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[haruki]

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[size=8pt][font=verdana]Haru nodded, his tail tightly wrapped around his snow coloured paws. Glancing at the cats around him, he took in a deep breath. "My name's Haruki, thank you for helping me out." The young tom mumbled, using his manners as his mother instructed him to always do. His eyes flickered with annoyance once more as they continued to make a fuss over him. "Of course I can-" A yelp he failed to stifle interrupted his sentence as he put pressure on his hind leg. Heat flushed his cheeks as he realised how lame he looked in this moment, there was no point trying to act strong. "I er...maybe do need a little help.." Pride damaged, the white kit bowed his head and bit his lip. These people were trying to help him, maybe he should trust in them.

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[spoiler=mornings echo says we have sinned ★ march 8][size=8pt][font=verdana]general ; "I won't be blinded by the light"
★ haruki disharmony | haru, ruki, ru | male [ him, his ]
3 months mentally and physically | january 7th | capricorn | ages whenever
kit of shadowclan | former ranks and clans | any other alliance info
npc x npc | generation 3| disharmony | adopted by circusclown
heterosexual atm| no crush | hard to make friends with | single

appearance ; "Maybe the sun's light will be dim"
★ white tom | wears a black and white HAT with stars and tassels
haruki is on the small side, taking after his mother with a petit frame and short legs. his ears are not so much like hers, instead are half the size and grow more angled towards the tips. his thick white fur is surprisingly luscious as he is a lot more cautious about his appearance than others may think. his eyes are amber like his fathers however have a more reddish hue which stand out against his snowy pelt. haru's muzzle is thinner than average and his nose small but still very sharp when it comes to using it. [ reference ].

personality ; "And it won't matter anyhow"
★ mbti or alignment | neutral chaotic
— sarcastic, jealous, hot headed, suppresses feelings, diligent, independent, insecure.
haruki is just like your typical teen, equiped with sarcasm, unwavering confidence but also plenty of insecurities. at first haru can come across as cold, hot headed and rude. however underneath his 'strong' facade, he is really only an innocent child. haruki never likes to show his true feelings and instead will bottle them up. when it comes to social interaction, haruki tends to keep to himself when possible as he usually just gets annoyed by others. while he's not that great at making friends, once he does happen to get close to people, he tends to become very clingy. despite his mostly rude ways, haru is actually highly protective over his family and loved ones and will do anything for them. haruki loves sleeping and star gazing but fears heights and talking to girls.

interaction ; "If we're victims of the night"
★ easy physically | easy mentally | attack in amber
thinks fighting is a waste of time | relies on stealth and speed due to small size | won't initiate but will finish fights
will fight back | won't flee | usually won't surrender
may capture | won't torture | won't kill
untrained | doesn't have medical knowledge
power — un / discovered — control of power: 000%
power — un / discovered — control of power: 000%

[CIRCUSCLOWN!]

[align=center][div style="width: 450px;; text-align: justify"][size=9pt]He had to admit he had been surprised to hear words from the little form. Blinking a bit, his face would remain gentle as he responded. "I'm Circusclown." He'd say, noting the way Haruki flinched at the touch on his leg. "Whether it's just a small ache or not, the leg should be taken care of." He'd say calmly to him, tail flicking as he patiently perked his burned ears forward to hear what Haruki's name was. After all, if he didn't know a name he'd just continually call him 'little buddy' 'him' and 'champ.' And nobody wants that, most likely. Looking at Ruben as he approached, he'd respond simply. "I think his left hind leg was injured." He nodded.

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general ; "drink up baby"
★ circusclown disharmony | nicknames are circ and clown, former names are breadstick, uglyclown and clown | male [ he/him ]
two years three months physically and mentally | born november 13th, 2014 | ages realtime
guard of shadowclan | former exiles leader and blizzardclan head combatant (feralfront)
discord disharmony x npc | generation 2 | head of disharmony family | only loyal to family
demisexual | panromantic | crush unknown | afraid of being in a relationship
has ptsd, alcoholism and depression | will have flashbacks or panic attacks if he: sees overwhelmingly fast moving yellow or cyan colors, him feeling or touching bark, hearing someone with a distorted voice, feeling any type of unexpected rough contact, and having limited moving space


appearance ; "stay up all night"
★ domestic cat | always scowling | always smells strongly of alcohol
he is a light brown feline who has a lot of fluffy fur that's often tangled up covered in dirt and dust, and it also feels very greasy and gross. his head is lacking of the light brown color, and is completely white. he has a scar on the left side of his face, which has a stitched up glasgow smile meeting up with the scar. the other side of his face shares a glasgow smile, which is also stitched together. he has only one eye left which is the right one, and it is a dull blue almost lifeless color that seems to be bagging all the time due to exhaustion. the side of his face which has no eye has stitches on the top of his eye, and his eyelid is often closed over the eye socket that's still there, though it can be open if he is surprised or scared by something. [ reference ].

personality ; "with the things you could do"
★ chaotic neutral | anti-hero | the cynic
— cynical, insensitive, pessimistic, crude, hostile, family-oriented, overprotective, unpredictable
with a quick look at circusclown, somebody would probably be able to quickly dismiss him due to him having common disinterest, distantness or unnecessary complaints about everything. he rarely has anything positive to say or do, and will come off as a very dull person who wants nothing more then for others to go away. he is very unpredictable and capricious in behavior, and can with ease be watching with a bored expression and the next be a violent creature someone should steer clear of. despite the unpredictable nature, he is quick to make a decision he won't regret - he is never unsure about his decisions, which only worsens his unpredictable behavior. he is extremely cynical and pessimistic, and has a continual feeling of mistrust and pessimistic thoughts of the outcome of every situation. he has a tendency to be very vulgar, constantly with gross behaviors like burping and swearing. he has a tendency to be very unfriendly or harsh to others, and he is rarely sensitive unless in a good mood or if he enjoys somebodies company. he is at heart however, a genuine and sweet person who just wants to have a large family, but feels it is impossible due to his self-destructive alcoholic behaviors and is simply frightened that he'd be taken advantage of if he was to.

interaction ; "you won't but you might"
★ hard physically | hard mentally | attack in #c68ee2
doesn't like unnecessary death or etc | will start fights | will fight back | will flee if family is protected | will not surrender
might capture if family is threatened | might torture if family is threatened | will kill if family is threatened

trained to fight | has little to no medical knowledge
air elementals — discovered — can't control properly - if something triggers him it will go off
power — un / discovered — control of power: 000%[/spoiler]

[Ruvik]

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