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[Leo]

The black cat was currently frowning up at the sky.


He was sick of Clown. He was either an ass to him or fairly sweet to him, and Leo couldn't understand why. Was he doing something to cause Clown's constant change in moods? Or was it something else? Leo had no clue, but he intended to find out.



//yikes, rushed + hella lame lmao

[CIRCUSCLOWN!]

[align=center][div style="width: 450px;; text-align: justify"][size=9pt]Circuclown happened to be outside while Leo was - though it wasn't uncommon, knowing the fact he hated being inside his cabin. It was something he feared, actually. Nobody had noticed any of his problems yet, but someone who decided to stalk him might find he was never in his cabin. He even slept outside of it sometimes, just camping around with some alcohol. Though, that wasn't at all what he should be thinking of. Eye focusing on Leo who seemed to be staring at the sky, he'd lick his dry mouth which smelled of alcohol. "What're you looking at? You know, looking directly at the sun can blind you." He spoke up as he approached. He was mostly just trying to stop himself from being bored to death.

[spoiler=tags]
general ; "drink up baby"
★ circusclown disharmony | nicknames are circ and clown, former names are breadstick, uglyclown and clown | male [ he/him ]
two years three months physically and mentally | born november 13th, 2014 | ages realtime
guard of shadowclan | former exiles leader and blizzardclan head combatant (feralfront)
discord disharmony x npc | generation 2 | head of disharmony family | only loyal to family
demisexual | panromantic | crush unknown | afraid of being in a relationship
has ptsd, alcoholism and depression | will have flashbacks or panic attacks if he: sees overwhelmingly fast moving yellow or cyan colors, him feeling or touching bark, hearing someone with a distorted voice, feeling any type of unexpected rough contact, and having limited moving space

appearance ; "stay up all night"
★ domestic cat | always scowling | always smells strongly of alcohol
he is a light brown feline who has a lot of fluffy fur that's often tangled up covered in dirt and dust, and it also feels very greasy and gross. his head is lacking of the light brown color, and is completely white. he has a scar on the left side of his face, which has a stitched up glasgow smile meeting up with the scar. the other side of his face shares a glasgow smile, which is also stitched together. he has only one eye left which is the right one, and it is a dull blue almost lifeless color that seems to be bagging all the time due to exhaustion. the side of his face which has no eye has stitches on the top of his eye, and his eyelid is often closed over the eye socket that's still there, though it can be open if he is surprised or scared by something. [ reference ].

personality ; "with the things you could do"
★ chaotic neutral | anti-hero | the cynic
— cynical, insensitive, pessimistic, crude, hostile, family-oriented, overprotective, unpredictable
with a quick look at circusclown, somebody would probably be able to quickly dismiss him due to him having common disinterest, distantness or unnecessary complaints about everything. he rarely has anything positive to say or do, and will come off as a very dull person who wants nothing more then for others to go away. he is very unpredictable and capricious in behavior, and can with ease be watching with a bored expression and the next be a violent creature someone should steer clear of. despite the unpredictable nature, he is quick to make a decision he won't regret - he is never unsure about his decisions, which only worsens his unpredictable behavior. he is extremely cynical and pessimistic, and has a continual feeling of mistrust and pessimistic thoughts of the outcome of every situation. he has a tendency to be very vulgar, constantly with gross behaviors like burping and swearing. he has a tendency to be very unfriendly or harsh to others, and he is rarely sensitive unless in a good mood or if he enjoys somebodies company. he is at heart however, a genuine and sweet person who just wants to have a large family, but feels it is impossible due to his self-destructive alcoholic behaviors and is simply frightened that he'd be taken advantage of if he was to.

interaction ; "you won't but you might"
★ hard physically | hard mentally | attack in #c68ee2
doesn't like unnecessary death or etc | will start fights | will fight back | will flee if family is protected | will not surrender
might capture if family is threatened | might torture if family is threatened | will kill if family is threatened

trained to fight | has little to no medical knowledge
power — un / discovered — control of power: 000%
power — un / discovered — control of power: 000%[/spoiler]

[Leo]

"Good. I don't think my eyes can handle seeing anymore." He said flatly, then aimed to roll onto his side, facing away from clown.


