04-21-2020, 05:44 PM
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word count: 806
tw: swearing, violence, mentions of drowning
how does it feel to be submerged?
seora was perched on the edge of the diving board. she took a deep breath, and positioned her arms in front of her. she pushed off, seeing the plastic blue come closer, closer..until she broke right through.
entering a body of water wasn't always like breaking a seal. sometimes, it was merely an extension of the air. other times, it was like crashing on to the sharp, jagged rocks that jutted out from the bottom of a cliff.
"the neighbor's kid's mom came over."
seora didn't hear her. this was her favorite movie.
"hey. listen."
"what?!" she turned to her sister angrily, but started giggling as soon as she saw her face.
"seora, this is serious! why the fuck did you do that?"
he called her a slut. he said she would never get married, and that he was certain the next time he saw her she would be drowning in a ditch.
and all of that after she threw the baseball back and missed. so seora took his bat and used it until there was blood all over the sidewalk.
"did what?"
"oh my god, fuck you. you know how mad dad is already. do you want to die?"
"he called me a whore. what did you want me to do?"
"ignore him, idiot! what happened to you? who's teaching you all of this? you used to be so nice!"
"i am nice!" she huffed. "i'm the nicest person on the block."
seora crossed her arms and paced back and forth.
"watch this." her friend threw something into the air and caught it in her mouth. seora gave a sniff in acknowledgement.
"what's wrong?"
"it's so cold out here. i wanna go back to bed."
"seriously?"
she frowned. "yeah. you're the one who dragged me out here in the first place!"
her friend looked dumbfounded for a second, then turned away with a dramatic roll of her eyes. "whatever."
seora held her ground for a second or two before dropping her hands to her sides. "wait. i didn't mean it like that." she wished she could help the quiver in her voice. "what did you want to show me?"
her friend stood up and gripped her shoulders. she could feel her nails make imprints in her skin, but she was too scared to move.
"i saw you."
"what?" her life was on public display. everyone saw her do things that she didn't seem to see her do herself.
"you!" she laughed humorlessly. "god, you're such a-"
"what? what?!" her voice turned more shrill now. seora didn't understand. no, she did, but didn't everyone? is that what her sister was talking about? is that why her dad was so mad? she was her friend, that was all. everyone behaved like that with their friends. "what are you talking about? what did i do?" she felt thorns pricking at the back of her throat. seorae knew what she did. it was okay, though? it was okay!
dad's going to kill you.
i'm going to kill you.
seora let her limbs untangle. the sound of emptiness no longer plagued the room.
she untied her hair so she could see it flow in front of her face, then separated it like a curtain.
"why are we here, dad?" she smiled up at him in an attempt to get him to turn. but his gaze forward was steadfast.
she knew she was in trouble, that was all. but here, on a bridge, in the middle of the night? maybe they would get away with a nice one-sided father-daughter talk. maybe-
"DAD!" she didn't know why she called for him when he was the one that pushed her off. the scream was forced out of her faster than she could think.
seora crashed through the seal. she couldn't see anything - not the bridge, nor her dad standing on top of it. she tried to hold on to something, but everything was slipping out of her grasp. she could feel something pulling at her, though, so she tried to push it and the foliage blocking her view away until she could see.
"dad! dad!" she could make out the bridge. something pulled her back down again and masked the rest of her shrieks. "i'm sorry, appa! i won't do it again!" she pushed and shoved and bit and punched. "please-" something kept pulling her down and she knew she was sobbing but the same something was wiping off her tears. she wanted to cry. she couldn't feel her face. she wished she could yell but the same something had a cloth tied around her mouth and was pulling back - hard.
when she broke through the surface, the lights of the gym were blaring into her eyes. but seora could look away if she wanted to.
word count: 806
tw: swearing, violence, mentions of drowning
how does it feel to be submerged?
seora was perched on the edge of the diving board. she took a deep breath, and positioned her arms in front of her. she pushed off, seeing the plastic blue come closer, closer..until she broke right through.
entering a body of water wasn't always like breaking a seal. sometimes, it was merely an extension of the air. other times, it was like crashing on to the sharp, jagged rocks that jutted out from the bottom of a cliff.
"the neighbor's kid's mom came over."
seora didn't hear her. this was her favorite movie.
"hey. listen."
"what?!" she turned to her sister angrily, but started giggling as soon as she saw her face.
"seora, this is serious! why the fuck did you do that?"
he called her a slut. he said she would never get married, and that he was certain the next time he saw her she would be drowning in a ditch.
and all of that after she threw the baseball back and missed. so seora took his bat and used it until there was blood all over the sidewalk.
"did what?"
"oh my god, fuck you. you know how mad dad is already. do you want to die?"
"he called me a whore. what did you want me to do?"
"ignore him, idiot! what happened to you? who's teaching you all of this? you used to be so nice!"
"i am nice!" she huffed. "i'm the nicest person on the block."
seora crossed her arms and paced back and forth.
"watch this." her friend threw something into the air and caught it in her mouth. seora gave a sniff in acknowledgement.
"what's wrong?"
"it's so cold out here. i wanna go back to bed."
"seriously?"
she frowned. "yeah. you're the one who dragged me out here in the first place!"
her friend looked dumbfounded for a second, then turned away with a dramatic roll of her eyes. "whatever."
seora held her ground for a second or two before dropping her hands to her sides. "wait. i didn't mean it like that." she wished she could help the quiver in her voice. "what did you want to show me?"
her friend stood up and gripped her shoulders. she could feel her nails make imprints in her skin, but she was too scared to move.
"i saw you."
"what?" her life was on public display. everyone saw her do things that she didn't seem to see her do herself.
"you!" she laughed humorlessly. "god, you're such a-"
"what? what?!" her voice turned more shrill now. seora didn't understand. no, she did, but didn't everyone? is that what her sister was talking about? is that why her dad was so mad? she was her friend, that was all. everyone behaved like that with their friends. "what are you talking about? what did i do?" she felt thorns pricking at the back of her throat. seorae knew what she did. it was okay, though? it was okay!
dad's going to kill you.
i'm going to kill you.
seora let her limbs untangle. the sound of emptiness no longer plagued the room.
she untied her hair so she could see it flow in front of her face, then separated it like a curtain.
"why are we here, dad?" she smiled up at him in an attempt to get him to turn. but his gaze forward was steadfast.
she knew she was in trouble, that was all. but here, on a bridge, in the middle of the night? maybe they would get away with a nice one-sided father-daughter talk. maybe-
"DAD!" she didn't know why she called for him when he was the one that pushed her off. the scream was forced out of her faster than she could think.
seora crashed through the seal. she couldn't see anything - not the bridge, nor her dad standing on top of it. she tried to hold on to something, but everything was slipping out of her grasp. she could feel something pulling at her, though, so she tried to push it and the foliage blocking her view away until she could see.
"dad! dad!" she could make out the bridge. something pulled her back down again and masked the rest of her shrieks. "i'm sorry, appa! i won't do it again!" she pushed and shoved and bit and punched. "please-" something kept pulling her down and she knew she was sobbing but the same something was wiping off her tears. she wanted to cry. she couldn't feel her face. she wished she could yell but the same something had a cloth tied around her mouth and was pulling back - hard.
when she broke through the surface, the lights of the gym were blaring into her eyes. but seora could look away if she wanted to.
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