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LOST IN EMPTY PILLOW TALK • finneus & christo - twistiethebear - 07-30-2018
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FINNEUS DOMINIC COLEMAN
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Re: EMPTY PILLOW TALK • finneus & christo - shizuknya - 07-30-2018
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christo xavier alexandris
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『 PERSONALITY TESTS┊CHRISTO. ♕ 』 - shizuknya - 07-30-2018
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(( HOGWARTS. ))
⏤- & GRYFFINDOR »» ❝ BLACK MARE. ❞
⏤- & GRYFFINDOR »» ❝ BLACK MARE. ❞
(( PERSONALITY TYPE. ))
⏤- & INFJ-T »» ❝ THE ADVOCATE. ❞
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ENERGY »» 62% INTUITIVE
NATURE »» 79% FEELING
TACTICS »» 51% JUDGING
IDENTITY »» 88% TURBULENT
[ STRENGTHS & WEAKNESSES. ]
[ RELATIONSHIPS. ]
[ FRIENDSHIPS. ]
⏤- & INFJ-T »» ❝ THE ADVOCATE. ❞
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ENERGY »» 62% INTUITIVE
NATURE »» 79% FEELING
TACTICS »» 51% JUDGING
IDENTITY »» 88% TURBULENT
[ STRENGTHS & WEAKNESSES. ]
[ RELATIONSHIPS. ]
[ FRIENDSHIPS. ]
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[abbr=KIND]AMITY[/abbr]
[abbr=TRUTHFUL]CANDOR[/abbr]
[abbr=BRAVE]DAUNTLESS[/abbr]
[abbr=INTELLIGENT]ERUDITE[/abbr]
『 tattoos & meanings┊christo. ♕ 』 - shizuknya - 07-30-2018
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(( TATTOOS & MEANINGS. ))
[div style="background=transparent; bordercolor=transparent; text-align: justify; width: 450px; font-size: 7.3pt; color: #383737; line-height: 125%; font-family: arial; letter-spacing: .8px;"]aside from the tattoos he shares with his faceclaim[found here] chris has gained others overtime. here is a list of all the ones he has gotten. this list may be updated overtime.left arm.
◌ on the back of his left arm is a tattoo he got with finn. it's a range of mountains with what looks like a sunrise over-top over them. this symbolizes the rough and rocky problems the two have gone through in life and the sunrise is like the start of something new for them. where they overcome these obstacles and start a new day.
◌ on his wrist is a simple little sun. it isn't too detailed. finn has a moon of a similar design on his ankle. this is another matching tattoo the two of them have that has lots of meaning.
right arm.
◌ the guitar on his forearm. the same meaning, but the soundwave is only of his mother saying 'i love you' because he never knew his father.
◌ on his hand he has the same swallow.
◌ the lightbulb tattoo. though a different meaning may come up to fit chris.
left hip.
◌ it's difficult to see but chris has a tattoo on his left hip. it's the initials 'FC' in an elegant font, where the C ties into a heart. if you couldn't tell, the 'FC' are finn's initials.
chest.
◌ over where his heart would be located is a small bundle of white geraniums, some of them having not bloomed fully. white geraniums mean 'healing' and since he's still healing from the event. but he's slowly healing, thus some of the geraniums are not fully bloomed.
