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Re: and they go, i hate to say i told you so - writing - Legends - 09-19-2017
[align=center][div style="0px; width:400px; height:auto; text-align: justify; font-size: 8pt; line-height:13px;"]This Happened On Monday Its Dumb / this is honesly the dumbest thing
okay listen up frens,
so there's is this boy in my orchestra, let's call him Cas (because one time-no joke-he "accidentally" cosplayed as castiel my freshman year. like 100% wore a trench coat and blue tie TO SCHOOL and me and some other girl in my llatin 2 class pointed it out and he was like "eh idk i didn't mean to" but yeah that happened)
so i have like- a lowkey crush- like it's very lowkey but yea
and i've had this lowkey crush since lowkey last year but like it's all very lowkey
and i'm only on orchestra on monday (like he was last year because now he's a senior and isn't taking ap comb)
and he plays the ukulele and brought it for me last monday and he's such a good violinist he's honestly so good
But Anyway
(this is honestly the dumbest thing to tell you all smh @ myself)
but we didn't do anything so i sat and was taking notes and i had my leg out on another chair next to me
and he sits sorta near me anyway but he was sitting near me and he was taking AP Euro notes and his leg was crossed on his other leg like that triangle thing people do where they rest a book or laptop on their leg or whatever
so i'm just sitting and he taps my foot and i tap his food back and that goes on for like 25 seconds and i went back to my work
BUT
my friends this is the best part of this dumbass story
the tip of my shoe was continually touching his shoe and i was like "~cool~"
and then class ended but that was smallest and simplest thing and idk if he even noticed but it was cute
and the way i'm writing this sounds like i'm maybe freaking out but i'm just telling you guys that this cute-ish thing happened to me
Re: and they go, i hate to say i told you so - writing - crows - 09-19-2017
get married
Re: and they go, i hate to say i told you so - writing - vix - 09-19-2017
(09-19-2017, 10:55 PM)crows link Wrote: get married
Re: and they go, i hate to say i told you so - writing - Legends - 09-21-2017
[align=center][div style="0px; width:400px; height:auto; text-align: justify; font-size: 8pt; line-height:13px;"]journal entry no.5 / hella tried v happy
i had therapy today and i walked out with the biggest smile on my face. she said that this session was "full of realizations" and like, yeah, it was. we talked a lot about my friendships and so on and i got to tell her about how i'm really happy with who i am right now. like yeah, i still get depressed and be a bit too blunt but i'm happy with who i am and so on and so. it was really great. i blasted my favorite songs on the way home and was just enjoying life so much.
today was exhausting though. in psych we were analyzing the case of Andrea Yates and there was a tour going on that do so my teacher was like "i'm going to bring the tour kids in so they can hear this. we're gonna scare them but it'll be fun" since the class was having a discussion on what could possibly drive a mother to drown her five children and admit to it (the case of andrea yates) and that was actually fun. i almost feel asleep and precal tho and still have no idea what vectors are.
dad finally fixed my car, which is great. everything is just going okay right now, which i'm really happy about. i've got two birthdays coming up and i've already got their presents so there is legit no stress. i feel like a should make a small goal of talking to Cas a tiny bit more, as i really don't outside of orchestra on mondays. i'm okay. i'm going to be okay.
also, maybe i'll attempt to write more poetic things and one-shots on here since these entries are pretty mediocre
Re: and they go, i hate to say i told you so - writing - arrow - 09-21-2017
(09-21-2017, 03:16 AM)Legends link Wrote: [align=center][div style="0px; width:400px; height:auto; text-align: justify; font-size: 8pt; line-height:13px;"]i almost feel asleep and precal tho and still have no idea what vectors are.i was awake for precalc and didn't understand vectors until 20 minutes before the test,
i wish u luck fren
Re: and they go, i hate to say i told you so - writing - Legends - 09-21-2017
thank thank arrow, dw my friend helped with my homework and she's got a different teacher so i sorta get it ?
