DO I AFRAID YOU ? | open, reading

[OLLIE.]

[align=center][div style="borderwidth; width: 500px; padding: 1px; text-align: justify; line-height: 15px; font-size: 9.5pt; font-family:timesnewroman"]believe it or not, angel craves a happy ending.

when she's younger, a lot of her free time indoors is dedicated to the trashy novels that her mother forgets to stowaway, some that she goes to reread if she's finished them all. they all had a reoccurring theme: the 'i'm-not-like-other-girls' protagonist charms the enigmatic bad boy of her school ( or workplace. it's a case of insta-love , where they find themselves addicted to each other without any proper development. often a good girl , the girl's ambitions are thrown out to fix the broken man of her dreams. angel could say she couldn't ever imagine throwing everything away from a man who doesn't have her best interests at heart , but it'd be foolish to ignore how she'd let kimberly bennett push her limits beyond the various 'no's'. that, the girl hadn't tried to kill her she'd still be there trying to repair a soul unable to be fixed. kimberly chose her path, and not even the one she claimed to be her best friend and sometimes even the love of her life could change that.

she should be less optimistic , leave those trashy novels as only a self-reflection of where she went wrong , as warning signs.  what not to go for , per say. she should do all of that and yet , she doesn't. she does it all over again , becomes infatuated with an individual the carbon copy of kimberly bennett , even shared the same deep-rooted blue of her eyes. she couldn't say she was in love , the her flirtatious quips becoming something more of a game to her than anything else , but there was something familiar about being around cat. something that warned her off and yet , there she was falling into her habits like it was something that she'd never considered to stop. she should turn all eyes away from that kind of 'familiarity' , but what she should do only made her crave it more. was it due to these trashy romance novels , skewing her perception of love with its relationships full of passion , lust , and handcuffs ? maybe. but what's the harm in it other than a near death experience ?

she's reunited with it again , her fifty shades of grey book in hand. there was something delinquent about a girl who read rather than wreak havoc , even when she's more than capable to. she's bundled in a sweater, her eyes scanning the pages , mouthing the words as she goes along. the casino is fairly busy , as it always is as it's the hangout spot , and yet she manages to drown it all out. it's something you pick up when you're around two siblings who sing duets , something that couldn't easily be barricaded by thin walls of a trailer. revisiting this book became more than just it's steamy sessions , it was about taking her back. about how her mom laughed , rather than yelled when she found it stuffed between angel's mattress. it was almost. . . nostalgic, in a way.

[CATALYST]

Angel might have been surprised to find out that when they were younger, books consumed them. With no friends, no electronics, there hadn't been much else to do. The books had been an escape for them, though, something to take them away from the world they were stuck in. They'd never picked up a trashy romance and read between the pages; or even picked it up. Books of fantasy and action and adventure were what had captured their attention, later turning into more academic books at Derick's recommendation.

They went to the casino to be found, to socialize with their groupmates but perhaps more than anything else... learn about them. How people acted around their vices - be it drinking or gambling - could be incredibly telling, and there was just something comfortably familiar about the bustle. It reminded them of Susie's bar, minus the girl that had gone from the best part of the bar to the worst. No, actually, that was still the moonshine. But in any case, Cat liked coming here to observe.

And there was Angel, reading a book. They knew they shouldn't approach her, shouldn't show any sort of interest in her (lest Gav become upset with them again or she take it as a reason to keep flirting) but they couldn't help but be curious. What was she reading? Ugh, fuck it. They walked over to her, drink in hand (non alcoholic, not that anyone beside the bartender would know) and bent down, trying to get a glimpse of the cover. Did they say anything? No, of course not.

[spoiler=IF YOU DONT KNOW NOW YOU KNOW && INFO && 04/27/19]GENERAL  welcome to the end of eras, ice has melted back to life
⇥ Given name is Scott Mathew Darrow ⇥ Goes only by Catalyst or Cat
⇥ Assigned male at birth ⇥ Agender ⇥ They/Them pronouns only
⇥ Twenty-one ⇥ Born 11/27/17 ⇥ Sagittarius ⇥ Real time aging
⇥ Boss (leader) of the Badlands ⇥ Ex prisoner of the Badlands
⇥ Ex cultist (Mourningstar) ⇥ Ex member of the Young Rogues

RECENT EVENTS  done my time and served my sentence
⇥ 04/20/39 ⇥ Released Northstar from Badlands occupation
⇥ 04/16/39 ⇥ Was saved by Sheogorath
⇥ 04/15/39 ⇥ Took the Badlands brand
⇥ 04/08/39 ⇥ Had a huge fight with Molly

APPEARANCE  dress me up and watch me die
⇥ Catalyst is 6'2" tall; they possess a lean and muscular body, one that has a variety of old scars adorning it. One of the easiest to notice is one that stretches down their right cheek. While not a scar, one very notable marking on their chest is the "BL" brand. They have two piercings, one in their tongue and the other in the cartilage of their left ear. They typically dress in dark colors (favoring jackets with some sort of writing on the back), and their hair is black. They're not all dark, however, as they have pale blue eyes that peer out from beneath medium-sized eyebrows.