『 personality tests┊finneus. ♘ 』 - twistiethebear - 07-30-2018
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(( HOGWARTS. ))
⏤- & SLYTHERIN »» ❝ OCICAT. ❞
⏤- & SLYTHERIN »» ❝ OCICAT. ❞
(( PERSONALITY TYPE. ))
⏤- & INFJ-T »» ❝ THE MEDIATOR. ❞
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ENERGY »» 70% INTUITIVE
NATURE »» 74% FEELING
TACTICS »» 79% PROSPECTING
IDENTITY »» 99% TURBULENT
[ STRENGTHS & WEAKNESSES. ]
[ RELATIONSHIPS. ]
[ FRIENDSHIPS. ]
⏤- & INFJ-T »» ❝ THE MEDIATOR. ❞
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ENERGY »» 70% INTUITIVE
NATURE »» 74% FEELING
TACTICS »» 79% PROSPECTING
IDENTITY »» 99% TURBULENT
[ STRENGTHS & WEAKNESSES. ]
[ RELATIONSHIPS. ]
[ FRIENDSHIPS. ]
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[abbr=KIND]AMITY[/abbr]
[abbr=TRUTHFUL]CANDOR[/abbr]
[abbr=BRAVE]DAUNTLESS[/abbr]
[abbr=INTELLIGENT]ERUDITE[/abbr]
『 tattoos & meanings┊finneus. ♘ 』 - twistiethebear - 07-30-2018
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(( TATTOOS & MEANINGS. ))
[div style="background=transparent; bordercolor=transparent; text-align: justify; width: 450px; font-size: 7.3pt; color: #383737; line-height: 125%; font-family: arial; letter-spacing: .8px;"]left ear.
◌ on the hollow part of his left ear, finn has a tattoo of the sound wave produced by chris saying you are strong. this is one of the things that chris would always say to him during withdrawal and finn got this because sometimes it is like he can still hear chris's voice saying that even when he's not around.
left arm.
◌ on his left arm he has another sound wave tattoo, the one that is produced by chris saying it's okay to cry. it's positioned on his wrist right across where it meets his hand and it's a good reminder for him, to have that there.
right arm.
◌ he has, in very small script, the date of his overdose on the inside of his bicep. this is important to finn because it also marks the official start of his journey to sobriety.
◌ on the side of his pointer finger, he has xρίστος in fancy script as a subtle nod to chris because that is chris's name written in greek and chris is greek. finn knew chris already had initials so he wanted to do something different but still just as significant.
shoulder.
◌ on his right shoulder, he has the tattoo that he got with chris. it's a range of mountains with the sun coming up over the top of them to symbolize not only the rough and rocky path they have been through but also that the dawn of a new day, that they have overcome and continue pushing through.
chest.
◌ on his left ribcage, finn has a tattoo that was written in chris's handwriting. it read's just breath with the j being replaced by a semicolon. for those who know, the semicolon represents a pause in the sentence where the author could've stopped a sentence but decided not to and has become a symbol for mental health. this was the first tattoo finn ever got and it made a lasting impact on him and it is his favorite tattoo.
right leg.
◌ on his right ankle is the other tattoo that he got with chris. while chris has a sun, finn has a simplistic moon and he enjoys it because chris is his sun and finn the moon. the tattoos have a lot of meaning to them and is very important to their relationship.
back.
◌ at the base of his neck, finn got a tattoo of the lyrics i'm a walking travesty but i'm smiling at everything from the song 'therapy' by all time low and it is actually written in alex's handwriting which he got shortly after meeting them and it's not that big, it's small but still in his handwriting. finn heavily relates to the song and it got him through a lot.
『 character questions┊finneus. ♘ 』 - twistiethebear - 08-08-2018
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what is your character’s name? does the character have a nickname? his full name is finneus dominic coleman and he regularly goes by finn though other nicknames include finny, bear, and fish
what is your character’s hair color? eye color? what kind of distinguishing facial features does your character have? does your character have a birthmark? where is it? what about scars? how did he get them? finn has a bit of a honey brown hair color that is paired with hazel eyes. his own distinguishing facial feature is on his left eyebrow which are two scars from having a champagne glass thrown at him. he has no birthmarks on his body. he has numerous scars and track marks all over his torso and arms from his time as a prostitute, escort, and stripper from far too rough clients and from shooting heroin.
describe your characters family. any brothers or sisters? if so, what’s their relationship like? are they still in contact? describe their parents or guardians if any. how were they treated growing up? what’s their relationship with their family now? he is the only child of anthony coleman and lucile davis who are separated but working on a relationship after about five years of being separated. his parents tried their hardest but when finn got into the life he pulled away from his parents and emancipated himself by direction of the pimp. currently, he has a very strong relationship with his mother and a very strained relationship with his father.
