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| [/table] everything had happened so fast. it was all a blur to aika as he rested his forehead against the cold slab of concrete. the divider between the innocent teens and their old world- their lives, future, and salvation. suddenly all of those seemed to cease to exist. they no longer had lives because they were now in barren land; there was no future because they wouldn’t be able to last long; there was no salvation because there was nothing to grant them refuge in the first place.
it’s okay. the words made him want to laugh. [b]“you say that, but do you believe it?†nothing was okay. nothing would ever be okay. couldn’t rui see that? he turned his gaze away from the other male. the more he stared, the more he realized how he’d completely ruined the other boy’s life. it was a hard fact to come to terms with. he couldn’t tell him that it wasn’t okay. so instead, shuffling to have his back against the concrete slab, he stared blankly ahead at the foreign wasteland.
so this was going to be their home, now... was it going to be their home, or was it going to be their final resting place? a barren land, with nowhere the receive rations for the day, nowhere to get water. how on earth were they going to survive? he swallowed hard as his teary eyes took everything in. scum. that’s what they’d become, and aika knew that rui shouldn’t be out here, scum of the earth. what had he done?
â€Âaika, the stars.†his gaze lifted up towards the sky, and the specks of light in the sky didn’t hold the same miraculous finding as they had, before. it felt almost taunting for them to still be there, up in the sky without a care. he’d risked everything to go and see the stars- so he lost everything and the stars still remained. what a sick, cruel twist of fate.
was it even worth it? he didn’t want to answer the thought. instead, he gently lifted his hand up to the sky, like he had before, as if the flaming stars were just out of reach. while before they’d felt attainable, now they felt even further away. he lowered his hand back to the ground.
soon the other was resting his head against his shoulder, and aika had then to think of an answer to that soft question. aika had always had an imagination, a mind that liked to wander. surely he could come up with a reasonable answer for rui. his throat tightened, staring up at the stars as if they had an answer up there waiting for him. nothing in the papers prepared him for this sort of moment, really...
but making something up to assure rui. that was the least he could do, even if the other caught on that it was only pretend. he shifted just slightly, turning his gaze to the mop of hair that was on his shoulders. but then the other male buried his face against his neck, sobbing softly against the pale expanse of skin.
turning to face the other, he wrapped an arm around the other’s back, gently tangling his fingers in rui’s hair. “sh.. sh…†he gently assured, because he wasn’t sure what else he could possibly say. instead, he held onto rui, silently wishing that he could be strong enough for rui. if he was scared, it would only frighten rui more. so, after a few moments of silence, he eventually spoke.
“our ancestors used to travel from place to place, y’know.†ancestors. like aika could ever even trace his lineage to figure out who they were… “they’d go from one society to another. called nomads.†the stars still reflected in those beautiful eyes as they stared skyward.. it was still so beautiful. watery eyes blinked away tears, willing them down. “so we’ll do that. we’ll be nomads.†they didn’t have much of a choice in the matter, it seemed.
he leaned towards rui, nuzzling his face against the other boy’s hair. “there’s something out here. we just have to find it, yeah? we’ll get to see other forests, and these big giant rocks called mountains, and large puddles of water called oceans. we’ll find all of it.â€Â
his gaze turned away from rui and to the sky. “maybe we’ll even make it to the stars.â€Â
/ i thought it was great babe! i didn’t really give you much to reply to! so i’m surprised you even wrote so much so well ^^
i’m going to adopt him. he will be mine. i’ll squish his cheeks and give him brownies
omg rui brings it up later and there’s aika like “oh… i forgot what it meant haha…. don’t know where i was going with that…â€Â
they’re constantly paranoid about the civilizations and their paranoia gets the best of them a lot )):
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it was hard for rui to believe in anything at this point, nonetheless a few words he had muttered in an attempt to ease the pain. but, even so, there was truth behind the words; if he didn't mean it, he wouldn't have said anything to begin with. "there's no use in blaming anyone now," he sighed, both physical and emotional exhaustion beginning to take a toll on him. his words were true, though. they were stuck together now, and they couldn't do anything to change that. they might as well embrace it while they're still together. "it's okay, aika. really."