//fucking nerd jfc

i'm so overcritical of my own characters rip

[CIRCUSCLOWN!]

[align=center][div style="width: 450px;; text-align: justify"][size=9pt]Circusclown snorted. "Jesus fucking christ, shut up." He responded. "You're being over-dramatic. I know how to kill someone when I push them off a roof, so stop moping about it." At least, he figured that was why Leo was still mad at him. He couldn't say he cared if Leo liked him or not, but he certainly didn't want him to try gouging his eyes out over something that he thought was small. Then he'd be accused of injury - and if he was completely honest, he wasn't interested in being a direct person in drama or injuries.
i love your characters lmao
[spoiler=tags]
general ; "drink up baby"
★ circusclown disharmony | nicknames are circ and clown, former names are breadstick, uglyclown and clown | male [ he/him ]
two years three months physically and mentally | born november 13th, 2014 | ages realtime
guard of shadowclan | former exiles leader and blizzardclan head combatant (feralfront)
discord disharmony x npc | generation 2 | head of disharmony family | only loyal to family
demisexual | panromantic | crush unknown | afraid of being in a relationship
has ptsd, alcoholism and depression | will have flashbacks or panic attacks if he: sees overwhelmingly fast moving yellow or cyan colors, him feeling or touching bark, hearing someone with a distorted voice, feeling any type of unexpected rough contact, and having limited moving space

appearance ; "stay up all night"
★ domestic cat | always scowling | always smells strongly of alcohol
he is a light brown feline who has a lot of fluffy fur that's often tangled up covered in dirt and dust, and it also feels very greasy and gross. his head is lacking of the light brown color, and is completely white. he has a scar on the left side of his face, which has a stitched up glasgow smile meeting up with the scar. the other side of his face shares a glasgow smile, which is also stitched together. he has only one eye left which is the right one, and it is a dull blue almost lifeless color that seems to be bagging all the time due to exhaustion. the side of his face which has no eye has stitches on the top of his eye, and his eyelid is often closed over the eye socket that's still there, though it can be open if he is surprised or scared by something. [ reference ].

personality ; "with the things you could do"
★ chaotic neutral | anti-hero | the cynic
— cynical, insensitive, pessimistic, crude, hostile, family-oriented, overprotective, unpredictable
with a quick look at circusclown, somebody would probably be able to quickly dismiss him due to him having common disinterest, distantness or unnecessary complaints about everything. he rarely has anything positive to say or do, and will come off as a very dull person who wants nothing more then for others to go away. he is very unpredictable and capricious in behavior, and can with ease be watching with a bored expression and the next be a violent creature someone should steer clear of. despite the unpredictable nature, he is quick to make a decision he won't regret - he is never unsure about his decisions, which only worsens his unpredictable behavior. he is extremely cynical and pessimistic, and has a continual feeling of mistrust and pessimistic thoughts of the outcome of every situation. he has a tendency to be very vulgar, constantly with gross behaviors like burping and swearing. he has a tendency to be very unfriendly or harsh to others, and he is rarely sensitive unless in a good mood or if he enjoys somebodies company. he is at heart however, a genuine and sweet person who just wants to have a large family, but feels it is impossible due to his self-destructive alcoholic behaviors and is simply frightened that he'd be taken advantage of if he was to.

interaction ; "you won't but you might"
★ hard physically | hard mentally | attack in #c68ee2
doesn't like unnecessary death or etc | will start fights | will fight back | will flee if family is protected | will not surrender
might capture if family is threatened | might torture if family is threatened | will kill if family is threatened

trained to fight | has little to no medical knowledge
power — un / discovered — control of power: 000%
power — un / discovered — control of power: 000%[/spoiler]

[Leo]

//oml thanks !! That means a lot coming from you bc you make such amazing characters



"Fine. I'll be quiet. I just want to know..." The male stood up and turned towards Clown. "Did I do something, or did someone hurt you to make you so damn reserved that you don't care about anything?" As soon as the words left his mouth, Leo's face contorted into a worried expression. "C-Clown, I'm sorry....that was way out of line of me..."