describe your characters friends. how close are they to their friends? how did they meet? finn has two close friends, oliver and diane. he met ollie when ollie was fifteen when finn was told he had to recruit someone by the pimp and after about a month, he got ollie out of it because for the first time he saw what it was doing to it. the backlash of saving ollie was enduring a lot worse. diane is like an older brother to finn and he helped him get out of the life. they met a while back but finn doesn't exactly remember how but diane has been with him through a lot.
is your character in a relationship? what’s her/his name, how did they meet, how close are they? describe dates they have or how they spend time together. yes, he is happily in a relationship with christo alexandris and they met in high school and have been together for almost four years and they are extremely close after all the hell they have gone through together. dates include going to the zoo and museums and nice dinners. sometimes they just stay inside and hang out.
have they ever had their heart broken? yes, he has had his heart broken two times. both heart breaks happened during the two break ups that he and chris had before finn committed himself to getting clean.
what is in your character’s refrigerator right now? on his bedroom floor? on his nightstand? in his garbage can? there's probably a bunch of fruit in his fridge at the moment as well as salad mix and sandwich meat and shredded cheese and some milk. on his bedroom floor there is a bit of dirty laundry, some dog toys, and a blanket. on his nightstand is a lamp, a framed picture of him and chris, a pair of glasses, most likely a water bottle, and his phone charger. his garbage can is currently empty because he empties it every day.
how does your character prefer to dress? he likes to dress in blank pants and a variety of patterned button up short sleeve shirts. he also likes to wear flannel and ripped jeans and he is normally in a pair of vans or converse.
how would someone who knows your character describe them? they would describe him as kind and willing to help people but also broken due to his past and he has a fragile confidence that can be shattered easily.
how would your character describe themselves? lame and broken.
what is your character’s house like? how is it decorated? the apartment he shares with chris is bigger than his first apartment and has a muted blue wall color as well as hardwood floors. there are pictures of them on the walls as well as a pile of blankets near the couch.
what is your characters bed/bedroom look like? is it messy or perfectly tidy or somewhere in between? their bedroom is a little less than tidy but it is by no means messy. maybe a few articles of clothing on the floor.
age? do they act this age? he is twenty years old but he tends to act a bit childish at times because he had to grow up super fast.
health? usually, finn is an extremely healthy dude.
is your character more athletic or intellectual or artistic, or something different all together? he is a mix of athletic and artistic. he enjoys working out but also playing piano and making music.
how do they feel about religion or other issues that affect them or their communities? he isn't religious and often only concerns himself in matters if someone is being homophobic or discriminatory.
who is someone that your character confides in? chris, ollie, and diane.
does your character have a secret? do they keep it well hidden or do they reveal it on occasion? to whom? for a while he kept the "profession" he was in from chris but then it all came out and he doesn't really keep secrets anymore because he isn't really good about hiding them.
who does your character care about most? chris and kalilah.
any children? if so, describe them. finn and chris have one child in the future, kalilah, who was born a month early. they hired a surrogate. she is the light of their life and the sweetest little thing in the whole wide world.
would your character kill to protect anyone? who? why? chris and kalilah because they are his whole entire would and he couldn't live without them.
does your character drink/smoke/or do drugs? how do they feel about this? how do others feel about this? for three years, he was a heavy drug addict but has since recovered. he wanted so badly to get clean and he hated himself. chris was very worried for him and was trying his best to help him even though it was hard.
favorites? food, color, etc. favorite food is any of the traditional greek food that chris makes. his favorite color is purple. his favorite animal is a wolf. his favorite season is fall. his favorite instrument is the piano. his favorite clothing item is the sweatshirt that he stole from chris. his favorite place to go on a date is the zoo.
what kind of music do they listen to? everything accept screamo and country and edm. he's very versatile in his music taste.
describe their hobbies. are they a musician, an athlete, what do they like to do? he's a musician and he likes to write music and songs.
