GOT NOBODY 'CAUSE I'M BRAINDEAD ┆ 『 J 』

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So sacrifice yourself, and let me have what's left. I know that I can find the fire in your eyes, I'm going all the way. get away, please - You take the breath right out of me, You left a hole where my heart should be. You got to fight just to make it through, 'Cause I will be the death of you! This will be all over soon, Pour the salt into the open wound!

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BASICS .・゜゜・
J | Alias is "Gus" | Cisgender male, he/him
Age impossible to tell in disguise | Looks 30 out of disguise | Claims birthday is September 25th
Traveler | Former Badlands SHP | Former Group Of Captors leader
Currently disguised | Impossible to tell who he is
Speaks in a fairly low voice | Voice sometimes sounds strained
                                                                                                                 
APPEARANCE ・゜゜・．
★ 6'5, deathly thin. 120 LBS.
★ Disguised. Wears a sweater and a large maxi skirt, secured with a belt. Clothes are baggy and makes him look much bigger than he really is. Has gloves that cover his hands, and rubber boots that are very small compared to the rest of him. Boots have wood seemingly attached to bottom like one giant heel, making him appear 3 inches taller (so he therefore looks 6'8). Has hood always over his head and a baseball cap over his hair. Wears silly disguise glasses with shades to hide his eyes. Lips have a scarf around his mouth. All clothes lean to light colors besides silly disguise glasses. His boots and gloved hands make it clear he's smaller than he looks, so he tries to keep his hands in his pockets. Boots are stuffed with fluff from dog toys and teddy bears as to try and make them look bigger.
★ When out of disguise, he is albino, and has multiple sunburns and has happy red cheeks always spread from him grinning. He has elongated features, and his eyes are remarkably bright green, an unusual contrast to his chalk white skin. His hair is mostly faded green, his albino hair taking place where his bright green hair ysed to be, and the somewhat damaged looking hair is growing down to his shoulders. His clothes usually consist of t-shirts and shorts with tennis shoes and no socks, and he frequently has his nails painted. He is gaunt and bony, but doesn't seem affected in the least.
★ DISGUISE REFERENCE.
HEALTH: Always extremely hot even out of clothes, drinks water immensely. Has sunburns all along him. Has three teeth missing, one front, and two in the back. Covered in bruises. He has scars that move all down him, not a part of his body having less than four scars, and numerous look like it was from nails being dragged through the skin. Blind in left eye, which is still swollen and purple. Has flesh missing from right ear, hard of hearing on right side. His right heel is slightly shorter than his left and has issues walking, he tends to hobble and use something to support himself, and sometimes is limping entirely. His face is unrecognizable from bruises, instead of chalk-white skin, he's covered with purples and sickly browns, and he's in nonstop pain that is hard on him. Some of his skin on his cheek is ripped and missing, and is prone to infection. His left arm is broken, and his nose is broken as well. Has a healing stab wound in his side. Can't remember when he got said injuries. Needs intense rest, currently at his most vulnerable time. Suffers from PTSD.
                                                                                                                 
PERSONALITY .・゜゜・
★ Intelligent, manipulative, disarming, observant, analytical, silly, snarky, excitable, vengeful
★ Short-tempered, cautious, bitter, distrustful, jumpy, dangerous, thoughtful, emotional
★ Gaybirdâ„¢
                                                                                                                 
INTERACTION ・゜゜・．
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Graysexual + Demiromantic
No parents | Echo's adoptive brother(?) | Ana's adoptive father
½ Nothing | No crushes, not looking | Best friend is Johannes
Extreme physically | Hard mentally | Currently weakened
Experienced in battle | Attack in #732424
Relies off weapons and strategy | Fast-thinker, good at being on defensive
PERMISSION TO POWERPLAY PEACEFUL ACTIONS but will result in agitation
                                                                                                                 
INVENTORY .・゜゜・
★ Has three water bottles always filled, often seen drinking them
★ Carries a large branch straight from a tree to help him walk
★ No weapons as of now

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    HISTORY     

TW: VIOLENCE, CAPTIVITY, DEATH

It all started at Flintlock Lodge, an innocent man who could only remember the first letter of his name - J. He spoke of being attacked, and it showed with a stab wound in his shoulder and a broken arm - he had little ability to speak, and revealed an absence of memories. J borrowed Johannes spear so he could walk to the lodge, and his story began.

He was like a child, yet the fact that he was a full-grown adult made his inexperience and entirely toddler-like behaviors dangerous. Tantrums, curiosity, and overexcitement tended to lead to trouble. He had no intentions of harm, yet his curiosity of a weapon led to him unintentionally shooting the dog that belonged to Snowden. After dropping a knife into his own stomach trying to defend himself, Snowden took charge of making sure J knew how to use a gun properly, and teaching him. Yet in another incident, J shot past Win's ear. Each injury was resulted with pure and honest guilt on J's fault, at the time honest mistakes.