rui carefully watched the other's movements as he reached for the stars once more, only this time it was so much... sadder. there was no joy in his eyes, but rather an expression of loss, defeat; something that rui never thought he'd see in the other. it was disheartening, really, to see the one person who he always knew had a spark in his eyes look so dull.
and even when his fingers tangled themselves in his hair, a gesture of comfort that he had grown quite familiar with through the years, it still wasn't right. he knew that akia was wounded from this, even if he would never admit it. he cried harder into his skin, unable to stop the tears from flowing. sobbing wouldn't open the wall back, he knew this, but the tidal wave of emotions that had built up over the night decided to pour out all at once.
after a few moments, he was able to calm down. swiping at the remnants of tears on his cheeks, he turned away from akia's neck, instead focusing his gaze ahead of him. a shaky exhale escaped him as he drew his legs closer to his chest. "sorry." he muttered, sniffing once before closing his eyes.
as the other began to speak, things started to feel a little familiar. with his eyes shut, there was no stretch of unknown land before him, only darkness. akia's voice filled his ears, and if he squeezed his eyes hard enough, he could imagine that they were back outside of his house only an hour or so ago. his house, with all of his things, memories, that he'll never see again. rui sighed.
akia's abundance of knowledge truly fascinated rui. he was aware of how much the other enjoyed learning about the world beyond, but he never took much thought to it. now, as they find themselves apart of the beyond, he couldn't help but be grateful for his friend's intelligence. he didn't give him enough credit.
the idea of more than just this wasteland beyond them seemed unrealistic. it seemed as though there would be nothing but dirt and dead trees in their surroundings for whatever time they had left. regardless, the other's touch and words brought comfort to rui, even if he still struggled to muster up a smile. in a way, the warm feeling rui had experienced back in the clearing had returned. his cheeks burned in the slightest, accompanied by akia's close proximity, but it wasn't the same. it was sadder, and somehow, lonelier.
"where did you find all of this out?" the brunette spoke softly, "i mean, you know so much. oh-seens?" he tripped over the unfamiliar word, knitting his eyebrows in confusion. "do you really think we can find them?"
rui pressed against the other's touch, feeling a need to get closer for whatever reason. he blamed it on his poor mental state. "back there," the brunette started, unsure of how to properly iterate his feelings. "at the stars. did you feel it too?" rui looked down at his hands, picking away at the caked dirt from his fall. he huffed in frustration, wrapping his arms back around his knees. "that feeling? i don't really know what i'm saying, but it was weird. and i-i don't know. just ignore me."
[b]/ ok i didn't want to end it here but i cannot write anymore. i have officially burned out. only five posts in
aww omg ): pls he probably doesnt even know what brownies are.
SJHJSHGJH i started to introduce that maybe idk its kind of annoying but we can just have them. talk abt it so its on their minds maybe u can also totally forget that part if u want idk
but after their discussion we should probably have them sleep or smth. wake up still close tgt and just <3 aw
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| [/table] usually aika could make the best out of most situations. there were many times where he could look rui in the eyes and know that he was anxious, and scared to do the things they were doing. without fear, he could take the other’s hands in his and assure that everything was going to be fine; maybe tell a few cheesy jokes, recount a few far-fetched tales he’s ready up on before. he’d tell him about everything he’d seen to try and lighten the other’s mood. to make rui feel happy again.
in this moment, though, as he held rui close, he knew there was nothing that he could do or say to cheer rui up. the other male seemed absolutely broken, and aika knew deep down that they both acknowledged it was all his fault. who had been the one to tap the other’s window with rocks? who had been the one to grab rui’s hand and pull him where others had never gone, before?