describe their personality. he is an extremely sweet person despite the hell he has been through and his sweetness is paired with a delicate confidence and self security that is bound to break at the smallest things because he is still learning proper coping mechanisms and how to really function without drugs because it's hard. but he still has this rather sunny disposition that probably shocked people who met him during his drug addict phase and only saw who the drugs made him.
introvert or extrovert? both, it all depends on how he feels.
social or a bit socially awkward? how do they feel in social situations? same as the last question, it all depends on the day and how he is feeling.
how do they react to medical treatments/doctors? oof, finn hates doctors and he is terrified of getting shots. in fact, needles and shots are one of his triggers for his panic attacks because he still vividly remembers when the pimp forcefully shot him up with heroin while two people held him down to make him more compliant to a client's requests. he also hates iv's and they elicit the same response out of him.
fears? oh boy, where to start? there are so many that it'll just be a list without explanations. he is terrified of needles, strangers, overly crowded places, losing chris, becoming too much for chris to handle, loud banging, being given up on, and not being loved. there are others but i will add those later.
anxiety, paranoia, or any mental health issues? he suffers from anxiety and paranoia as well as post traumatic stress disorder and depression. all of these are a direct result of the lifestyle he used to participate in and the withdrawal.
what does your character dream of at night? if they have nightmares, what are they about? finn is constantly plagued with extremely vivid nightmares of a singular client who abused him the most and was a frequent client. most of the scars that aren't from his drug addition are from this client. he wakes up screaming and pushing chris away because he thinks chris is that guy and he has a crawling sensation all over his skin and he is sobbing and he can still feel the pain.
has your character ever been depressed? why? oh yes, finn has been depressed for a long time and constantly battles with it due to his traumatic past as well as when he was going through withdrawal because he'd have days where he would completely shut down and lay in bed staring blankly at the wall or be curled up in the corner of the bedroom in tears because everything just felt like it hurt and he felt like he wasn't ever going to get better and he wanted to give up every single time he hit those lows and just he still struggles but continues to fight.
give a backstory. why does your character act the way they do? does this backstory affect that? finn is the child of parents who divorced when he was young and was a prostitute, escort, and stripper for three years after being forced into it. he used heroin throughout it. this has affected his relationships and the way he acts around strangers. it also caused him to develop post traumatic stress disorder, sever anxiety, and a panic disorder as well as underlying depression.
how does your character react to loss? have they ever lost anyone close? he has never lost someone close to him but he would react with uncertainty and would not process that it happened and be in denial for a while.
what are some flaws/weaknesses your character has? he tends to bottle everything up, he digs his nails into his palms to the point where it draws blood because of panic attacks, and a very fragile confidence.
what are some good qualities about your character? he is a very genuine person especially since he got clean and he tries his very best to be a better person and to make his friends and chris proud of him. he is loving and very affectionate.
what are some of your character’s greatest achievements? his greatest achievement is beating his drug addiction and is probably his only real achievement.
what makes your character smile? laugh? seeing chris smile makes finn smile so wide. also playing piano and hearing chris sing.
what makes your character sad? cry? what makes him sad and what makes him cry are basically the same things. his father, the thought of losing chris, the paranoia that chris secretly hates him, and the thought of losing petunia.
does your character have any disabilities/obstacles? does your character overcome them? how? for about three years, he was addicted to heroin brought on by being forced to shoot heroin by the pimp. after a couple relapses, he was able to get through it. the withdrawal was hard but he had chris and ollie and diane and it really helped having his support system to get through it in the end.
is there someone they are likely to die for? who? chris and kalilah.
do they believe in the paranormal? life after death? he does not believe in anything paranormal but he'd like to believe there is life after death.
if your character went through something that had left them completely disabled, how would they react? in all honestly, he would shut down completely and push every single person in his life away because he'd feel absolutely useless.
what makes your character angry/upset? where do they go when they are angry? who do they confide in? the main thing that upsets finn is when people judge him because of his past and make comments about it and he normally will just sit on the couch completely silent, probably close to tears. the person he confides in is chris because chris has been through it all with finn and has seen him at his lowest of lows. he's seen him angry and when he's on the verge of suicide. chris is the one person he tells everything to.
how does your character feel about violence? finn doesn't really like violence because he's experienced so much of it from the lifestyle he used to lead as well as with his father so he prefers to stay away from it if at all possible.
