I WONT LIVE TO SEE ANOTHER DAY / private

[dannychan]

he hummed. "OCD, man. same things happen." he said and smiled softly. "besides, tons of people are bipolar."

[peridot.]

He said quietly, smiling, "Yeah, I know. Still, I hate how Fiona and Lip worry about me so much because of it. Whenever I seem even the slightest bit unhappy, Fiona goes into what's basically hysterics for her. Lip is more subtle about it, but he keeps trying to reassure me gently like I won't catch on to what he's doing. I just hate that I can't even be just a little bit upset about something anymore without them being like 'oh God, is he having a depressive episode? Is he gonna hurt himself? Is he gonna hurt someone else?'"

[dannychan]

he hummed. "well.. maybe we could record a video of you telling yourself to go to the druids if you feel off, just to make sure?"

[peridot.]

He blinked and said, sighing and nodding, "Yeah, that's a good idea.." He then said, laughing softly and shaking his head, "I'm still really sorry about the episode I had last night. I really didn't mean to keep you up all night."

[dannychan]

he hummed. "it's alright. just need some coffee."

[peridot.]

He said softly, nodding a bit, "Alright, good. I remember when I first got diagnosed a while ago, and I did something kinda similar to that. Fiona was so pissed because I had torn apart practically the entire house frantically looking for.. something. Even now I don't know what the fuck I was looking for, but obviously my panicked and manic mind was really determined to find it. When Fiona finally came downstairs and started asking why the hell the house was a mess I just started... fucking sobbing."

[dannychan]

he gently rubbed his back and nodded. "i know it was probably horrifying.. huh?"

[peridot.]

He nodded and said, laughing weakly, "Yeah, it was. I'd had a few incidents in the past, but nothing as big or as prominent as that. I remember feeling so panicked and hopeless, and when Fiona came down yelling about noise I just looked around and realized that I'd torn everything apart, and I was instantly overwhelmed with this huge need to not only clean up everything I had just done, but still find whatever I was looking for, and everything was just way too overwhelming and I couldn't breathe, and I couldn't stop crying, and Fiona was just so caught off guard.

[dannychan]

he hummed. "Everyone's different in their own ways."

[peridot.]

He blinked and smiled a bit, slouching a little and resting his head on the other's shoulder as he said softly, cooing and smiling at Yevgeny, "Yeah, but do most people show the way they're 'different' by aggressively organizing their room and basically hoarding stuff and having a panic attack when they're confronted about it?"