[b]“don’t be sorry,†he whispered softly, closing his eyes for a moment and just taking the moment in. really, the reality of it all hadn’t hit him. he wanted to cry, but he was so shocked that he couldn’t get a word out. after a few moments, though, he settled for softly asking, “do you regret it? … sneaking around with me. do you regret it?â€Â
it was a question that had been on his mind ever since they were forced out- even a ways before then, too. sometimes he felt like he could see the regret in rui’s eyes, both wishing that he didn’t do it, but fearing that he’d miss out if he didn’t. had aika always forced him to come along?
he closed his eyes, then, trying to calm his own nerves. he decided that if one of them had to take the lead, he’d be the one that’d have to do it. rui didn’t have as much knowledge about the outside world as aika did-- or, though he did… his eyes wandered around the barren wasteland. what if everyone was right? what if everything those people talked about in those papers didn’t exist anymore? what if there really was nothing here but dirt and lack of life. he swallowed hard as the other asked the same question he feared. did he really think they could find them?
“of course we’ll find them,†he murmured, feeling his lips pull into a soft smile as he ruffled the other’s hair. “i found this all out from those papers. i’ve-- read about them so much. they have to be out there.†rui had read the papers, too- just not nearly as many as aika had. the taller male seemed to have become mildly obsessive over those papers, and the world beyond their world.
as if the other’s questions hadn’t been prodding enough. then the other was talking about feelings, emotions that aika had once felt confident to speak about. he opened his eyes and stared up at the sky, furrowing his brows in contemplation. should he tell rui what that feeling was? especially since it seemed to be a mutual feeling?
but, for once, aika felt it. fear. it was almost a foreign feeling to the brunet. it went right to his core, though, his heart. “i don’t know, either.†he answered shortly, turning his gaze to watch the other wrap his arms around his legs. “or- i do know-- i mean-- we can talk about it some other time.†that’s what he settled on saying, too scared of being rejected to say much else. underneath the discovery of the stars, he’d felt so confident. invincible. now, in this world, he felt so… weak and vulnerable. he couldn’t say it, not now.
shifting, he laid his head back against the wall, holding the other loosely in his arms. sleep gripped at him. and he was sure he could hear the other talking, but it gentle background noise to his current, tired state. with his eyes closed, he finally caved in to his exhaustion and fell asleep to gently stroking the other’s hair.
///rip it was good for the first five posts ha i’m jk
and adsfjkladf i will make him brownies and he will feel blessed mkay
asdfjklasfd aika?? actually being a coward for once??? not very likely but it happened
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does he regret it? "no," he answered without hesitation, shaking his head before sinking further against the wall. "why would you even ask that?" rui sniffed, crossing his arms. asking such a question was pointless; there was hardly a meaningful memory of rui's that didn't involve the other male. asking if he regretted the time they spent together was like asking if he regretted all of his life decisions.
aika was the only semblance of family rui had in his life. the few years the brunette had spent with his legitimate family were now distant memories, holding no true significance to his life. there were times where he pondered what life would be like if he had stuck with them, but these moments of contemplation were useless; he couldn't go back, especially now.
instead, his childhood was filled with a curious boy who never gave up on him. filled with late nights sitting criss crossed on cold floors, whispering words that would never be said otherwise. memories of secretly exchanging food under the table because rui hated potatoes but loved apples. even the most basic parts of his day were always accompanied with thoughts of the other male - it was hard to imagine what his life would be like without aika because there wouldn't be anything to begin with.