PERSONALITY  if it feels good, tastes good, it must be mine
⇥ Catalyst is ambitious, with the cunning and ruthlessness to reach their goals by any means necessary. They can be brutal when they feel it is needed, however when it's not they won't bother. They tend to be rather aloof and apathetic to most things and people, with some very rare exceptions. Provided those around them don't cross a few specific lines, they're content to leave them be, though they've been known to take an interest in some people, which seldom has a positive end for whoever their interest is in. They can be manipulative, and will often encourage people to make bad decisions. Those that stick by them will be rewarded, but those that do not will be cast out, as they've been outcast for their entire life and have learned to appreciate loyalty wherever they can find it. Even during the most stressful of situations, they usually keep a firm grip on their temper and keep their calm, though when they do snap and lose their temper, it is uncontrollable. They're remarkably observant, often able to deign much from subtle clues in what people say, how they say it and how they act.

RELATIONS  dynasty decapitated, you just might see a ghost tonight
⇥ Molly Darrow x Austin Darrow ⇥ No siblings
⇥ Adopted parent of Molly Valentina Darrow-Lupei (Mo)
⇥ Pansexual/Panromantic ⇥ Very much taken ⇥ One Crush
⇥ Not looking but it happened ⇥ Rarely forms romantic attachment
⇥ Holds most people at arms length and doesn't get close

INTERACTION  i'm taking back the c r o w n
⇥ Hard physically ⇥ Hard mentally ⇥ Doesn't let their guard down
⇥ Is most comfortable with close ranged-weapons ⇥ Dislikes guns
⇥ Brass knuckles ⇥ A variety of knives ⇥ Carries a handgun
⇥ Will kill/capture/maim in certain circumstances
⇥ Will leave things be in others ⇥ Will start & finish fights
⇥ No kill/capture/maim without permission
⇥ Peaceful powerplay allowed but they may react negatively
⇥ Dislikes almost any sort of touch unless they initiate or agree to it
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[OLLIE.]

[align=center][div style="width: 500px; text-align: justify; font-family: arial; font-size: 9pt; line-height: 1.2;"]tw mention of sex.

first they're not there , then they are.

since the meeting , she hasn't spoken to them much . she'd tend to her own devices , raiding vintage bookstores and vintage in general, punching at bags as if she has much skill in hand-to-hand combat. sure, she's okay at it, but she'd imagine that those who are good, are better. she never had to worry until now about the possibility of kicking someone's ass alone. she'd always been with kim, with her group. she should change that, she thinks. she thought about submitting , asking michael. but she hadn't seen him around , either. oh well , she'd do that when the opportunity arose. she didn't feel like putting in her efforts anyway. all of the time punching that bag was to release all her emotions in a healthy manner. as if she knows anything about that.

they say nothing , and for a moment neither does she. her eyes flutter between them , to the book , to the drink in hand. she knows they're curious about the book they have in hand , and she's curious about the drink. she's still embarrassed to be caught in the act , of reading this book. not only was it the fantasy of teenage girls who knew nothing about sex , but also lonely moms who were bored of her husbands. she was not a teenager nor was she a lonely mother ( as she assumes her mother had been ) , and yet she unironically read the book as if it were some masterpiece. she doesn't care much for the characters. anastasia steele 'oh my's' it up a total of 72 times in counting and somehow has never took a sex ed class in middle school. she was stupid upon comprehension and yet , when it comes to their attempt to fix . . . things , fix people , their brain cells somehow correlate.

[color=#990000]"what's in your cup?" she inquires , pointing to the glass. she knows she can't stall any longer and so , putting her thumb between the page she is currently on , she flips it to its cover. fuck it. why did she care so much? "50 shades of grey," she introduces. turning it over to the synopsis of the back , her eyes scan over it before she begins to read melodramatically , "... desire for christian grey still dominates her every waking thought, and when he proposes a new arrangement ana cannot resist. they rekindle their searing sensual affair, and ana learns more about the harrowing past of her damaged, driven, and demanding fifty shades—" then normal voice. "hey kinda sound like you." a teasing smile quirks on the edge of her lips before she opens the book once more , continuing to reread yet. hey , another 'oh my'. classic anastasia steele.