[CIRCUSCLOWN!]

[align=center][div style="width: 450px;; text-align: justify"][size=9pt]Circusclown raised his hind leg to his ears to scratch them. "Well, there's a lot of answers to that. But I guess the best way to say it is that I don't trust nobody, and others should feel the same about me." And as Leo apologized, he'd add in. "And I .. dooooo not care what you ask me, if I don't wanna answer then I will just say I'm not answering." He added in, lowering the hind leg as he watched the male cautiously.

//of course!! aaaa thank u!! so do you though man!! i've always had so much fun rping with you
[spoiler=tags]
general ; "drink up baby"
★ circusclown disharmony | nicknames are circ and clown, former names are breadstick, uglyclown and clown | male [ he/him ]
two years three months physically and mentally | born november 13th, 2014 | ages realtime
guard of shadowclan | former exiles leader and blizzardclan head combatant (feralfront)
discord disharmony x npc | generation 2 | head of disharmony family | only loyal to family
demisexual | panromantic | crush unknown | afraid of being in a relationship
has ptsd, alcoholism and depression | will have flashbacks or panic attacks if he: sees overwhelmingly fast moving yellow or cyan colors, him feeling or touching bark, hearing someone with a distorted voice, feeling any type of unexpected rough contact, and having limited moving space

appearance ; "stay up all night"
★ domestic cat | always scowling | always smells strongly of alcohol
he is a light brown feline who has a lot of fluffy fur that's often tangled up covered in dirt and dust, and it also feels very greasy and gross. his head is lacking of the light brown color, and is completely white. he has a scar on the left side of his face, which has a stitched up glasgow smile meeting up with the scar. the other side of his face shares a glasgow smile, which is also stitched together. he has only one eye left which is the right one, and it is a dull blue almost lifeless color that seems to be bagging all the time due to exhaustion. the side of his face which has no eye has stitches on the top of his eye, and his eyelid is often closed over the eye socket that's still there, though it can be open if he is surprised or scared by something. [ reference ].

personality ; "with the things you could do"
★ chaotic neutral | anti-hero | the cynic
— cynical, insensitive, pessimistic, crude, hostile, family-oriented, overprotective, unpredictable
with a quick look at circusclown, somebody would probably be able to quickly dismiss him due to him having common disinterest, distantness or unnecessary complaints about everything. he rarely has anything positive to say or do, and will come off as a very dull person who wants nothing more then for others to go away. he is very unpredictable and capricious in behavior, and can with ease be watching with a bored expression and the next be a violent creature someone should steer clear of. despite the unpredictable nature, he is quick to make a decision he won't regret - he is never unsure about his decisions, which only worsens his unpredictable behavior. he is extremely cynical and pessimistic, and has a continual feeling of mistrust and pessimistic thoughts of the outcome of every situation. he has a tendency to be very vulgar, constantly with gross behaviors like burping and swearing. he has a tendency to be very unfriendly or harsh to others, and he is rarely sensitive unless in a good mood or if he enjoys somebodies company. he is at heart however, a genuine and sweet person who just wants to have a large family, but feels it is impossible due to his self-destructive alcoholic behaviors and is simply frightened that he'd be taken advantage of if he was to.

interaction ; "you won't but you might"
★ hard physically | hard mentally | attack in #c68ee2
doesn't like unnecessary death or etc | will start fights | will fight back | will flee if family is protected | will not surrender
might capture if family is threatened | might torture if family is threatened | will kill if family is threatened

trained to fight | has little to no medical knowledge
power — un / discovered — control of power: 000%
power — un / discovered — control of power: 000%[/spoiler]

[Leo]

"So that means you trust someone?" The male cocked an eyebrow. He went into 'smartass' mode. "Because you said you do not trust nobody, which means you trust at least one person."


