09-06-2019, 01:44 AM
When you were alone, you had a lot of time to think. And Louie was alone a lot. By choice, everyone here was just... intimidating. He was used to being around dangerous people, don't get him wrong. Derick, Susie, Cat, even the other cultists in Mourningstar. He wouldn't cross any of them in a million years, and they were his father, his best friend and brother. Now he was in a feral rat's nest - at least he had a pretty good idea of what his friend and fellow cultists had been capable of. There was no way to tell here. He just knew any one of them could kill him without so much as breaking a sweat.
But when you were alone, over analyzing every little thing, you started over analyzing just being alone too. Wondering what would happen if he did try to make friends - it wasn't like he wanted to be isolated. Well, he'd tried chatting with Addy, and look how that had gone. He'd blown his - and Cat's - biggest secret right out of the water, while drinking, and now Cat was mad at him and still hadn't forgiven him.
They probably weren't the only one that thought ill of him. Surely they all knew what a pathetic drunk he was, and that's if they didn't know he was an ex cultist still desperately following his false god around. Then he was a fucking fool, too. It probably wouldn't be that hard to find a reason to call him a coward, huh? After all, all these people scared him into hiding.
He wasn't hiding now, though. He was outside, sitting in the shade of an apple tree, picking at an ever-growing hole in the knee of his jeans.
But when you were alone, over analyzing every little thing, you started over analyzing just being alone too. Wondering what would happen if he did try to make friends - it wasn't like he wanted to be isolated. Well, he'd tried chatting with Addy, and look how that had gone. He'd blown his - and Cat's - biggest secret right out of the water, while drinking, and now Cat was mad at him and still hadn't forgiven him.
They probably weren't the only one that thought ill of him. Surely they all knew what a pathetic drunk he was, and that's if they didn't know he was an ex cultist still desperately following his false god around. Then he was a fucking fool, too. It probably wouldn't be that hard to find a reason to call him a coward, huh? After all, all these people scared him into hiding.
He wasn't hiding now, though. He was outside, sitting in the shade of an apple tree, picking at an ever-growing hole in the knee of his jeans.