[CATALYST]

//tw for violence

In their teenage years, they never had backup, even when surrounded by numerous "friends". It was those "friends" - really cultists - that got them into the fights, that stood on the sidelines while they were either pummeled or did the pummeling. Somehow, it had been safer to walk alone than with companions, but these days the reverse as true. They had enemies, enemies that would gladly put a bullet in their skull if they weren't careful.

"Wouldn't you like to know?" No one would ever be getting answers to what was in their glass, not from Catalyst themself nor the man that had gotten them the drink. Except maybe Gavril. That was it. They listen to her read with a face that was void of expression aside from a raised eyebrow. "I think that says more about you than me, but okay." What the hell did they know about Christian Grey anyway? Just what she told them, and honestly, that was more than enough.

[spoiler=IF YOU DONT KNOW NOW YOU KNOW && INFO && 05/05/19]GENERAL  welcome to the end of eras, ice has melted back to life
⇥ Given name is Scott Mathew Darrow ⇥ Goes only by Catalyst or Cat
⇥ Assigned male at birth ⇥ Agender ⇥ They/Them pronouns only
⇥ Twenty-one ⇥ Born 11/27/17 ⇥ Sagittarius ⇥ Real time aging
⇥ Boss (leader) of the Badlands ⇥ Ex prisoner of the Badlands
⇥ Ex cultist (Mourningstar) ⇥ Ex member of the Young Rogues

RECENT EVENTS  done my time and served my sentence
⇥ 04/20/39 ⇥ Released Northstar from Badlands occupation
⇥ 04/16/39 ⇥ Was saved by Sheogorath
⇥ 04/15/39 ⇥ Took the Badlands brand

APPEARANCE  dress me up and watch me die
⇥ Catalyst is 6'2" tall; they possess a lean and muscular body, one that has a variety of old scars adorning it. One of the easiest to notice is one that stretches down their right cheek. While not a scar, one very notable marking on their chest is the "BL" brand. They have two piercings, one in their tongue and the other in the cartilage of their left ear. They typically dress in dark colors (favoring jackets with some sort of writing on the back), and their hair is black. They're not all dark, however, as they have pale blue eyes that peer out from beneath medium-sized eyebrows.

PERSONALITY  if it feels good, tastes good, it must be mine
⇥ Catalyst is ambitious, with the cunning and ruthlessness to reach their goals by any means necessary. They can be brutal when they feel it is needed, however when it's not they won't bother. They tend to be rather aloof and apathetic to most things and people, with some very rare exceptions. Provided those around them don't cross a few specific lines, they're content to leave them be, though they've been known to take an interest in some people, which seldom has a positive end for whoever their interest is in. They can be manipulative, and will often encourage people to make bad decisions. Those that stick by them will be rewarded, but those that do not will be cast out, as they've been outcast for their entire life and have learned to appreciate loyalty wherever they can find it. Even during the most stressful of situations, they usually keep a firm grip on their temper and keep their calm, though when they do snap and lose their temper, it is uncontrollable. They're remarkably observant, often able to deign much from subtle clues in what people say, how they say it and how they act.

RELATIONS  dynasty decapitated, you just might see a ghost tonight
⇥ Molly Darrow x Austin Darrow ⇥ No siblings
⇥ Adopted parent of Molly Valentina Darrow-Lupei (Mo)
⇥ Pansexual/Panromantic ⇥ Very much taken ⇥ One Crush
⇥ Not looking but it happened ⇥ Rarely forms romantic attachment
⇥ Holds most people at arms length and doesn't get close

INTERACTION  i'm taking back the c r o w n
⇥ Hard physically ⇥ Hard mentally ⇥ Doesn't let their guard down
⇥ Is most comfortable with close ranged-weapons ⇥ Dislikes guns
⇥ Brass knuckles ⇥ A variety of knives ⇥ Carries a handgun
⇥ Will kill/capture/maim in certain circumstances
⇥ Will leave things be in others ⇥ Will start & finish fights
⇥ No kill/capture/maim without permission
⇥ Peaceful powerplay allowed but they may react negatively
⇥ Dislikes almost any sort of touch unless they initiate or agree to it
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