"why else would i have stuck around this long?" rui sighed, looking over to the other only to be met with closed eyes. he turned his gaze away once again, his own eyes beginning to droop shut. "you know me better than anyone, a. think about it."
and it was true. rui was apprehensive enough on his own - it had taken months for him to say more than a few words at a time to akia, not to mention other people. once the pair had found each other, rui no longer felt the need to deal with others. there was one person who was willing to listen to him, and he felt that was enough.
although, as time passed, rui grew comfortable in the silence. knowing that there was always someone to confide in was a comforting thought, but a majority of the time, it was the other way around. anything from akia excitedly sharing something new he had read from a paper he "accidentally" carried along with him, a glint in his eyes the brunette had never seen before to something as simple as hearing about the ins and outs of the other's day. rui appreciated it for what it was, and part of him never wanted that dynamic of theirs to dissipate.
given this, it wasn't difficult for rui to recognize when the other was upset. while akia may not outwardly show it in the ways that he does, there were still certain things that the brunette could see through, no matter how much akia may try to hide it. "don't be so hard on yourself, aika, okay?" he muttered, settling in further against the other male. "promise me that much."
hearing the other's own exhaustion through his words prompted rui to reply with a mere "okay." it was clear that they wouldn't be getting much further on this topic, and given the current situation, the brunette felt no need to push. if anything, rui was going to keep that moment to himself for now. it had been so special, so unique and something he knew he'd treasure for however long he had left, even if there was no solid explanation behind it. if i die in my sleep, he thought to himself right as he began to drift off, at least i saw the stars.
...
rui awoke to a comforting warmth enveloping him. his back ached from his poor sleeping posture, but the presence of the other male beside him provided enough to compensate. the events of the night prior hadn't fully come back to him yet, but for this he was grateful; knowing what the future had in store for them, he could seriously use a few more minutes of peace.
he kept his eyes closed in hopes that sleep would take reign over him once more, only to be distracted by a...sniffing? sound. rui turned into akia, thinking that the other male was responsible for the suspicious sound, but to no avail. he frowned, turning away and willing the sound away.
when a few more moments passed without any success, the brunette took a deep breath, trying his best to ignore the newly ignited pit of anxiety in his stomach. counting down in his head, rui braced himself for whatever may be beside him, opening only one eye once he reached the end.
"oh- oh my god!" rui screamed as his eyes widened, scrambling away from akia and the- the thing, as quickly as possible. this was it, he decided. they had barely lasted a day and now they were going to die. way to go. he fell backwards, falling back on his elbows as the creature pounced on him, immediately attacking him with its tongue.
the brunette winced as the assaults kept coming, trying his best to inch away, only to be tackled by the beast. its weight was bored into his ribs, knocking the air out of him. "a-a-" he started, only to cut himself off with a gag as the thing licked into his mouth. rui turned his head to the side to avoid anymore unwanted mouth-to-mouth, coughing out a weak "aika!" in hopes that the other would hear.
[b]/ ok but actually i was doing pretty good and now there's this. im rly sorry
LMAOO i just had to have a dog come i hope thats ok....... i wanted a chicken maybe but idk i really wanted the Scrambling away and then aika laughing his ass off seeing him like that
we can abandon the dog later nbd i just rlly....needed to see this
ALSO i would've gotten this up sooner but i got distracted by watching olympic highlights sjsfhjsfh sorry
tell akia i lov him...and its ok to show his emotions........pls
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― it can't run anywhere except where its rails take it.
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| [/table] there had been a lot on a’s mind as he drifted into an uneasy sleep that first night. rui had told him not to be so hard on himself, but he knew it was easier said than done. there was nobody else to be so hard on; rui had merely been a boy following after his best friend. if aika hadn’t come into his life, then rui would most definitely still be in those walls. he wouldn’t know about the stars, or the papers, or the world outside of here. he’d just know that their world in the walls were perfect, and that was all he’d ever need to know.
