is bringing me a hufflepuff hat because she got home from florida and she went to harry potter world or whatever it is called and i'm so happy rn

DAMNIT STUPID FUCKING LINK
[url=https://docs.google.com/document/d/19BmPFQN0TTorEjLRlzvJc0N_BLlZNVBSvixAbHc_Eoc]try this link

[atomic]

I WANNA SEE THE CUTE BUT IT WONT LET ME WAAAHHH

i can't copy and paste for u for some reason but it's fluff for you

[marsy]

i’m actually crying right now
i should besleeping but instead i’m crying over benjalani (‘:

[twistiethebear]

but okay imagine somehow his body temperature is raised to quickly and goes into shock because of an arrhythmia and almost dies because his heart is beating irregulary and imagine like he's just weakly holding onto aj's hand until he let's go and the nurses what ever like move aj out of the room or whatever and angst but he survives you know? and just once he somewhat recovers from that he just keeps asking for aj and he's kinda out of it and his words don't really make sense but what is clear is that he wants aj and yeah

benji legit almost died twice......