『 text messages┊finneus. ♘ 』 - twistiethebear - 08-08-2018
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『 a chriseus playlist. 』 - twistiethebear - 08-08-2018
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finneus coleman
twenty
he/him , homosexual
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what is your character’s hair color? eye color? what kind of distinguishing facial features does your character have? does your character have a birthmark? where is it? what about scars? how did he get them? finn has a bit of a honey brown hair color that is paired with hazel eyes. his own distinguishing facial feature is on his left eyebrow which are two scars from having a champagne glass thrown at him. he has no birthmarks on his body. he has numerous scars and track marks all over his torso and arms from his time as a prostitute, escort, and stripper from far too rough clients and from shooting heroin.
describe your characters family. any brothers or sisters? if so, what’s their relationship like? are they still in contact? describe their parents or guardians if any. how were they treated growing up? what’s their relationship with their family now? he is the only child of anthony coleman and lucile davis who are separated but working on a relationship after about five years of being separated. his parents tried their hardest but when finn got into the life he pulled away from his parents and emancipated himself by direction of the pimp. currently, he has a very strong relationship with his mother and a very strained relationship with his father.
describe your characters friends. how close are they to their friends? how did they meet? finn has two close friends, oliver and diane. he met ollie when ollie was fifteen when finn was told he had to recruit someone by the pimp and after about a month, he got ollie out of it because for the first time he saw what it was doing to it. the backlash of saving ollie was enduring a lot worse. diane is like an older brother to finn and he helped him get out of the life. they met a while back but finn doesn't exactly remember how but diane has been with him through a lot.
is your character in a relationship? what’s her/his name, how did they meet, how close are they? describe dates they have or how they spend time together. yes, he is happily in a relationship with christo alexandris and they met in high school and have been together for almost four years and they are extremely close after all the hell they have gone through together. dates include going to the zoo and museums and nice dinners. sometimes they just stay inside and hang out.
have they ever had their heart broken? yes, he has had his heart broken two times. both heart breaks happened during the two break ups that he and chris had before finn committed himself to getting clean.
what is in your character’s refrigerator right now? on his bedroom floor? on his nightstand? in his garbage can? there's probably a bunch of fruit in his fridge at the moment as well as salad mix and sandwich meat and shredded cheese and some milk. on his bedroom floor there is a bit of dirty laundry, some dog toys, and a blanket. on his nightstand is a lamp, a framed picture of him and chris, a pair of glasses, most likely a water bottle, and his phone charger. his garbage can is currently empty because he empties it every day.
how does your character prefer to dress? he likes to dress in blank pants and a variety of patterned button up short sleeve shirts. he also likes to wear flannel and ripped jeans and he is normally in a pair of vans or converse.
how would someone who knows your character describe them? they would describe him as kind and willing to help people but also broken due to his past and he has a fragile confidence that can be shattered easily.
how would your character describe themselves? lame and broken.
what is your character’s house like? how is it decorated? the apartment he shares with chris is bigger than his first apartment and has a muted blue wall color as well as hardwood floors. there are pictures of them on the walls as well as a pile of blankets near the couch.
what is your characters bed/bedroom look like? is it messy or perfectly tidy or somewhere in between? their bedroom is a little less than tidy but it is by no means messy. maybe a few articles of clothing on the floor.
age? do they act this age? he is twenty years old but he tends to act a bit childish at times because he had to grow up super fast.
health? usually, finn is an extremely healthy dude.
is your character more athletic or intellectual or artistic, or something different all together? he is a mix of athletic and artistic. he enjoys working out but also playing piano and making music.
how do they feel about religion or other issues that affect them or their communities? he isn't religious and often only concerns himself in matters if someone is being homophobic or discriminatory.