//thank you so much! I honestly love clown so much when i first came into the exiles i was hella intimidated bc i considered like him and leonidas to be one of the more popular members of the exiles and i was like 'i'll never be able to do stuff with him or like that'

[CIRCUSCLOWN!]

[align=center][div style="width: 450px;; text-align: justify"][size=9pt]Circusclown rolled his eye a little. "Eh, sure. I trust my grandson Cyrus." He'd reply, rubbing the bags under his eye tiredly. Maybe he should have worded it better - even with his grandson, he had a tendency to be hesitant to trust even him. Trying to gain his trust was like trying to pick up an elephant - it wasn't really possible, unless maybe using magic or devices to do it. And that would only end in total chaos if someone tried doing that wit him.

//i just thought of something
what if one day circ was way more drunk then usual and he like told leo things abt him n super sad
[spoiler=tags]
general ; "drink up baby"
★ circusclown disharmony | nicknames are circ and clown, former names are breadstick, uglyclown and clown | male [ he/him ]
two years three months physically and mentally | born november 13th, 2014 | ages realtime
guard of shadowclan | former exiles leader and blizzardclan head combatant (feralfront)
discord disharmony x npc | generation 2 | head of disharmony family | only loyal to family
demisexual | panromantic | crush unknown | afraid of being in a relationship
has ptsd, alcoholism and depression | will have flashbacks or panic attacks if he: sees overwhelmingly fast moving yellow or cyan colors, him feeling or touching bark, hearing someone with a distorted voice, feeling any type of unexpected rough contact, and having limited moving space

appearance ; "stay up all night"
★ domestic cat | always scowling | always smells strongly of alcohol
he is a light brown feline who has a lot of fluffy fur that's often tangled up covered in dirt and dust, and it also feels very greasy and gross. his head is lacking of the light brown color, and is completely white. he has a scar on the left side of his face, which has a stitched up glasgow smile meeting up with the scar. the other side of his face shares a glasgow smile, which is also stitched together. he has only one eye left which is the right one, and it is a dull blue almost lifeless color that seems to be bagging all the time due to exhaustion. the side of his face which has no eye has stitches on the top of his eye, and his eyelid is often closed over the eye socket that's still there, though it can be open if he is surprised or scared by something. [ reference ].

personality ; "with the things you could do"
★ chaotic neutral | anti-hero | the cynic
— cynical, insensitive, pessimistic, crude, hostile, family-oriented, overprotective, unpredictable
with a quick look at circusclown, somebody would probably be able to quickly dismiss him due to him having common disinterest, distantness or unnecessary complaints about everything. he rarely has anything positive to say or do, and will come off as a very dull person who wants nothing more then for others to go away. he is very unpredictable and capricious in behavior, and can with ease be watching with a bored expression and the next be a violent creature someone should steer clear of. despite the unpredictable nature, he is quick to make a decision he won't regret - he is never unsure about his decisions, which only worsens his unpredictable behavior. he is extremely cynical and pessimistic, and has a continual feeling of mistrust and pessimistic thoughts of the outcome of every situation. he has a tendency to be very vulgar, constantly with gross behaviors like burping and swearing. he has a tendency to be very unfriendly or harsh to others, and he is rarely sensitive unless in a good mood or if he enjoys somebodies company. he is at heart however, a genuine and sweet person who just wants to have a large family, but feels it is impossible due to his self-destructive alcoholic behaviors and is simply frightened that he'd be taken advantage of if he was to.

interaction ; "you won't but you might"
★ hard physically | hard mentally | attack in #c68ee2
doesn't like unnecessary death or etc | will start fights | will fight back | will flee if family is protected | will not surrender
might capture if family is threatened | might torture if family is threatened | will kill if family is threatened

trained to fight | has little to no medical knowledge
power — un / discovered — control of power: 000%
power — un / discovered — control of power: 000%[/spoiler]

[Leo]

//yessss


"Huh...so if Miles has the kids, does that mean they'll be your great grandkids?" The black cat cocked his head in pure curiosity.