he had fallen asleep with his arms resting around rui, not wanting to let go of the only thing he really had left in this world. when he’d woken up, he had been started awake by absolute fear of the worst- because the warmth of the other was gone, and rui was instead shrieking in horror. [b]“what? what?†he startled awake, standing up and eyes immediately settling on this big hairy beast looming over rui, aggressively attacking him with his tongue. he gazed at the sight and then- then he burst into soft laughter at the sight. “oh my god. rui.â€Â
aika had never seen one in real life, before. he watched as the animal licked the other boy before walking over, heaving the dog with a grunt up and off of his friend. “wow. they’re softer than i thought,†he remarked, kneeling down to the dog’s level. he ran a hand along the animal’s hair - fur, and then softly laughed. “aw. why would you be scared of this cute li’l guy?â€Â
petting the animal, he then turned his gaze over to rui before supplying, “this is a dog.†dog. what a weird name for an animal. “apparently they used to be protectors of man. funny, isn’t it?†how odd that people used to rely on this dog to protect them. it looked like this furry little creature could barely harm a fly; how could it keep anyone safe?
after petting the dog for a while, he glanced at rui before adding, “you can pet him too, you know. he won’t bite.†or at least, he doubted that the dog would bite. he couldn’t be entirely sure. was he going to tell rui that? absolutely not; the guy would never forgive him.
his thoughts were cut off by a sudden, gentle rumble of hunger in his stomach. it was enough to make him frown with thought, unsure what to do. straightening, he glanced around at the wasteland surrounding them before supplying, “c’mon. let’s see if there’s a place where we can find something to eat....†if not, they might as well starve.
//this post is short i’m sorry i suck at timeskips
CAN THEY KEEP HIM I LOVE A DOG
Aika is like “screw emotions… except if i’m laughing at rui getting attacked by a dogâ€Â
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"stop laughing," the brunette pouted as he sat up to face the other male. using the collar of his shirt, rui wiped away the nastiness left behind by the beast. the foul smell it left behind still lingered, causing him to shoot a glare towards the being as if he could telepathically let it know how much it was despised. however, seeing akia so excited about something given their current circumstances almost made up for it. almost.
that thought quickly dissipated upon seeing akia's relentless bouts of affection towards the animal. "how can you touch it so easily?" he asked frantically, unable to look away from the unusual pair. both seemed to be enjoying themselves quite a bit, almost as if rui hadn't been brutally attacked just a few moments prior. his eyebrows knotted together as he crossed his arms, trying his best to let them both know just how frustrated he was. "and why wouldn't i be scared?" he murmured to himself, "it was trying to kill me, akia, kill me!"
as much as rui wanted to dismiss the other male, he knew that he was probably right. even if he had witnessed first hand that these dogs were the actual threat to whoever they were supposed to be protecting. how could they be so strong if they were too busy slobbering away at your face? how were they supposed to see any threats? rui huffed. it sounded like a whole load of nonsense.
the brunette sighed, heaving himself up from the dry ground. "i'd rather not." he kicked at the dirt beneath him, waiting not-so-patiently for the two to be finished. not only did rui have to survive outside of the city, but now akia was taken from him too. how was he supposed to get around without him? the dog was going to kill akia and rui was going to be alone, and then he would die too because akia is probably the only person in the world who knows how to survive outside of civilization. he can't wait.
upon hearing the other's prompt, rui deflated a bit. "yeah..." he gnawed at his lower lip, averting his gaze to the barren land before them. now that it was day, their surroundings were much more visible. while this should've been a good thing, the lack of vegetation or any other signs of life began to chip away at whatever hope the brunette had left. "i guess you're right."
he began to walk forward, his legs a little sore from their activities the night prior. "do you think we'll find anything?" he asked the other, keeping his gaze fixated on the cracked ground. the obvious answer was no, clearly not, but some part of him hoped that akia would supply him with a random bout of information regarding life outside the wall, or where their food originally came from, or something. [b]"i mean, i don't know. it's just so...empty."
/ ahahah i'm sry this took so long and is #terrible
i just wanted to get smth up ):
ok we can keep him!!!!! they can name him aww and rui will slowly grow used to him maybe...or he'll always hate him for taking akia away from him. we'll see
omg i feel that......let's hope he opens up . tell him i told him its ok to be sad sometimes.
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― it can't run anywhere except where its rails take it.
bump maybe ..? i hope you're well!!
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