Time went on, and he was bonding with Johannes through the time. His curiosity, again, got the best of him, and it resulted in him slicing open a rabbit, separated from the other's, and named Brandy. It belonged to Johannes, and J remained oblivious to why his friend seemed upset, even after the event. He never found out why, and though he didn't understand whatsoever what the problem was, he felt awkward and out of place in the lodge. He found that he seemed to stir drama despite his intents, and J took it upon himself to leave.

In his attempt, he left a note, and was stopped by Johannes before he could properly "run away." His dark curiosities and his frightening tantrums faded away into nothing the more he learned, and he became a somewhat liked member of the lodge, and even got a pet dog named Baby. He became roommates with Daeeya and thought of Moksha as a friend, and J's innocent image instantly went downhill with him shooting Soldier-76, though it was a secret for a bit. J only grew more violent, his temper tantrums having never really taught him any lessons about remaining calm or having self-control.

He saw Brendan, a twelve-year-old, hitting Johannes with a stick during a meeting. Believing his friend to be in danger, he instantly took to shooting the child in the foot privately, careful to avoid the public eye, and warning him to stay away from Johannes, to hell with morals. However, in J's curiosity of the world, he got lost in The Badlands, and got his arm broken once again and a broken nose from Charlie. He returned back to Flintlock, exhausted, sickly, and slowly began to heal.

He made a promise with Johannes, a significant change in his life - to be his best friend. They made friendship bracelets for each other, and J was peaceful for a little while. However, Brendan opening up about who hurt him resulted in J's imprisonment, and his puppy was taken away from him. J didn't fully understand why he was beat up, and without explanation as to what he did wrong, with each attack that J considered unwarranted, he grew bitter - his morality was twisted, and he didn't understand what entirely it was that he did wrong.

Though he injured numerous people in his rage, one particular incident stood out to J amongst the rest. He remembers the injuries inflicted onto Rudolf, and though he didn't feel bad for hurting Rudolf entirely, he felt guilt upon seeing Johannes cry over him. J felt disgusted by himself, and asked Johannes how he felt afterwards by passing notes through the doorway.

J left by taking Dick hostage, walking away with a gun pointed to the man's head after sending a knife through Dick's knee. He left with memories that haunt him still. He joined The Badlands, meeting Charlie once more, and he readily began to challenge the apparent boss. Despite his challenging, he was eventually promoted to a position. J adopted a daughter, Ana, and though he is certainly not the best choice of a father, he tried his best. Joy didn't last long upon J helping Flintlock take Brendan back when the boy was captured to spite Charlie, meeting with them after being sent with a message by Charlie that Brendan would be exchanged for goods. Though it was unknown that he was at fault for the rescue, he did challenge Charlie at the meeting announcing it, resulting in a fight between the two privately. J was stripped of his rank, then and there.

He was put under watch, and upon J murdering the man who watched him, he hid his body and isolated himself. He was forced to interact upon being notified of the territory move, and he immediately lit his house on fire. The man burned too, and J saw this as the opportunity to peel the skin off of the man's finger and taste it, describing it as a quesadilla. He left The Badlands after that.

He wandered around for a bit, momentarily jumping into Northstar District, and then turning back to The Wolves. He met a man named Emmor in this time, and he instantly dubbed him as a friend. Friendship was met with J immediately trusting Emmor, and taking his word for it, including when the other told J that Johannes had died. Informed that it was the doing of the Lodge itself, J grew mad with grief and hatred, and instantly, he began to plan for days on what he'd do to remove Flintlock, and also The Badlands, from the world.

And so, The Group of Captors was invented. J ordered the mass capturing of numerous, and he became the commander of it all, recruiting people to work for him and hurting more and more. He stripped people of their humanity, left Flintlock leaderless, and tortured many Badlanders as well as Northstar District. Among this bunch was Sheogorath, an old friend from The Badlands, and he was called brother by the other. J's trust and stability was shaky, with Emmor disappearing after giving him the news of his closest friend's death, and he made Sheogorath a captive too. He regretted his decisions, but what was done was done, J even branding the other.

J, in this time, did manage to bond with one. He took to taking Echo under his wing, and treated the child carefully. He found no fault in them, and J tried to guide the child as best as he could, even through the murder and capturing.

All things came to an end. When The Group of Captors began to pack and prepare to set off after a few escapees, a raid moved into their territory. J swung a grenade in the direction of the attackers, before making his mistake after ordering those he recruited to kill as many of the captives as they could. He returned back to one of J's shelters, a carnival, and he found a letter froM Johannes, revealing he was alive.

J was attacked some time after reading it, and he was taken to a lake.

A NEW CHAPTER
His "death" was vague, most of it a hallucination, but whatever happened, he didn't go unscathed. He awoke to someone healing a stab wound in his side, a newly blind eye, hearing issues, a worsened walking problem, and for old times sake, a broken arm and nose. He had bunches of new scars that looked to be from nails, and his face and arms were unrecognizable from bruises.