08-01-2017, 03:38 AM
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He loved living in a state of apathy, that empty and uncaring feeling had become so constant in his life that he almost didn't know how to live without it. It wasn't particularly alarming to him anymore when the numbness creeped in and out of his life at its own will, he just tried to be a welcoming host for its visits. He always allowed it in with open, caring arms (they've always cared just a bit too much) and let it stay for as long as it wanted. There was no way to shoo it away, plus, that'd make him a rude host--
Alright well, no, he didn't actually love being apathetic. He absolutely loathed it, it made him want to throw a fit, hurt himself, and scream until all the birds left the forest. He'd tried sugarcoating his state of being time after time throughout his years of not quite being all there, but he always ended up frustrated. He had currently found himself sunken into one of those jaded moods, ready to give up but also ready to keep pushing on out of spite.
Where the fuck was he even at? Some obliterated and trashed city. He supposed he'd walked through too many of them to remember their names, there was no point in caring about where he was anymore. He was just aimlessly searching, searching for them-- for him. He wouldn't find them, he'd already realized this guiltily, cue the aforementioned apathy. He was nearing what looked like an old grocery store and he scowled at it from a slight distance away.
He held onto the strap of his rifle over his shoulder with one hand, he didn't have many bullets left but he carried it around anyhow. Call him sentimental, but the gun reminded him of a demolished home from years and years ago. He was adorned with a rough-looking leather jacket that he'd picked up a month or so ago. It had holes in the sleeves and a large slash up the back, but it also provided him comfort. He could swear he detected a bit of life within the Costco's windows, which made him squint. Ahh, another settlement. Yippee.
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He loved living in a state of apathy, that empty and uncaring feeling had become so constant in his life that he almost didn't know how to live without it. It wasn't particularly alarming to him anymore when the numbness creeped in and out of his life at its own will, he just tried to be a welcoming host for its visits. He always allowed it in with open, caring arms (they've always cared just a bit too much) and let it stay for as long as it wanted. There was no way to shoo it away, plus, that'd make him a rude host--
Alright well, no, he didn't actually love being apathetic. He absolutely loathed it, it made him want to throw a fit, hurt himself, and scream until all the birds left the forest. He'd tried sugarcoating his state of being time after time throughout his years of not quite being all there, but he always ended up frustrated. He had currently found himself sunken into one of those jaded moods, ready to give up but also ready to keep pushing on out of spite.
Where the fuck was he even at? Some obliterated and trashed city. He supposed he'd walked through too many of them to remember their names, there was no point in caring about where he was anymore. He was just aimlessly searching, searching for them-- for him. He wouldn't find them, he'd already realized this guiltily, cue the aforementioned apathy. He was nearing what looked like an old grocery store and he scowled at it from a slight distance away.
He held onto the strap of his rifle over his shoulder with one hand, he didn't have many bullets left but he carried it around anyhow. Call him sentimental, but the gun reminded him of a demolished home from years and years ago. He was adorned with a rough-looking leather jacket that he'd picked up a month or so ago. It had holes in the sleeves and a large slash up the back, but it also provided him comfort. He could swear he detected a bit of life within the Costco's windows, which made him squint. Ahh, another settlement. Yippee.
[b]he stumbled into faith and thought
[i] god, [glow=black,2,300]THIS IS ALL THERE IS?
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[i] god, [glow=black,2,300]THIS IS ALL THERE IS?
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