I FEEL LIKE I'M DROWNING — benjamin's heartchart

[BENJAMIN]

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[spoiler=meanings]NEGATIVE
❥ jealous - character is jealous of yours
❥ lusts - character lusts for yours
❥ dislike - character has a dislike for yours, slight or large
❥ fearful - character is afraid of yours
❥ wants to avoid - character wants nothing to do with yours
❥ arch nemesis - character absolutely despises yours
❥ would strangle - character would love to kill yours, or at least get rid of them

NEUTRAL
❥ stranger - character and yours hardly know each other
❥ acquaintance - character recognizes the name of yours, but not much else
❥ respects - character respects yours, even if they possibly don't know much
❥ wants to know more - character wishes to know more about your character

POSITIVE
❥ admires - character admires yours
❥ protective - character is protective of yours, and will defend them
❥ friend crush - character wants to be friends with yours
❥ friend - character and yours are friends
❥ good friend - your character is seen as better than the average friend
❥ best friend - your character is the top notch friend
❥ family; close friend - character sees yours as family, biological or not
❥ crush - character has a crush on yours
❥ loves - character is deeply in love with yours
❥ adores - character admires yours
❥ wants to snuggle - character wants to snuggle with yours
❥ trusts - character trusts all of their secrets with yours[/spoiler]

WIN / [abbr=acquaintance]❤[/abbr] [abbr=respects]❤[/abbr] [abbr=wants to know more]❤[/abbr]
"Win is the guy who carried me into Flintlock, so... I mean, I RESPECT him for saving my life, technically, but I don't really want him to know that, since... Well, not going to lie, it doesn't feel good to have to be saved. I do appreciate him for doing that, though, especially for just an ACQUAINTANCE like me who showed up in Flintlock half-dead. Mm, overall I think he's an interesting person. He's kind of intimidating, but it's not a bad thing. Sometimes he seems warmer, and that's good—I do better around people who can at least sometimes unwind. I'm not sure I can be myself around him, though, kind of like most other people. Would he get mad at sarcasm? I don't know. I need to GET TO KNOW HIM better at some point."

BRENDAN / [abbr=acquaintance]❤[/abbr] [abbr=wants to know more]❤[/abbr] [abbr=protective]❤[/abbr]
"I've always done pretty good around kids, but Brendan's a little wary, I think. He's nice—kind of older, I think, but he's still pretty childish, so I'm comfortable with him. He likes chickens. I like chickens, too. I mean, not as much as him, but they're cute. I kind of want to GET TO KNOW HIM past a quiet chicken boy, but I'm really not sure how to get him to open up to me, considering I'm just an ACQUAINTANCE. I'm just... Kids kind of hit my soft spot, you know? It's like—I just want to PROTECT kids, and Brendan is included, since he's younger than me. I really do wish he'd talk more, because he seems like a sweet kid. He just seems so... Timid. I wonder if that's for any specific reason. I hope he's alright."

SIBERAS / [abbr=acquaintance]❤[/abbr] [abbr=respects]❤[/abbr] [abbr=wants to know more]❤[/abbr]
"I don't actually know Siberas all too well, aside from just his name, so that would make us ACQUAINTANCES. He seems like a really interesting guy, though. Kind of exotic, really. He speaks French, I think, and he's really... Expensive? He says he's a prince, so that makes a lot of sense. I'm not sure if I should trust that he's actually a prince, but I still kind of RESPECT him in the back of my head, since I know princes are pretty... Rich, I guess. And hot. I don't know what he looks like, but princes are supposed to be hot, so haha, kill me. Anyway, I think I want to GET TO KNOW HIM a little better in the future. He seems kind of nice, I think, from the very few times we've actually interacted. Maybe he could be nice to chat with."

PETER / [abbr=wants to know more]❤[/abbr] [abbr=friend crush]❤[/abbr] [abbr=crush]❤[/abbr]
"Mm... Peter's... Hh. I guess—well. Okay, to put things nice and simple, I guess he's—he's nice? I like talking to him. He really reminds me of this guy I used to know, my best friend, uh—Michael. He's kind of airy and he makes a lot of jokes, and it reminds me of better times, which... It's... Nice. When I first talked to him, I wanted to be his friend, but now my view on him is fucked, 'cause he went and kissed me and you know, I'm so fucking lonely that I actually sorta... LIKE him now, and it pisses me off. He's not going to like me back, and that's... Annoying, so I guess I just WANT TO BE FRIENDS with him, since... I probably won't get anywhere else, even if he reminds me so much of Michael and sometimes it's like he's taking words out of his mouth and I just want a second chance so badly. It's like he's—it's... I can't really explain. I don't want to explain. I just want to GET TO KNOW HIM better."

SAM / [abbr=acquaintance]❤[/abbr] [abbr=respects]❤[/abbr] [abbr=wants to know more]❤[/abbr]
"Sam is one of those people who you kind of just want to GET TO KNOW BETTER, I think. Or maybe that's just me. I don't really know, haha. She seems pleasant, but we haven't really talked much, I don't think. We're ACQUAINTANCES more than anything, because she's really one of the people I've barely actually talked to since I got here. I RESPECT her, though. She seems like a good member of this place, and she was nice to me even when we barely knew each other, even when I was being stupid and rambling for six years trying to ask for some damned food. Speaking of which, that was pretty embarrassing. Not that that has anything to do with Sam, really. I just am reminded of myself begging like a fuckin' dog. Just... Guilt trip. Constant guilt trip. Feels bad. I should probably apologize at some point."

[aureate]

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[hyacinthe]

pokes sib forward

[PETER M.]

Punts this dumbass

[samuel.]

slides sam forward

[BENJAMIN]

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