Re: and they go, i hate to say i told you so - writing - Legends - 09-21-2017
[align=center][div style="0px; width:400px; height:auto; text-align: justify; font-size: 8pt; line-height:13px;"]journal entry no.5.1 / hella, hella, Hella Tired
wow i'm exhausted. like god, i'm so tired. i'm meeting my tutor tonight to try and understand vectors but mom said that might not have texted him so maybe i won't be meeting tutor to try and understand vectors. i keep trying to watch veep and do my homework which is proving to be difficult but i hate doing those rhetorical analyses. they are exhausting and we were just assigned another one so that's nice, but i'll start it tonight or tomorrow because i try and get everything given to me done asap so that i'm always doing something and also so that my workload doesn't pile up. it's a great strategy if i wasn't tired all the damn time, but that's because i need more sleep.
other than my constant and giant workload, today wasn't so bad. i've gotten moodier as the day as progressed up until now. we did nothing in poetry today except for the freshman girl who read a poem that was highkey political and very good. we were all very impressed. my head hurts but i'll be home soon and i can shower or something. for now i'll sit in this panera and watch veep while either putting off work or replies as i wait for my tutor
Re: and they go, i hate to say i told you so - writing - Legends - 09-24-2017
[align=center][div style="0px; width:400px; height:auto; text-align: justify; font-size: 8pt; line-height:13px;"]journal entry no.5.2 / idk. i'm happy/sad/angry/scared/need to breathe
let's start this entry off with something a bit happier. let's talk about how much i love the secret life of walter mitty. that movie is pure magic and i cannot completely express how much i love it. i could watch that movie in any mental state and automatically feel better. it restores my faith in people and filmmaking honestly. i just, one review called it "life affirming" and i cannot think of a better description. the direction and the scenery and the soundtrack are just perfection. it makes me feel like i could do something with my life, or something along those lines. it's so a beautiful film i cry about it.
now to less happy things. i have no motivation to practice my violin and it's very self-destructive since i have to memorise pieces for a performance the studio has coming up. like i know i need to practice but i just can't figure out how and it's incredibly overwhelming. i need to get one it but i 1) don't want too 2) hate myself for now doing it but then i do nothing to fix that
it's also incredibly hot. like its almost october and it's going to be 80+ degrees this weel like wtf weather. it supposed to be cooler this weekend though so that'll be good. today wasn't so bad, except for me almost breaking my phone and not practicing violin. i went to sleepover party this weekend and about halfway through i began feeling like shit (like mentally/emotionally) which of course was great for me!1. but earlier me and my friend (let's call her Kay b/c she loves this singer named Kay Flay) me and Kay went to target and i bought some halloween things and we played around with the halloween interactive things and it was great.
family life has been less than stellar. i don't want to get into it... but it's not superb.
today i had a panic attack in my car because i sped through a red light since it was yellow and it thought i could make it, and it's near an interstate off-ramp and a police car with it's flashing lights on came down and was behind me and i thought shit i'm getting pulled over and the police in the car like aggressively gestured me to pull over and i did but they sped past me and turn off the road little ways ahead but i was so scared since I'm still on a restricted license that they were coming for me. not to make it worse but i was listening to fall out boy on shuffle on my spotify and the ng that came on was a live version of their song thriller so the entire time this happened the background music was a crowd screaming and it was the most stressful experience i've ever had. after i went by the rad that the cop car turned down, i put on hamilton and tried to call myself down but i was almost crying while attempting to steady my breathing. it was just great.
school looks like it's going down hill. constant work and so on. and the most productive thing i've done today was the shower the pool off of me from the sleepover i went to. it's getting dark outside and i can't wait to sleep and pray that my phone works tomorrow. i'm going to be okay. cooler and spookier days are coming. i'm going to be okay.
Re: and they go, i hate to say i told you so - writing - crows - 09-24-2017
hugs leggy
omg i feel you with the licence thing it's so bad
i just,, really feel the journal post a lot ok it's gonna be ok legs you and me we've got this
Re: and they go, i hate to say i told you so - writing - Legends - 09-25-2017
hugs crows
i was scared it was so bad
it's ok crows, we're going to be ok
idk when but i believe you
we've got this
we're going to be ok