[CIRCUSCLOWN!]

[align=center][div style="width: 450px;; text-align: justify"][size=9pt]Circusclown chuckled. "No. Cyrus is actually my great grandson - I just call him grandson because it's easier. They'll be my great, great grandkids." He responded, tail lashing to the side as he did so. His eye trailed away for a moment, thinking about certain things.

//soon,,, soon it can happen *rubs hands*
[spoiler=tags]
general ; "drink up baby"
★ circusclown disharmony | nicknames are circ and clown, former names are breadstick, uglyclown and clown | male [ he/him ]
two years three months physically and mentally | born november 13th, 2014 | ages realtime
guard of shadowclan | former exiles leader and blizzardclan head combatant (feralfront)
discord disharmony x npc | generation 2 | head of disharmony family | only loyal to family
demisexual | panromantic | crush unknown | afraid of being in a relationship
has ptsd, alcoholism and depression | will have flashbacks or panic attacks if he: sees overwhelmingly fast moving yellow or cyan colors, him feeling or touching bark, hearing someone with a distorted voice, feeling any type of unexpected rough contact, and having limited moving space

appearance ; "stay up all night"
★ domestic cat | always scowling | always smells strongly of alcohol
he is a light brown feline who has a lot of fluffy fur that's often tangled up covered in dirt and dust, and it also feels very greasy and gross. his head is lacking of the light brown color, and is completely white. he has a scar on the left side of his face, which has a stitched up glasgow smile meeting up with the scar. the other side of his face shares a glasgow smile, which is also stitched together. he has only one eye left which is the right one, and it is a dull blue almost lifeless color that seems to be bagging all the time due to exhaustion. the side of his face which has no eye has stitches on the top of his eye, and his eyelid is often closed over the eye socket that's still there, though it can be open if he is surprised or scared by something. [ reference ].

personality ; "with the things you could do"
★ chaotic neutral | anti-hero | the cynic
— cynical, insensitive, pessimistic, crude, hostile, family-oriented, overprotective, unpredictable
with a quick look at circusclown, somebody would probably be able to quickly dismiss him due to him having common disinterest, distantness or unnecessary complaints about everything. he rarely has anything positive to say or do, and will come off as a very dull person who wants nothing more then for others to go away. he is very unpredictable and capricious in behavior, and can with ease be watching with a bored expression and the next be a violent creature someone should steer clear of. despite the unpredictable nature, he is quick to make a decision he won't regret - he is never unsure about his decisions, which only worsens his unpredictable behavior. he is extremely cynical and pessimistic, and has a continual feeling of mistrust and pessimistic thoughts of the outcome of every situation. he has a tendency to be very vulgar, constantly with gross behaviors like burping and swearing. he has a tendency to be very unfriendly or harsh to others, and he is rarely sensitive unless in a good mood or if he enjoys somebodies company. he is at heart however, a genuine and sweet person who just wants to have a large family, but feels it is impossible due to his self-destructive alcoholic behaviors and is simply frightened that he'd be taken advantage of if he was to.

interaction ; "you won't but you might"
★ hard physically | hard mentally | attack in #c68ee2
doesn't like unnecessary death or etc | will start fights | will fight back | will flee if family is protected | will not surrender
might capture if family is threatened | might torture if family is threatened | will kill if family is threatened

trained to fight | has little to no medical knowledge
power — un / discovered — control of power: 000%
power — un / discovered — control of power: 000%[/spoiler]