who is someone that your character confides in? chris, ollie, and diane.
does your character have a secret? do they keep it well hidden or do they reveal it on occasion? to whom? for a while he kept the "profession" he was in from chris but then it all came out and he doesn't really keep secrets anymore because he isn't really good about hiding them.
who does your character care about most? chris and kalilah.
any children? if so, describe them. finn and chris have one child in the future, kalilah, who was born a month early. they hired a surrogate. she is the light of their life and the sweetest little thing in the whole wide world.
would your character kill to protect anyone? who? why? chris and kalilah because they are his whole entire would and he couldn't live without them.
does your character drink/smoke/or do drugs? how do they feel about this? how do others feel about this? for three years, he was a heavy drug addict but has since recovered. he wanted so badly to get clean and he hated himself. chris was very worried for him and was trying his best to help him even though it was hard.
favorites? food, color, etc. favorite food is any of the traditional greek food that chris makes. his favorite color is purple. his favorite animal is a wolf. his favorite season is fall. his favorite instrument is the piano. his favorite clothing item is the sweatshirt that he stole from chris. his favorite place to go on a date is the zoo.
what kind of music do they listen to? everything accept screamo and country and edm. he's very versatile in his music taste.
describe their hobbies. are they a musician, an athlete, what do they like to do? he's a musician and he likes to write music and songs.
describe their personality. he is an extremely sweet person despite the hell he has been through and his sweetness is paired with a delicate confidence and self security that is bound to break at the smallest things because he is still learning proper coping mechanisms and how to really function without drugs because it's hard. but he still has this rather sunny disposition that probably shocked people who met him during his drug addict phase and only saw who the drugs made him.
introvert or extrovert? both, it all depends on how he feels.
social or a bit socially awkward? how do they feel in social situations? same as the last question, it all depends on the day and how he is feeling.
how do they react to medical treatments/doctors? oof, finn hates doctors and he is terrified of getting shots. in fact, needles and shots are one of his triggers for his panic attacks because he still vividly remembers when the pimp forcefully shot him up with heroin while two people held him down to make him more compliant to a client's requests. he also hates iv's and they elicit the same response out of him.
fears? oh boy, where to start? there are so many that it'll just be a list without explanations. he is terrified of needles, strangers, overly crowded places, losing chris, becoming too much for chris to handle, loud banging, being given up on, and not being loved. there are others but i will add those later.
anxiety, paranoia, or any mental health issues? he suffers from anxiety and paranoia as well as post traumatic stress disorder and depression. all of these are a direct result of the lifestyle he used to participate in and the withdrawal.
what does your character dream of at night? if they have nightmares, what are they about? finn is constantly plagued with extremely vivid nightmares of a singular client who abused him the most and was a frequent client. most of the scars that aren't from his drug addition are from this client. he wakes up screaming and pushing chris away because he thinks chris is that guy and he has a crawling sensation all over his skin and he is sobbing and he can still feel the pain.
has your character ever been depressed? why? oh yes, finn has been depressed for a long time and constantly battles with it due to his traumatic past as well as when he was going through withdrawal because he'd have days where he would completely shut down and lay in bed staring blankly at the wall or be curled up in the corner of the bedroom in tears because everything just felt like it hurt and he felt like he wasn't ever going to get better and he wanted to give up every single time he hit those lows and just he still struggles but continues to fight.
give a backstory. why does your character act the way they do? does this backstory affect that? finn is the child of parents who divorced when he was young and was a prostitute, escort, and stripper for three years after being forced into it. he used heroin throughout it. this has affected his relationships and the way he acts around strangers. it also caused him to develop post traumatic stress disorder, sever anxiety, and a panic disorder as well as underlying depression.
how does your character react to loss? have they ever lost anyone close? he has never lost someone close to him but he would react with uncertainty and would not process that it happened and be in denial for a while.
what are some flaws/weaknesses your character has? he tends to bottle everything up, he digs his nails into his palms to the point where it draws blood because of panic attacks, and a very fragile confidence.
what are some good qualities about your character? he is a very genuine person especially since he got clean and he tries his very best to be a better person and to make his friends and chris proud of him. he is loving and very affectionate.
what are some of your character’s greatest achievements? his greatest achievement is beating his drug addiction and is probably his only real achievement.
what makes your character smile? laugh? seeing chris smile makes finn smile so wide. also playing piano and hearing chris sing.
what makes your character sad? cry? what makes him sad and what makes him cry are basically the same things. his father, the thought of losing chris, the paranoia that chris secretly hates him, and the thought of losing petunia.
does your character have any disabilities/obstacles? does your character overcome them? how? for about three years, he was addicted to heroin brought on by being forced to shoot heroin by the pimp. after a couple relapses, he was able to get through it. the withdrawal was hard but he had chris and ollie and diane and it really helped having his support system to get through it in the end.
is there someone they are likely to die for? who? chris and kalilah.
do they believe in the paranormal? life after death? he does not believe in anything paranormal but he'd like to believe there is life after death.
if your character went through something that had left them completely disabled, how would they react? in all honestly, he would shut down completely and push every single person in his life away because he'd feel absolutely useless.
what makes your character angry/upset? where do they go when they are angry? who do they confide in? the main thing that upsets finn is when people judge him because of his past and make comments about it and he normally will just sit on the couch completely silent, probably close to tears. the person he confides in is chris because chris has been through it all with finn and has seen him at his lowest of lows. he's seen him angry and when he's on the verge of suicide. chris is the one person he tells everything to.
how does your character feel about violence? finn doesn't really like violence because he's experienced so much of it from the lifestyle he used to lead as well as with his father so he prefers to stay away from it if at all possible.
『 text messages┊finneus. ♘ 』 - twistiethebear - 08-08-2018
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chrissy
Yesterday 12:20 PM
Read 12:39pm
what the hell did you put on him?
ollie and diane came over for a little bit and i said i wanted to dress toffee up and i think they went to petsmart and got that and i think toffee likes it, he won't let me take it off
Read 12:40pm
i see, okay. he looks kinda silly wearing a shark costume though but at least he looks happy
can he wear it for halloween?
Read 12:59
sure babe, and we can even go trick-o-treating if you want and walk him around the apartment complex
Yesterday 6:37 PM
finn i have a question for you
yeah what do you need babe?
Read 6:49pm
why is there a shrek mask in my backpack?
i don't know, i watched shrek while you were at work yesterday and i decided to put it in your bag while you were sleeping
Read 6:53pm
you're such a weirdo, i love you
Today 7:09 PM
hey chris, when will you be home?
Read 7:12pm
probably 30 min to an hour. they have me staying a bit late tonight. why? is everything alright?
i don't know. nothing feels right at the moment and i feel so empty and overwhelmed and i just want you to hold me and tell me everything is gonna be alright
Read 7:24pm
i'll be home soon, okay? i just need you to promise me something, that you'll hold on just a little longer, that you'll keep fighting so i can get home to you
okay, i'll try my best to do that.
Read 7:31pm
good, just remember to keep breathing. i'll be home soon enough i promise
i'll see you when you get home
Read 8:00pm
Today 8:02PM
hey finn, i'm almost home. are you in the bedroom or on the couch?
finn? you haven't responded in like ten minutes and i saw you read this, is everything okay? i'll be home in two minutes.
Today 11:52PM
i know you won't see this until you wake up and you won't see me until later because i work really early but just know that i am very proud of you. i know this is really hard for you and it takes a lot out of you but remember that i love you and care about you so so much. you are my best friend and i don't know what i would do without you. keep fighting because you are so strong. don't forget that it's okay to cry. you are so brave and you are getting through this. i'm so proud to call you the love of my life <3
also, ollie texted me and said he's gonna take you to see that new movie you were talking about a couple days ago and then out to lunch. i will lay out something for you to wear. have fun c:
『 a chriseus playlist. 』 - twistiethebear - 08-08-2018
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PATIENT LOVE.
— a finneus x christo playlist